Hi there. I came across this thread searching for help with detoxing from opiates. I have 3 children, and I really want to stop taking them. About a half a yr ago I attempted it and made it 3 days, I felt horrible for starting up again. Now that I kniw what the pain of quitting is like I'm afraid to do it again alone. My husband is in another state working and I am home alone with the kids all day everyday. So knowing what road lies ahead of me and having to continue on with a busy day is terrifying
Hang in there I'm going through the same ****. Treat each symptom as it comes... Your body is in a process of self healing and rewiring its expelling all the toxins.. at 1st it gets worse then everyday is better and another step forward ... Good luck
True what Luckytwice said, but I know it still hurts. Life is full of ups and downs and if someone walks away at the first crisis, better to know now. I lived it and to not have the support when you need it (especially when you do give it,) really hurts and ends up breeding resentment and that is really hard to fix.
Keep doing what you're doing. Life is full of surprises ... when the right person walks into your life, you'll be ready!
Wish I could play something, especially the piano!
Oh well, better this happen now than 10 years and a huge mortgage and 4 kids from now.
If she didn't love you enough to see you through this, then she never loved you much in the first place.
Relationships/marriage isn't just a bowl of cherries, there is good times and bad, (mostly bad in my case) I'm lucky that my wife stuck through it all with me, and we've now been married for 32 years.
day 5 morning. feel great physically. sleeping was a little hard last night but i managed 6 hours. dont worry, i have no intention of starting up again. she basically left me because ive been a different person for the last few months because of the drugs. she says the feelings are gone, that its beyond repair. that she has enough things going on in her life that she doesnt need to be burdened with me/this. im actually doing ok. we were together for about 2 and half years... but if theres one thing i know, its that the woman im going to spend the rest of my life with wont leave me in my time of need. thanks for the encouraging words. i took up playing piano last night. ive always had an ear for music and look forward to something to keep my mind off everything. also will be going back to work tomorrow, so hopefully that will help too. im about 1/4 of the way through teaching myself to play yunira - river flows in you, and ive made it up to the chorus of to zanarkand. not sure if there are any kingdom hearts or ffx players out there, but these songs bring back memories of happiness. suggest checking them out if you're in the mood for some peaceful listening. cheers everyone.
Sorry to hear this! What was her reason? Was it because you became addicted/dependent? Or does she use them and now you don't? Keep being aware of things; don't let it trigger you!
Hon, I am so sorry that this has happened. Please do not start up again...let the hurt go thru and go away as it can. You have done so well and so close to being on the other side of this. You have helped me so much and I am so proud of you.
hey friends.. just wanted to say hi. and say that ive lost my girlfriend over this. i guess i should be happy that's the only pain i feel right now. hoping i can get some sleep at some point soon, and i hope you're all doing well. i guess this makes day 4 my shittiest day yet. fml.
totally clean from narcotics.. i've never touched any other drugs... EVER, not even pot.
narcotics was my only thing. but i will take the occasional muscle relaxer.. maybe twice a year... and will go out for a drink or 3 every couple months.. alcohol give me a headache though.
i have zero cravings.. the thought of pain killers makes me nauseous.
Glad to see you posted jmoney! I am glad you are feeling better! It got cold here too and I am looking for a sweater!
G'mornin' Jmon, Glad to hear you got some zzz's and feel better. Woke up freezing to death here! brrr! Cold out, but I refuse to turn on the furnace this early in the fall.
The appetite thing is good too, just don't over do it. The Imodium should help keep it where it's supposed to be though.
Great to hear this!!! Word to the wise: definitely stick with small and sort of bland until you see how you do. I made the mistake of eating too much and too rich when I actually REALLY felt hungry after not eating for a while ... not good results. Sort of set some things back for me. Sleep is a great healer! Hope this all keeps up!
Morning everyone.. day 4 now and I actually slept last night. I feel 100x better than the last few days. My body cramps are beginning to subside, the cloudiness in my head has cleared, and best of all no anxiety. It was so nice to finally get some sleep.. I slept more last night than I have since sunday. Today seems like it's going to be a good day. Little tightness in my chest still but I'm sure it will pass too. Hope everyone is doing well this morning. Oh I actually feel a bit hungry too for the first time in.... a long time. Gonna make something small to eat :D
HI HOpe your stomach issues have let up right now its really important not to become dehydrated so if things are still tuff to hold down try some ginger ale warm just sip off the bottle about 1 shot every 15 min (1oz) should be a minimum pick up some gatoraid its got electrolytes in it and just keep a jug open and keep sipping off it dehydration will get you really sick and with what you got going on its ez to get keep posting for support congrats on your clean time good luck and God bless.......Gnarly
Jmoney84...I am so sorry you have had it this bad. I feel very lucky and more than a little guilty. Get thee to the store for Immodium,, Opiate trots suck.
lol thanks guys, or girls i suppose I should say =P meh, like i said blondegurrl my addiction is purely physical. i knew i was gonna have to detox one day or another so i might as well get it over with sooner rather than later. i just want to feel normal. hmm maybe tomorrow i will look into getting some immodium and melatonin.. i hear that suggested quite a bit. the valerian root i tried didnt do much if anything for me, i got no sleep. and yeah.. all im looking for is to feel normal, not high. thats how my dependency on the oxy happened. didnt want to feel drowsy/in pain at work or around loved ones. now looking back i see drawing this out and upping my dosage on my own (justifiably but still) ive hurt the very people i was trying to protect. this whole experience has really opened my eyes that im not immune or above everything like i sometimes think i am. im thankful for this in a way that it has given me a more realistic perspective... that im only human... no better or worse than anyone else. have you been totally clean since 2002 blondegurl? good for you, I hope I will look back a few years or even months from now and remember what i got myself into, and out of. you're all amazing.
Ugh.. I don't know how you managed to hang on to 20 pills while you're in w/d... I would've caved and taken all 20 when I saw/felt the first goose bump pop out of my skin.
There's nothing really you CAN do to keep yourself comfortable besides getting a hot bath to ease cramps, warm yourself up and wash off the yuck coming out of your pores... Immodium will help with your tummy troubles and may ease up the cramping.. The active ingredient in Immodium actually binds to the opiate receptors in your brain (no high though.. sorry lol)
Make sure you drink a ton of gatorade... if you're dehydrated then you'll feel 10000 time worse. Gahhh it's amazing how I can read these posts and immediately have flash back of being in the same situation.. even though I've kicked my habit in 2002... w/d is something you never forget...
You're doing all the right things it seems! So tomorrow should be better. Hope you get SOME sleep. Good job on all those fluids!
just got out of my bath and a hotter shower after. drinking lots of vitamin water and gatorade, i threw some epsom salts in the tub too. lol you can tell when im really feeling like **** because my punctuation and grammar go to complete ****. im gonna watch some starcraft2 streaming and just lay in bed and pray not to get more temperature flashes. will check in soon.
thank you all so much for the continued support, i couldnt do this alone.
I had hoped you were on the mend when I read you weren't feeling too bad. But you're nearly there. No sleep is a killer (as is dehydration!) Keep the fluids going and dominosarah is right! Warm coke ... my mom used to give me that. I forgot about it. Not sure if you tried the Alteril but if you haven't give it a shot. There's also something called Calms Forte by Hylands. It's usually in the same area as the Alteril and other sleep aids. That helps with sleep but also anxiety.
Being tired makes it so much worse. Please do not make the mistake of taking Benadryl or Nyquil. I know it works for some people but when I tried it had the opposite effect and gave me horrible restless leg syndrome. It sucked!!! I would go buy a natural remedy, I know you tried something but you never know. Take it, take a hot bath, drink some herbal tea and try to tune out the world. Good luck and you are doing great!
Hey guys, just checking in. My whole body aches. Im wishing for sleep more than anything. I managed to pass out for an hour but then woke up restless again, still tired as anything. I have this snowball effect where I'll start showing a withdrawl symptom, then I'll start panicking and my BP and pulse go up, then my breathing gets heavy, and I just pray to stop feeling this way but it's impossible to calm myself down. Can't believe this is only day 3 of what feels like a week. Maybe cuz I've been awake for the amount of time in 3 days that a normal person has in close to a week, heh. Anyway trying to hang in. Never again, never again, never again.
Warm coke helps an upset tummy. Try eating some crackers, just keep it really bland. Get up and move around as the more you do that the better you will feel. Try taking a short walk. This part is only temporary but it does suk. Keep us updated on how you are doing~~sara
Same thing happened to me a few years ago when i forgot all my meds when I went up north....omg, I was so sick throwing up, ended up at the hospital, they didnt believe i had a prescription so had to call my doctor, yadda yadda ....It was the worst feeling a person can go through so I applaud you for making it.......way to go.....Right now, I'm going on a reduction plan with my doctor instead of cold turkey as they are still trying to find the right non-narcotic to manage my pain. The other thing is my blood pressure goes crazy when I'm having problems so they monitor that......make sure you get your checked soon.....
I like your name "Jmoney" is that kind of like young money....you are young, and you have so much to be proud of! We are all routing for you!!!