Why is it some people take opiate pain pills for the first time and feal WOW! this is the feeling Ive been searching for all my life you know happy, motivated, energized, feeling you can handle anything and others take them and feel lousy, tired, sick just cant tolerate them........I think from research I believe that this is because the addict had an existing chemical imbalance and the opiates made feel balanced is some manner. II wish I could find out what is causing this imbalance so I can recover and stay recovered I know that I don't want to live on narcotics even if I had an unlimited supply its an emotional roller coaster and that feeling in the morning you know that lousy feeling like your 100 yrs old until your pills kick in feeling that ***** I no longer make a.m. appointments because it takes me to long to get motivated I HATE THAT. Also sex ***** its so hard to get off if you know what I mean that eventually you just have no interest what so ever, and what if you meet that special person THE ONE how do you explain your inability to function without your drugs how embarrassing! and if you continue to meet people who are just like you how will you ever break the cycle?