Tramadol and Fioricet online help detox

[wantmyhealthback]

Please help!
I used to take tramadol and also darvocet occasionally vicoden for car accident and curved spine. HUGE family history of disk degenerative disease.
My dr. who was giving me this stuff passed away 5 years ago.
I never saw another dr just discovered I could order online about 3 years ago.
Well.....
Here I am now an addict. I am on 8-9 tramadol a day was on more but I tried to withdrawl and had HORRIBLE symptoms.
So I ordered fioricet for headaches with the symptoms and felt that maybe taking these will help me taper more.
I did taper more but now I addicted to both DANG IT!!!!

I have some health issues going on now and so I went to the dr.
Some abdominal pain and chronic kindey infections (which I have been treating myself through online pharmacy)
This is horrible.
I HATED drugs my whole life.
I dont' drink or smoke but here I am a mommy and wife and addicted to this ****.
I feel so ashamed, depressed, anxious.
I didn't tell my dr the other day when I went in since I went in for UTI symptoms then since I lost so much weight (I am extremely hyper anyway and the fioricet has caffeine in it) so I NEVER sit down. I have a farm.
Anyway Dr got my CT results yesterday and won't give me the results.
I am SOOOOOOOO scared. Been crying and crying and crying.
He doesn't know my secret and I can't tell him.
Plus I don't like him because he is making me wait until monday for CT results.
They were checking liver, kidney etc.
I am sooooo scared.
I started tapering but its making the anxiety worse now.
Oh I am taking about 10 a day of fioricet and now 7 of tramdol.
I cut tramadol down by 2 in the last few days.
I am so sick about this.
My precious hubby knows. Doesn't know how to help me.

Can I take milk thistle too help my liver with these while detoxing?
I want to go to a different dr for my addiction problem as this dr has been soooo insensitive through everything.
VERY insensitive through my worry about the results.
Can ANYONE please give me some advice without guilt believe me I have TON of it?

I am picking up my CT results at the hospital today I am NOT waiting until Monday. That is ludicrious.
Should I go to another dr to withdraw a drug treament center?
WHERE?

Thanks if you read thus far.
I am sooooo crying for help. And soooo ashamed I am like this.
My dr told me tramadol was not addicting.
BULLLLLLLLLL.

Thanks again for listening

[TJ41]

Your right upper abd pain sounds like gallbladder. You may have stressed your liver & gallbladder. Liver produces bile & gallbladder stores it till needed. Bile breaks down & gets rid of toxins in the body. (Also breaks down fats, vit a, e, d, & k). If u r putting too many toxins in & stressing your gallbladde & liver u may have toxins floating around your body causing all kind of issues.  I know bc I experienced this. U could do a liver cleanse & drink lots of water with lemon. Lemon water is a natural liver detox.  I have seen people quit prescription meds & go through crazy withdrawals but they did it cold turkey. I've also seem people go to pain or detox centers & get hooked on methadone & they give it to them for years.  Its not an easy decision

[wantmyhealthback]

Curious:
Is there any herbal remedies to help with tapering or would I be adding fire to fire.
Got my CT scan results back. Liver was ok SURPRISED even the my one blood liver enzyme was elevated.
Anyway my results show renal cortical cysts. SEVERAL. So everyone PLEASE get off all meds.
Not worth it.
I had to go pick up my results from the hospital.
Bad thing is my dr doesn't know I am taking this ****.
Don't know how to tell him.
My husband and mother do and said they can help dispense meds.
I wonder if this is causing the abdominal (upper right) pain I am having and the chronic UTI and Kidney infections and high blood sugar.
HMMMM interesting.

I hope I didn't screw up my kidneys.
ALthough my kidney functions were fine just my ALT enzymes were a tad off and my potassium was low so I have to take extra potassium.

NEVER EVER EVER order from the net. TOO easy to do.

I guess I beter find some help.
This SUCKS.
I am a mommy and wife.
I can't stop crying I am so sick and shameful about this.
I am TERRIBLE horrible person and this is the last place I thought I would ever be.
I am sooo sad.

Anyway my husband was addicted to something else not meds but something else so he definately understand addictive behavior.

He is healed though. YEAHHHHH!!!

Thanks so much for help anyone.

[serenitysaves]

Inpatient treatment would be the best if that's posible for you to do. and if not I'd try to make it work because as FLaddict said it's hard for us addicts to taper alone.

Do you have anyone that you can share this with?  Family, Friends.........
If so maybe someone can help despence your med's. and if they do they should at least read up a little on addictive behavior. and trust they won't give in if your suffering from w/d's.  that's why inpatient is the best their trained to deal with all that comes with detoxing.

anyway whatever road you choose I wish you the best

[punky0505]

I do understand completely. Im new to this site but i needed to find a support group somewhere......I have vascular problems and have had leg pain for 4 years now and I have an addiction to hydrocodone. Of course I still have pain but I desperatly want to stop taking the pills. And I dont think I can by myself. I dont even know how to taper or what the right amount would be each day to taper. I feel your anxiety and stress about this. I stress about it every day. I have two beautiful boys that are 4 and 2 and they are what give me hope to know that I can do it. Now i just have to get up the nerve to start.

[FLaddict]

If you can go to a inpatient detox that really would be best... Treatment if it is possible can really help.. Most addict can't taper they always have a reason to take more that day.. Tapering is a long process if done correctly.. it take patience and someone's help to hold the pills and give you the doses..
YOu do deserve to have your results and I don't blame you for being mad at the doc.. It sounds like its time for a new doctor..
YOu are taking a good bit of meds per day.. The fiorcet also has a barbituate in it so that can be scary to a degree to detox from.. combined with the opiates... You should seek out a addiction specialist doctor to help assess what treatment you need to get out of this cycle of madness..
Welcome to the site

[singha]

It sounds like maybe you should try to taper....slowly of course. It is hard beleive me I know.