Abby
That must be such a huge relief to tell your husband and I am so glad he is supportive.
You are rocking this lady!!!!
So happy for you.
Thanks for the word of caution, Teresa. It's so great to get such sound advice. Well, Guess what? I told my husband Everything. He was astounded by the fact that I had kept this hidden for so long. After my surgery and the initial need for the Vicodin was over, I only used it to feel normal because I had already gotten addicted by that time. Like you said, I will always be an addict. I mean, I've gotten clean twice before, this is my third time. I guess when I was talking about being cured, I meant the physical part. The psychological part of me will always be an addict. Hence, why I told my husband. I need someone to monitor me for the rest of my life. I need him to look out for any signs that I might be using again. I'm so relieved that he is being understanding. I suppose part of it is due to his cousin dying of a heroin overdose. So, he and his family have been through a worse case before, so he understands. Thank you Teresa for your kind words, concern and support. Lots of hugs XOXO
well said teresa! Abbey, she's right. You'll need to figure out what kind of aftercare plan will be right for you. You can focus on that once you get through the initial withdrawal/detox.
Hi Abby,
So glad you checked in. I was a little worried about you but here you are doing so well.
Very happy to hear that.
I am doing well too. Day 14 for me and it's very hard to believe. Life is good.
Hi Abby! Your doing a great job and 6 days is AMAZING!! This is when things start turning around for you (at least for me they did) Keeping busy as you can see is a huge thing for the mental part of it! Just keep pushing yourself!
I just want to caution you though for this statement "maybe another week and I just might be cured?"...You will always have this disease of addiction. I dont want you to ever let your guard down thinking you have "cured" yourself because once we let our guards down is when we get taken by surprise. But in time you will recover and begin to start a NEW life. Thats whats important! :)
Keep moving forward!! Your doing great girl!!
Oh and Pat, let me know how you are doing, please. You are my biggest support system. I really hope you are feeling better. Lots of hugs xoxo
Hi everyone. Sorry for the late reply. My aunt and uncle are visiting from out of state, so I haven't had the time to check in. Thank you all for being so supportive, and caring enough to keep up with my progress. Well, I'm on day six of cold turkey. The days are good, it's the nights that are hard. I don't have any trouble falling asleep, the problem is staying asleep due to muscle spasms. Hot baths, hot baths, and more hot baths. That is what is getting me through all of this. I feel I am well on my way. Maybe another week and I just might be cured? I am really hoping so. I can happily say though that the worst is definitely over! Even though I wish I was alone at this time, my aunt and uncle sure are a good distraction. In fact due to them being here, I don't get much of a chance to think about those darn pills. By the way, it's a surprise visit, I wasn't expecting them to come at this time. Maybe this is God's way of helping me through this. I like to think of it this way. Plus, thanks to all of you for helping me get this far. Please keep me updated on your progress too. It is a huge help knowing I'm not alone in this battle. Have to go right now, but will check back in later and see how you all are doing. Lots of hugs xoxo
HI Abby
Just checking in again.
How are you feeling today?
How is your energy level? I know mine was zero on day 5.
It does get better though but slowly.
Keep us updated, please.
Hugs
Pat
How are you doing now still hanging in there? Just wondering cause I have been the same way before and day 5-6 seemed like it got worse and better again kinda weird for me just wondering if you are still hangin in there because being confident is good but getting to over confident can be a killer on a recovery
Wow, thank you so much. You made me cry for about the fifth time today lol. Actually you gave me goosebumps.
I am so glad, I helped in any way because so many people have helped me.
I know how scary and painful withdrawals can be and my heart goes out to anyone who has to to through it. I can really relate to the fear as I was terrified my first time.
It sounds like you are over the worst and can concentrate on getting your life back. You have a good plan in place for the gabapentin.
I know that Lyrica really eased my withdrawals so I can totally relate and if it works then go for it.
Please keep posting. I love to hear how well you are doing.
I am sure you will still need us lol. Just as we need you.
Hugs
Pat
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Now, my biggest encouragement thru all this.
Pat, you have been my rock. I just wish I could thank you properly. You are a complete stranger yet my best friend. I'll be honest with you, if it wasn't the thought of disappointing you and having wasted your time, I'd have caved in the first day. So thank you for taking the time to help me turn my life around.
As for your question, I'll be honest. The gabapentin is my moms. She keeps a bottle at my house cuz she always forgets to bring them when she comes over. My mom has nerve damage in her leg and damage to her discs in her back, amongst a host of other problems. Her doc prescribed her 600mg 3X a day. Back when she was first prescribed it, I researched it just to educate myself. I found out that it is also prescribed to patients to help with WD symptoms. So, I guess I'm self medicating at this point. I know it's wrong, but I'm telling myself it's a lesser wrong than lying to get all those narcotics. I've been taking it 2-3 times a day. It's been a huge help. Good thing about it is it's non addictive. I'm planning to stop taking it within the next day or two. Once again, thanks to all of you. I'll keep you posted on my progress and continue to follow yours. Lots of hugs xoxo
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Leave, you are absolutely correct. It's all about attitude. I wanted to quit so I started searching ways on the Internet to help with WD. Never did I think that my greatest med for WD would be this site and all of you.
ToothFarie, you are always so positive. You prob don't even realize how encouraging that attitude is to the rest of us. So thank you and I wish you the best. You deserve it.
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Hi dear friends. Sorry for taking so long to reply. Actually, first time I tried posting, I got the error mesg. I was so disappointed that I didnt have the heart to type again. Second time I tried, this time breaking my post into 2 mesgs, I got the site is updating mesg. Argh! Let's hope it goes thru this time.
Anyway, I want to thank all of you so, so much! I would never have gotten to this place without your support. Today was a good day. I know I can do this. I'm still not a 100%, but the hard part is over and I know I'll get there. Legs are still a little achy, but thankfully no creapy crawly feeling. Still getting ocassional cravings, but they are controllable. Even when the cravings hit, I don't think about pills but rather busy myself or come onto this site and distract myself.
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So glad you are starting to feel better.
Make sure you continue to drink lots of fluids and eat healthy. Also take your vitamins lol.
I know, I sould like a mother but you are going to need to get your energy back.
I am still fighting for mine and it is quite a battle the older you are.
I also think the gabapentin really helps with withdrawals and with sleep.
Are you prescribed in for pain? Are you taking it as prescribed?
Just wondering, as I am on Lyrica which is a stronger form of it.
congrats!! hope you continue to do well! just keep posting and if you get low....just read posts and reach out to us....we are here
I'm 31 days clean off of oxy and like you my wd's were not that bad. I was terrified that they would be awful but they weren't. I had way worse wd off of hydro and tramadol. I think going into it with a positive attitude makes a big difference. I was able to go to work everyday and got enough sleep to survive. Glad your doing good, just hang in there and you will see a big improvement after the first week.
Lol accidentally hit the post comment button without finishing. As I was saying, I just hope it stays this way and gets better. I want this to be my last time getting. Thanks to all for the support, especially you Pat!