Temptation

[Madisonjsmom]

My friend just called wants me to take her to pick up her script for 120 percocet.  Was having a good day. Now I am anxious and craving. I did not answer the phone, need encourgment.

[NautyOne]

Good job woman.........dang it......I haven't had a pedicure in months....or a manicure....i'm starting to look like Howard Hughes.......i don't know why lately I dont' want to leave my house.....I just saw theres a new forum.....Agoraphobia?  maybe i need to check it out.

Enjoy your peddie.......I'll just sit her with my hammer toes and bunyuns, and my nasy cuticles.......Nothing like a little Me(you) time to make you feel better.  Enjoy!!!

luv,
Nauty..........

[lonleylibra]

You handled this beautifully! You ARE a strong woman. When I first got clean and able to leave my house the first thing I did was get a pedi too! Tomorrow is a new month for new beginnings! So proud of you.

[gizzy32]

Sounds like you passed a big test here today:) Hope you enjoyed your lunch and the craving is gone now. It's these type of things that make us stronger and you did great today. Congrats on those 8 days.

[Coolio Hernendez]

Vicomom is right you are a bad a$$.  After i read thru the posts and saw that your friend was going to "make it worth it" and you didnt go...

that makes you a hard core bad a$$....Youre gonna be fine.

[Coolio Hernendez]

I do this every time so i know what your going thru......Once you put your mind in to thinking about it...it makes the cravings worse cause you know how close you are to getting them....and then you start justifying....youll just do a few or i wont do any i just want to have a few in case.

So it looks like you didnt follow thru....Thats AWESOME !

You are very strong.....stronger then i am most of the time.

[lisa650]

I am relieved that you made the right decision.  I was in the same predicament last year.  Iwas on my 7th day and still not feeling quite right, i called my friend and asked her if she would like to go to the park for a walk with me(cause supposedly she was on her 3rd day) she agreed and as soon as i got there, she said can you please run me over to Marc's? i felt trapped and she looked so sick so i gave in then she wanted a ride to pick up some money, and where i took her that person was being raided for selling cocaine, to think i could have been mistaken for someone trying to buy and could have been arrested.  Thank God that didnot happen. By this time it started to cool offf so the park was off,but she wanted to come to my house and kick it,(cause she lives behind an alley, and wantd to sit on my front porch and relax), but hell... all this time i am thinking about the damn pills in her purse, and she offered me some.  The longer she stayed the more i wanted the pills.  Finally i  thought of the dangers of me going bak on the pills and the wds that i would have to go thru again so i told her I'm sorry girl, but you have to go. she asked why? and i said cause those damn pills are calling my name, to which she replied, just dont think about it! ha as if it really was that easy, she of course was already feeling good, and she still had the nerve to ask me for a ride two blocks down to another girls house, i told her no and made her walk.  I dodged the bullet that day, but made me realize she is not my true friend or she never would have put me in that predicament. So yay for you, sometimes we have to put ourselves first!

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

Doesnt any drugstore deliver that you now of? They still do that around here for you ..........

[dominosarah]

Am glad you chose not to go and take her.  That is not your responsibility.  You have 8 days under your belt and that is great.  You take care of yourself.  That is what is important.  Enjoy your lunch and your pedicure!!!!!    stay strong        sara

[Madisonjsmom]

Thank you so much.  I am in tears right now don't know why. I hope it  is from all the support I have from this forum.  OK I am drying my tears and on my way to lunch with the most important thing in my life!  Love you guys.  Thanks thanks and thanks!  I will make it this time.

Much Love
Amy

[road2recovery]

WOW!!!  That was a great way to make a plan , that you know YOU cannot break...I knwo when my little one knows i am going eat lunch with her, SHE is all smiles and looking for me!!!  GREAT JOB!!!!!!!
YOU are now just that much stronger!!!  YOUR friend will find a way to get it, WORRY about you right now.......
CONGRATS!!
r2r

[VicoMom]

That was a tough call... To over-talk that voice that can make all the excuses and promises in the world and come out on top... It does qualify you for being one! :)

I agree... Treat yourself to an ice cream at lunch with your daughter... and then look at her and know that you made the right decision.

Your resolve gives me strength and hope for my own.

[tryinhard78]

I am so glad you decided not to take her. Enjoy your day and treat yourself GREAT for the day...You do deserve every bit of it. Hope you have a wonderful day!!
~Susie

[Madisonjsmom]

Thanks,  never been called that before but it feels pretty good!  I feel good about my  decision.Thank God for this forum. Posting really does work!

[VicoMom]

GREAT DECISION! GOOD FOR YOU!

You are a bad @$$!!!

[VicoMom]

Another thing... I noticed you said you were having a good day prior to this call... Isn't it disturbing that ONE PHONE CALL can take a good day and damn it to hell? That's the most ****ed up thing about these pills.

You control your response... Not the pills.

STAY STRONG.

Sorry if I am being pushy... I know where you're at... not EXACTLY, of course, but I've visited the ballpark.

[Madisonjsmom]

OK everyone this is what I did.  Called my husband(he has been my support through all of this besides everyone here) I told him I will not have my cell phone on today, of course he asked why.  He was very mad and asked if he needed to her.  I told him I would handle it.  Called my daughters school,  told them to let her know I would be there to have lunch with her(can't back down from that).  Then I going to have pedicure!  Thanks everyone

[VicoMom]

I know you feel for her... Is there anyone else who could do it? DAY 8!!! That's awesome! Don't let anything, even your sympathy for her predicament get in the way of what you are doing... Your health, your well being, your future, and the future of your child(ren) are far, far more important.

There is a chance you could do this, she could offer you some and you could say, "No thanks." But there is an equal, if not greater chance, that you will say, "Just a few... No biggie."

The slide back down hauls @$$. The crawl back up is MISERY... You know that.

Sorry that's so lame... I should probably stitch that on a pillow or something....

You should tell her what you are trying to do... If she is indeed your friend... She will understand.

I'm so sorry you have been put in this situation. Keep posting.

[tryinhard78]

I know all to well the I'll make it worth your while speech that made me relapse sooo many times. If it is bothering you this much just hearing the messages just think of what it will do with the meds being offered to you. I would hate to see you relapse you have worked so hard to be clean..Does she know you are clean now?

[sunshinedaydream3]

wowwww

thats a tough spot

turn ur phone off. leave it at the house.
and go do something that u like to do...

praying u stay strong.

[Madisonjsmom]

Her message said  she has no gas and no money, and if I take her and pay for her script she will make it worth it to me.   I feel for her because she is in chronic pain,  but I am only 8 days clean and do not trust myself yet.

[Madisonjsmom]

Thank you so much,  she is now calling my cell phone. I am not answering. Maybe I should answer and just end it.  Its overwhelming!

[VicoMom]

Oh God... What a predicament. On the one hand - if you picked up the script... you might very well hand it over to her and not take any. However, even if you do that... You are going to torture yourself over this. Just knowing that you can call her... What a mind ****.

Is there anyone else that can do this for her? I don't know how far you are into detox or being clean... but even if you are only 2 days in... You do not want to repeat those two days...

Be strong. That little voice speaks LOUDLY...

I wish you strength and perseverance.

[tryinhard78]

I feel for you on this one...I would keep ignoring the her phone calls or you can tell her you think you are coming down with the flu. I don't know how long you have been clean but you do not want to go down the road of misery again. You can get through this,go out side and suck in all the fresh air you can,stayy on here and post,post,post...I'll stay on here for as long as you need. Stay Strong you CAN do this!!!!