Stopping after only a month

[Humbl]

I was released from prison on may 26th after 5&1/2 years. Prior to getting locked up I was using benzos and opiates for a couple years and my hazy brain caused me to end up in jail. I got a job my last 4 months in work release and am now a manager at the company. My head was clearer than it's ever been in my adult life through sobriety, reading, physical exercise, and deep self analysis. I work 55-65 hours a week and am free. About a week or so after release I got some opiates without even thinking. A handful of co workers use pills. In the past month I've done an assortment os pills. (roxy,suboxone,percocet) I have to stop. I'm on probation and get urine tests. I may get one in 7 days. I did 2 perc 10s and half a roxy early yesterday. I decided I would stop after that. I don't feel super horrible but as I got rl

[atthebeach]

good for you. living and loving life. stay away from those bad boys at work.dont let them drag you down. you got this. please check into some aftercare.

[Humbl]

Greetings people. Living and loving life! Work is great again like when I started the job. Thanks for the positivity. It helps immeasurably. Forward ever.

[jerry4664]

great job you have made it longer than most you just have to look ahead the pills are nothing you are the man keep it up...

[tgtiffany]

:)  I like that ... "Live up, not down" I'm glad that you had a good day at work!!!  Dont' forget to smile ;)

[atthebeach]

what a great report from you. keep on looking up. keep fighting the good fight,keep on truckin, keep on keeping on, you have a wonderful positive attitude and that is so important. please look into some aftercare, take a bus,walk,run, take a train, the support will really benefit you and help you from relapsing.
when you see the reality of drug abuse on someone else it is an eye opener.
thanks for checking in. congrats you are great.
keep up your guard
praying for you
debbie

[Humbl]

Good day at work. A kid who's in work release who I got a job was sick today from taking suboxone. It's crazy. He was throwing up and pretty worthless to me as his supervisor. I was super productive and felt good.

[Humbl]

I feel pretty good. Going to work and happy to have sfopped. Life is challenging enough without extra stress from drugs especially for someone in my position. Love to all. Have a beautiful day drug free. Live up not down

[buprenex]

Humbl
In response to your private e-mail regarding your idea it is a matter of strength it is not about that, though you will need some! See Below!

It is never a question of being strong, you have a brain disease and you need treatment and the best you can do is arrest the active addiction part, which will stop you from going to jail or ending up dead.

You need treatment so seek it out!

[Humbl]

Thank you folks. All the kindness and support is helping. I must remain focused and true to my intentions. I actually feel more clear headed right now than I have in a month. I'll keep posting. Thanks.

[atthebeach]

Great job. Keep moving it is so important to get the endrophins producing again.keep pushing yourself. Eat lots of fruits and veggies. Continuing to work is a good thing it will keep you busy and keep your mind occupied.
Keep up the good work.
Debbie

[Humbl]

I did 25 minutes on an elliptical machine today, ate well, feel great, and will be back to work tomorrow for 11 1/2 hours. Working out is what I was missing among other things. Obviously I have issues and I intend on excavating them. Love!

[tgtiffany]

Just remember as Gnarly always says, it's 1/3 physical and 2/3 mental.  Be ready for that when it comes later as it will catch you when you least expect it! Keep your head up ;)

[Humbl]

I'm dead serious at this point. What I'm going through now is a walk in the park compared to the last 8 years so I'm standing up strong and getting back to running and good nutrition. Thanks

[buprenex]

Your welcome. Glad you read before it was censured. That should show the comments on this forum are not both sides, therefore worthless for the most. Get serious!!!!!!
Buprenex kind regards

[addict3]

A phone call would probably get you a ride.......

[vicki595]

The forum is good but it's not enough for you or for anyone who is serious about getting clean.

I'm sure not having a license wouldn't stop you from getting pills back in the day...don't let it stop you from getting to a meeting!  You need to do something and fast!!

[Humbl]

I live with my parents and while i have a car I can't get my license until I take aclass which starts in august. It's difficult to get to work as it is but I may have to wait until I'm licensed to get to meetings. I think this forum is a good place to start

[IBKleen]

Put as much effort into getting some aftercare as you did to "cleanse" your system to pass the drug test. You'll be ahead of the game.

Good luck.

[Humbl]

I'm not taking anything but vitamins now and I don't feel too bad after the nap I just took. I actually did take a dayquil and it helped. I'm xeroxing my system. I feel confident that I will pass any test. I will try to get to a meeting

[buprenex]

If what you say is true, a few pills over a few days and a drug test in maybe a week!!

Stop, and you had better pass your test. Quit your job, do NOT hang around anyone you use to know related to your addiction and use. Go to ninety meeting in a row.

Do not pray you will pass, there is no Diety that will save you, it is if you pass luck.with a good decision to stop! Perhaps you should come clean with Parole before you test and do what they tell you even if it includes jail time. Your not ready to quit and a few months maybe better than losing your life one way or the other!!

Your going back if you do not get lucky.
Sincerely Buprenex

[vicki595]

Did you take that last Tylenol#3?  Be sure there's nothing else around you or in the house!
This s serious business!  You simply cannot take pills anymore. It's over!

Right now, it looks like all those years had no impact on you!  Don't let it be that way!

Keep posting! And good luck!!

[Humbl]

Thanks everyone who posted. I didn't get much sleep last night. Feeling the symptoms though NPR as bad as before when I did them way longer and harder. I'm calling out of work today. It was my short day anyway. I'm going to tell the people at work tomorrow who take pills not to offer them anymore. I'm doing this. I'll keep posting.

[dominosarah]

Get into some type of recovery care.  It is vital to our success in recovery.  You know where you want to go with your life so put a plan in place and start moving forward.  Those pills will only send you back into he!!....Keep posting.         sara

[overopiates]

1st congrats on getting out.I know Its a really tough adjustment for u.My brother did8years(basically most of his20's)now after8years out he is doing AMAZING has his own business&has his dream home,cars,motorcycles etc BUT works WAY TOO MUCH(7days a week up2-18hours very physical work)He had the bussiness within1year&bought his home w/in3 when the market was still good he got n WAY OVER HIS HEAD FINANCIALLY.Im telling u this part for2reasons1st u can LITERALLY have all u want if your willing2bust your butt also though dont get overzealous n over your head getting all the things u want but barely have time to enjoy them cause u have to work24/7 to keep them.Like were addicts of pills hes addicted to exercise&work addiction is addiction.I was on probation misdameaner years ago&did u/a every month I was  so dumb did pills all the time but was LUCKY never came up dirty.Just stop I did45days ago.Sucked but I feel better than I have n MANY MANY years.You want to enjoy your freedom clear headed.Whats the difference between being n prison losing over5years&staying high not having any quality of life outside?ur a prisoner to drugs.I believe  it takes a heck of a lot more will power to do a long stint n prison than getting off pills especially since u came out ur working getting ur life back n order&quick.You CAN DO THIS AND WILL.I would definitely look into aftercare of some kind.Good luck