i posted this 2 years ago, when I was one year clean. I am now 3 years clean, and mostly thanks to this group. i wanted to post this again. When you feel all hope is lost, it's NOT:
This summer I have a ton of socks. They are mostly white Hanes socks, the kind you get in the packages of six. Most are too big for me. I want to throw them out, but they are brand new looking.
Ya know why I have so many socks? Because this time last year I was in withdraw. This time last year my feet and hands would drip sweat non stop 24/7. Any time I could muster the strength to go to the market I bought a pack of socks, as I was using I don't know how many pairs per day.
So now this summer I am here so happily looking at this drawer full of socks and so happy to know that I don't need them now. Wow have things changed form one summer to the next. Last summer I couldn't walk a half a block without feeling like I was gonna die, now I walk the dogs and enjoy it. Last summer was really the best gift I ever gave myself, or anyone. Last summer freed me and gave me this summer and all summers to come, and a lot of useless socks.