I am a week clean from 15mg 4x for a year. Take for bad lumbar problems. Lost 60lb so now
There is less twist on the back. Also do Pilates for people with messed up backs.
I have an addictive history with time in AA, and have never handled narcotic meds well.
Had meltdowns with alcohol and benzos in the past, but that is not my problem now.
I know I am in too big of a hurry sometimes to be "all better," but boy am I foggy. Simple tasks like
shopping or showering take it out of me- I really have to concentrate on what I am doing. I suffer from
anxiety as well, but do not want any more meds.
I have read this website about the Thomas recipe, and have been supplementing the minerals and amino
Kind of rambling, but I would like to hear other people's experience in "getting the thinking cap"
back on. Boy when I was using the oxy, I felt like I was walking 10 feet high, and I am a professional
person like many here on the forum- I had nerves of steel after my beloved pill would take hold.
Now I am really timid, and almost afraid of people. I am not working and just began unemployment, so the
money thing is covered with a supportive working wife.
I just can't bear the thought of taking a bottle of Oxy with me to the hearafter. If that costs me some panic
attacks so be it.
Even though I walk a little funny (scared of hurting the back) and just wobbly, it's nice to write something genuine this
Afternoon, last time a year ago on here I was full of @&$)
So I will appreciate any and all thoughts on the process, however slow, of becoming human again, and
getting my physical and mental abilities back.