Trying again

[NowOrNever43]

Hi all! I haven't been writing to much on here but still lurking. I am going to try again.. I am 12 hours in and really hoping this will be my last attempt. I want this more than anything I have ever wanted! So far I am doing good. I am going to try to take it day by day, what messed me up before is thinking too far ahead which set off panic in me. I just hope you all will stand by as I attempt this again. I will try my best to keep a positive attitude throughout all of this! Thanks in advance for any advice or encouragement! I have been taking supplements all week so they will present in my system, especially the calcium/mag/zinc and a multi vitamin. Does anyone have any other tips that may make this even more doable? I know what I am in for and hoping I will find the strength to keep on pushing through...

[Pat1956100]

Minn,
I am so sorry you are in so much pain.  I hate it.  I would so love to wake up and feel good.
At least I'm not at work but I am just worrying about not being at work lol.

[minn66]

Oh Pat, I'm in lots of pain too and at work :( I hope you feel better soon.

Hugs,
Minn

[Pat1956100]

I'm lurking right now lol.  In lots of pain.  Hope you make it girl.
I'm thinking of you and pulling for you.

[minn66]

Hi, NowOrNever, glad you're hanging in there! I like Pat's quote too.

Take care and hugs,
Minn

[holagirl907]

Good for you!  You're doing great...  

Take care,

[NowOrNever43]

Just an update, I am at hour 87. Still fighting the good fight. Sorry I did not write yesterday, it was a tough day and I find sometimes when I read the bad posts on here meaning people having a lot of anxiety at high numbered days it sets me into panic mode. So I took a vacation from here yesterday. I have to say I did miss u all! Thanks for all of your encouraging words. Still not feeling great but can see some of my physical symptoms are letting up a little. My legs don't seem to feel as restless, getting sleep is non existent but I know that takes time. So far I am doing ok, just hoping tomorrow will be better, but not keeping my expectations too high.

Pat, love our new motto! I read it over and over again this morning! How are you doing?

Again thanks everyone I will post again real soon with an update!

[gammieof1]

I firmly believe living in my bath helped me this time as well as positivity, I've said it before but our mind can control what we feel and we control our mind. Have you seen those guys who sit naked in ice for like forever...I know that's funny but they use mind control to keep from freezing.
Its proven we create what we think so block all negativity and tell yourself this isn't so bad. Worked for me. ;)  
Don't feel guilty it will drag you right back down..nothing good comes from guilt. All my prayers for a peaceful transformation.

[teridactyl]

I am so proud of you! I am on day 4 of my with drawls. I used suboxone for the  first 3 days. I guess it helped a little. Not as much as I thought it would, though. I keep telling myself that "this too shall pass". Just hang in there and tell yourself that you have the flu, but it will get better. So many of the AA quotes come to mind. "Take it easy. One day at a time. Let go and let God". Theirs a bunch of them. They sound cliche, but they are true. I hate this damn drug so much. I have let it control my life for over ten years. I want my life back. That's what I keep telling myself minute after minute...
One thing that has helped me a lot, is taking a sleeping pill at night. Yesterday I took 1/2 of one during the day too. Lots of advil and a muscle relaxer helped a bit too. This whole thing *****, but YOU CAN DO IT. YOU CAN!!!

[jc1002]

Stay strong and dont give in!!  Once you make it past the physical wd's you will be able to focus a little better.  Tell yourself that no matter what, you are not going to take a pill.  NO MATTER WHAT!  Im on day 7 and today I feel so much better than those first few.  Days 2-5 really are bad, but it does get so much better.  There are some great people out here going through the same thing that will be a huge support to you.  They have been for me.  We know you can do this.  Set your mind to it and just "do it".  :-)  Its hard, but the other side is so much better!  

jc

[teachermommy690]

Sweetie, we are all here for you!  You've got this!  Hold strong in your conviction to live drug-free.  Take one moment at a time and life will happen.  It is SO much better without the pills.  Mentally, you'll feel yourself come alive again, so to speak.  I promise it gets better!  I'm on Day 9 and am so glad I made the choice to stick it out.  You can do this and we're all cheering you on!  Hugs!

[thewaz]

I believe in you.  So very much.  Believe you can do this. Because you can. And you will.  And when you do, I promise you life will blossom like it never has before.  We will hold you strong.

[Pat1956100]

Hey sweety,
I am not too big on all those posts on facebook but I read one this morning that really hit home.  It could be another one of our mottos.
NO MATTER HOW MANY MISTAKES YOU MAKE OR HOW SLOW YOU PROGRESS, YOU ARE STILL WAY AHEAD OF EVERYONE WHO ISN'T TRYING.
It made me feel better anyway.
Are you working today or did you get some time off?  Please let me know how you are doing.
Hugs
Pat

[NowOrNever43]

I am still hanging on, and want to say thank you for all the support! It is really amazing to have all of you here cheering me on! I slept thru the night, I tossed n turned and woke up a few times but the sleep I got helped a little.my worst symptom right now is restlessness. Just trying to keep my mind occupied, will post again soon! Thanks again!

[selfinduced]

Routing for you! Strength and healing headed your way!

[no_more_pills]

Your mindset seems very strong and I cannot stress how important that is. Your mind is the strongest thing you own. It's going to try and whip you, but with a strong mindset you can combat that. Just take things 1 hour at a time. That's what I have done and now I am exactly 300 hours clean. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and I have no doubt in my mind that you can reach it. Stay strong and I will definitely have you in my prayers.

[Enthalpy1]

Congrats on coming back. The first 24 hours is usually the toughest whether it alcohol or drugs. Admitting to yourself you have a problem and you have a solution. Crazy how that works. I am on day 5 for norco but I just celebrated 4 years alcohol free. One day at a time. I NEVER thought I would quit drinking. I was a functioning alcoholic. Never missed a day of work or a DUI. I tried to quit many times and one day I did. An minute, hour, day at a time. With the norco it is the depression driving me. I have major back issues but the depression is worse than the pain. Good luck to you. These folks are great.

[NowOrNever43]

Congrats on your 12 days! I can not wait to say I am on day 12, thanks for your support! It is greatly appreciated!

[NowOrNever43]

I am doing just ok, I am going to take a bath with some epsom salt, take some hylands restful legs, and try to get some rest. Tomorrow will be day 2 and I am sure I will need someone to chat with, I will message you tomorrow. Thanks so much for all of your support :)

[no_more_pills]

I'm on day 12 and although I'm really tired and I'm still a little achy I have never been in a better place mentally. I feel absolutely wonderful. You can do this. I know you can.

[Pat1956100]

How are you feeling?  Let me know if you need to chat or anything.

[NowOrNever43]

I will not forget our motto, if I fail this time I will try again. I am determined and I know you are too. I am thinking of you also :) You are an amazing person! :)

[NowOrNever43]

Thank you, I appreciate your encouragement! All's I can do right now is not use today, and take it day to day. I will have to make some major changes and will do so this time, such as cutting off my sources. I can not tell family as they will not understand but do have a very understanding and amazing husband who is helping me through all of this. Again I appreciate your encouragement.

[NowOrNever43]

Thanks for your encouragement, I have read all of your posts and you truly are an inspiration. My DOC is oxycodone whether it be 10mg or 30mg, at my worst I was taking 210mg but have cut it down to about 100-120mg I know that is not much of a difference but I figure 100 is better than 210 cold turkey. The thing I can do differently is cut off my only source, I know there will be absolutely no issue telling them that I am done, I just haven't found the courage to do so yet but I will without a doubt. Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts. It gives me a lot of strength knowing i have all of these caring people here for me who have gone through the same thing. Again I appreciate it! Congrats on your clean time!

[Pat1956100]

Hi girl,
Don't forget our mottos.  One hour at a time and Keep Trying.
Keep posting, I am think of you.