Vicodin Help

[Danny111]

I"ve been taking vicodin and 10 mg norcos on and off mostly on for the last 3-4 years, up to 15 of the 10 mg norcos daily.  I am able to go through the withdrawals each time I quit although obviously I fricking hate it but what has happened every time is that at some point I start again.  I'm not in any kind of pain and I get them on the street which is fairly expensive.  I can quit but I havent been able to stay quit.  The longest Ive been off them is about 45 days and usually it's a much shorter period than that.  Two weeks, three weeks, a week etc.

It's the same thing everyone says,  life just seems so boring without being high on the drugs etc.  Vacations wont be near as much fun, Thanksgicing will be boring etc.

I've seen tons of advice on hear about the withdrawals but not a lot about what to do after the first couple weeks.

Advice please.  I'm on day four of my latest stoppage but keep thinking about when it will be, "alright" for me to get more.

[WDsRawful]

I sent you a private message.

thanks in advance for reading it.

[Danny111]

Thanks WDs, I agree that the planning things out around when and how many pills you'll have is fricking sick.  I've probably spent around $15k this year on vicodin.  Crazy.  I own a business and in past years wouldn't really have even missed the money but the last year has been a lot tighter.  I've cut back on other expenses and even refinanced an sba loan all the while throwing money away on pills.  It's sick.  Can't bring myself to tell my wife.  Apparently she has no idea but it must be affecting our relationship in some way because every time I got through withdrawals I just want to be alone lying in front of the tv etc(when I'm not at work).  It also affect my work because I don't even try to get as much work done when going through wd's.

I like coming on here and reading the posts though.  I think it helps.

[WDsRawful]

I'm very much like you and it's the reason I kept using pills - because life is boring without being high.  I have to focus on all the bad that it brings with them, though.  The counting the pills, worrying about when I'm going to run out, the chasing them, the money, and the worst part is looking at a calendar and planning activities, vacations, outings when I know I'll have them and clearing the calendar when I knew I would be going through withdrawl.  That is the part I will definitely NOT miss.  Focus on the money and how it affects you in negative ways.  It's the only way to cope.