Sick and tired of being sick and tired!!

[fedup23]

I've been using hydrocodone for over three years.My Wife and Kids doesn't know I'm on day three now and feel horrible I feel like a zombie no motivation what so ever,depression,not sleeping ect....I'm scared to tell my Wife what I'm going thru.It all started at my job I was a technician for a cable company for about 6 years layed off a year ago and when I lost my job i stared taking 6 to 8 pills a day.This is my fourth time detoxing from this demon and during the detoxing I told my wife i'm just very sick again.I think I'll tell her tonight but afraid of being judged.......Just want my life back and to be happy.  

[133113]

Energy starts to come back in spurts after a few days.  Do yourself a favor and cancel the doctor and scripts if you still have access.  The biggest hurdle for me was doing this because every time I knew I could go back and I always would.

Great job on Day5 keep up the good work

[fedup23]

On day five now starting to get my energy back and starting my day early instead of late.

[fedup23]

Yes your right thats why I keep failing and yes the meds were prescribed. I'm actually doing research as of now on recovery care after the detoxing.

[dominosarah]

Our secrets keep us sick.  Telling your wife may not be a real joyous occasion but it will be out there on the table.  We need to be held accountable for our actions.  You will feel better getting this off your shoulders.  You also mention this is your 4th time detoxing.  Are you getting your pills from a doctor?  Have you thought about recovery care?  Doing it our way doesnt work.

[fedup23]

I'm a pretty strong minded person and I can tell you this drug is a beast it overrides your conscious! I already told my wife that we need to talk tonight.I have a little more energy on day three I just keep telling myself one day at a time.

[sharlola35]

Hang in there..you can do this!!!  You are stronger than you think, keep posting, we are all here for you :)

[kyle505]

kk is correct. However, you understand your relationship with your wife much better than we do. It will be your decision. I finally told my wife, kids and doc. All were very supportive. When you're going through detox, your head finds anything it can to stress/panic about. The more of those things you remove, the better, physically AND mentally, your detox will be.

[bettermomma]

Hello and welcome, I've read your post and I can relate to you, when it comes to "your own secret demons". We are all here to help you and support you thru this. Day 3 is the worse day, well let me rephrase that, the beginning of your worse few days. Anyway I have friends here, that should be along shortly to help as well. I, like you, am ashamed to tell my husband and loved ones what is going on... but if you really want help, open up to them. They love you for the person you are, not what you have done. Shame should only be temporary, you are not your addiction. As far as your wife goes... being a wife myself, if she loves you like she should, she will only want to help you or get you help. I told my husband, lastnight that I was on day 4 of St and he never judged me... only asked me a million questions then agreed to help me through this trying time in my life. I believe in you and I believe in death do we part. My prayers and support are with you, god bless!
-momma

[kk1303]

I took my last pill this morning. I've been going thru withdrawals for a day and a half now, tho. I told my fiance last night that I was having withdrawals (not the flu). It felt soooo good to tell him. He didn't judge me, he was a little disappointed, but still...he didn't judge me. He has just been giving me love and support ever since I told him. I encourage u to tell your wife.