Tonight is the night, attempt #2

[Victor322]

Last dosage was at 9:15 this morning and was only 1/4 tab of Tramadol (12.5 mg). In the last 32 hours I've only 3/4 of 1 tab (37.5 mg). Been averaging down over the past few weeks from 2 tabs (100 mg) and the last 5 day average was 1.4 tabs (70 mg). Sounds like a lot of math eh? LOLOLOL!

I may be moving too fast but it just feels like I'm now ready to do this nasty thing called cold turkey! If i can make it through the night until 9:15 AM Thursday w/o bad anxiety attacks I will then be able to claim my first 24 hours of Tramadol clean time! First time since Nov-03. I'm really hyped-up and want/need to be able to make this claim big time!

With my histroy of anxiety attacks, worse case scenario is that I'll have to take another 1/2 tab before 9:15 AM which would still be a tapering accomplishment  equaling only 37mg for 24 hours, down from 50 mg yesterday and 75 mg of the 5 days prior. From there I'll just keep tapering it down until I can rid myself of this devil-drug called Tramadol!

Wish me luck!
-Vic

[malenurse57]

Good job ! You are on your way to a life of FREEDOM from worrying about all this garbage we somehow got caught up in. God bless

[Victor322]

I'm so happy right now that tears are flowing from my eyes! I can't believe that I now have 25 1/2 hours clean time! And the wd's are very manageable, not nearly as bad as I thought that they would be. The light at the end of the tunnel has now become a burst of Sunlight!

Thank you everyone to whom encouraged and pushed me (avisg, I luv yah :-) to get off of that life stealing addictive ****! I couldn't have done with w/o all of your support and suggestions!


Thanks again and God Bless!
-Vic

[lonleylibra]

I was addicted to vics and tramadol for over a year. I think i was using the tramadol longer but this drug realy messed up my short term memory (it did come back). The only way i quit was when the doc would'nt refill my script anymore. Now I'm tapering off of vics and I thinks I have mostly mental pain that psycial w/d. Now go do something awsome for your self, and dont think of tramadol ever again! You did it!!

[desperate1111]

hip, hip, hooray for you. tramadol is the devil drug! you have the attitude it takes to quit.
don't look back.

[Victor322]

9:30 AM here we come! (*corrected time vs earlier estimated time of 9:15).

It's almost in the bag baby, its in the bag! (sleep or not, it will be a very sweet victory!

-Vic

[kim715]

That first 24 hours is so close you can almost reach out and grab it,and I believe you will.Stay strong,I'm pulling for you.Peace.

[Victor322]

3:30 AM
The anxiety levels are under control, no major panic attacks yet, how-ever it doesnt appear that sleep will be coming soon. It appears to be a much easier ct than the last attempt (so far), although the body/mind still seems to feel agitiated and restless...so assuming no sleep tonight this ct will still be a success...5 hours, 45 minutes and still counting!

-Vic

[JDRMinSD]

Stay strong.
You're taper sounds like a great idea.  I think you can do this and you should too.  Believe in yourself.  Take conrol of your life, ditch the pills.
You CAN Do It!

[wendyk00]

i couldn't agree with you more, don't give up, i am going through the same thing (or similar) you should be proud of yourself and give yourself a pat on the back.  stay strong and know that your openness helps and goes a long way.

[Victor322]

All the way down to 50mg yesterday and .25 mg today (so far).

Yeah, i was up to 12 tabs (600 mg) per day before I decided I had to back down and then quit. The choice to taper/quit easy, I had reached the point where-as I knew that  I would have to infinitely increase my dosages to maintain the high that I had become accostomed to...and that would only lead to insanity and death.

These pain med prescriptions had really hooked as my prior drug usage was casual and in control (so i had thought pre NA meetings.) With NA I had learned about my denial as how I falsely thought that I was in control if those drugs while they were physically addicting me and pushing me to take more and more!?!!! I had no control! I was the one being controlled and I couldnt see it! When I was younger and smoked weed, did some coke, drank a bit of scotch, doing the candy and caffieneted pop routine (basically the full Monty of self-medicating and mood altering substances) i truly thought that I was in control since there was no Physical addiction involved. Sure..there was big mental and spiritual issues looming around this useage, but no physical cravings, dependencies or addictions.

All that above said usage laid the foundation for me to abuse pain meds when the opportunity came...and it sure did come at me in weak moment when suddenly having to deal with chronic pain  issues and unlimited legal scripts to keep me pain-free.

Soo, in a nutshell, I didnt get away with anything (prior partying even tho i thought that it was all under control) because those pain meds sucked me into a whole new level of drug abuse....drug abuse that involves rapid addiction to a serious synthetic opiate which the body builds a very quick addiction too of Which I am now paying for it...

Moral of the story? For me? There is no free high...what-ever goes up must eventually come down.

-Vic

[worried878]

mornings were the hardest for me...I did not like thinking "crappola..i can not have a pill today"   get on and post...get thru the morning if they are the worst for u as well...24 hours would be a great start

[malenurse57]

Good job!  You can do this The main things are want to and stay as busy as possible. I went c/t on May 7 last dose 8 am. 800-1200mg and sometimes/usually more a day. I must of been pretty grumpy as my dog would'nt even come near me for 4 days LOL.

Believe in yourself as we all believe in you. Good luck and God bless

[confused456]

Good luck!! Tapering off them is a good idea cuz of the seizure risk, please keep that in mind. I am wishing you all the best with this!! It sounds like you are truly ready and that is wonderful!!!