Stess crisis alone trying to stay clean

[petiteme]

Well my husband is drinking heavy living with a girl and wants his things but when asked if he wanted to see his daughter he said no no time hes very hard inside and I am not I hurt this is soooooooooooo hard to do when I am in such pain emotionally and facing a whole new lifestyle clean with out pills. It will take time for me to be stronger. I will do it but right now it hurts alot. My daughter deserves better and doesnt get it. I have so many responsibliltys alone now and boy would a pill relax me. My brain says thats dumb but my addiction says oh help....just be there for me thats all. This is awful timing I am raw from being clean such a short time and now this.

[wait2long]

i am sorry hun...this is something you didnt need right now...but stay strong...you can do this, you will see the other side soon, and you will have all of this behind you...happiness is just around the corner...you are doing right by your daughter and yourself...i a just sorry you have to hurt....stay strong hun!!

[LIZZIE LOU]

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[10356]

I'm so sorry for the pain you are going thru, you deserve so much better, Let your little on be your foundation to build a new clean and sober life for the both of you, Once the hurt subsides a little, the anger will come and let that be the wind under your heals. You are stronger for not taking the pills obviously stronger then your husband. I just wanted you to know I"m here for you limbo

[LIZZIE LOU]

i'm sorry you are going through so much right now.

taking that one pill...will more than likely lead to two, then three...and you know the rest of the story :(

stay strong sweetie...and if you feel you cant do this for yourself...then do it for your daughter.  she needs you to be the best mom you can be :)  your husband is drinking and living with another woman and you are worried about him not wanting to see his daughter?  doesnt sound like it is a very good situation for her to be in right now, does it?  you need to take care of yourself!!!!!!  you cannot change the person your husband is and the kind of father he is...but...you CAN change who YOU are.

you can make it.  might not be easy and you might think that you just want to give up...but that is your addiction talking to you.  YOU CAN BE STRONGER THAN YOUR ADDICTION.

hugs,
kim