Also, I forgot to mention, that b4 the detox I went on a bender on Fiorinol tabs to where I was in a blackout.....did things I don't remember....lost a few things in the kitchen and my BF is ready to leave me! He was soooooo pissed! And I am soooo sorry! WTH! WHY do I do sh#t like that? Never again!!!
Hello and welcome back.
They do have online AA meetings this is the link.
Have you been to a substance abuse support group before?
NA, AA, snart recovery, celebrate recovery.
A psychology, therapist, substance abuse counsrlor.
Tfats also an alternative.
It is very gard to stay ckean and in recovery eithout some real life support.
Listen to music, exercise, clean, organize, go for a walk. Not sure where you live and what temperature are you at now but if you can get outside and do some things outside.
So you still have one more pill to take? How long of you been doing a taper for? Are you having physical withdrawal? You are not alone in this we are here to support you.
Keep the faith.
Just putting this out there metadone helps with cravings. But if not for you then it's not for you.
Things are not going well at all!! I feel TERRIBLE!!! Like I want to chew nails and spit tacks!! I haven't slept in daaaaaayyyyyys and with out any pain meds, my hip and shoulder are killing me with pain!! I rub that RX cream into my hip/leg but it doesn't help! All night I just flop back and forth trying to get where it's not SO painful.......but I'm like the Princess on the Pea ! There's NO way I will be able to continue without the pain meds. There's just no other way! I can hardly get up the stairs and that's with one foot at a time!......".OOooohhhh....Sister Morphine, can't you see I'm not that strong !!" :-(
Hi you havent taken any pills for a week? Sorry you are feeling so bad. What is your plan now? You said you don't think you can get off the meds fully are you trying to get off the meds fully?
Your pain is going to feel worse right now. Rebound pain is no fun but it does get better. Your brain is playing tricks on you at this point.
How often do you run out of meds early?
LOL....I could feel her exasperation when I'm sure she slammed the keyboard to put the word "Plan".....not laughing at you either, remembering how hard it was in the beginning to get clean!
Hot epsom salt baths, loud music, watching funny comic video's, these are a few things that I used during my detox to help. Right now though, you just have to push your *** forward! You want it, you will do it! If you want to be free of having to plan your day around who, what, when, where and HOW to get more pills then keep pushing yourself forwards! You can do this! There is a freedom on the other end that I had totally forgotten existed b/c I had been so numb from all the pills. It's worth EVERY ****** FEELING YOUR FEELING RIGHT NOW!!!
If your stuck at home currently what are you doing during the day....like routine?
Well then....I'm not sure that the people on this site (including me) are going to be able to help b/c this is a site to get off of ALL mind altering substances. That's probably why your not getting the answers your looking for. But good luck.
You have been in this vicious cycle for a long time now. I hope you can finally come to terms with all of this as what you are doing doesnt seem to be working in your favor.
I don't know how old you are but once you get clean you will be hypersensitive to your pain for months. At least I was... I found pain that I didn't know existed! Diet, meditation, and activity helps me. I also sleep in a proper hung hammock. Broke back at 19. Diagnosed with degenerative disc disease at 38 and began opiate dependency. Wanted to get clean at 55 and went on Suboxone. Stayed on Suboxone for 7 years (not a good idea). Finally got clean and free at 62. I have pain however it is about the same as when I was medicated. I wish you luck in your journey!
Thanx to everyone who answered. I'm just trying to get from one day to the next. I wouldn't be having these problems IF I just stayed on my meds and quit trying to get off...then just to go back on them. The big problem has been just ME mis-managing my meds! So, it's MY fault if I run out or short. :-( I have to quit this see-sawing ! By the way, what I'm on is 15mg MSContin 2x/day and 10mg. Oxycodone 4x/day . But I took a few extra Oxy's due to pain.