What is life like after pills

[perco]

i  am on day 3 of severly cutting down my percocet intake...i am having crazy withdraws and i am very emotional...i keep thinking about how will the rest of my life be...keep thinking how  boring everyday life is...keep wondering how ill stay clean...i think i have other problems...because i cant imagine a life of being sober...i feel like life is pointless anyway and percocet just made it better...i dont know if anyone else had this problem coming off...please if you expierenced anything like this let me know so i know im not alone

[more_fiend]

life is beautiful, awesome, worth living! I know right now you feel like you could just die. You have the best reason in the world to quit!! Just think, you will be sober to see your babies first smile, giggle, crawl and so many other firsts that while you were taking pills you would have missed by passing out or not be able to remember. Focus at the end of the tunnel.  You can do this. Look at how far you have come.
My husband missed a bunch of firsts due to addiction. He kicks himself everyday. Please, if you need to talk or if you are having a bad time, write to us. Good luck and keep posting  

[pinka09]

You are a very strong person, alot of ppl cant quit, or the addiction is to strong, and it goes to heroin and other drugs..
I been addicted to any opiate drug or xanax ,valium, even muscle relaxers. Anything that keep me from stressing out. It is a wicked trap, Im not in constant pain or anything, im 24, young, healthy, besides the damage i had done to my body with the pills.

Last month I blacked out in the car, after takin tramadol, 4 at one time, it was my script, but doc said no more than 8 in one day. It can cause seizures.I am so glad I lived thru it and didnt kill anyone else.
No one or me needs a crutch, before i was so dam active, i could work 20hrs and get 4hrs sleep, then be revving to go, now is totally different , I been 3weeks clean, but using prozac for depression/panic attacks, it may take a week or so, but it finally see a difference.
To help sleep, i used tylenol pm, and then Thomas recipie is good. You can always go to your doctor and be honest with him, or go to a different one where no one knows ya if embarrassed.
I was totally embarrassed, ashamed, but addiction isnt always about someone on the street corner lookin for a fix, but thats sometimes usually where end up, if they let it.

To me you can do this, if I can, you can. Your family's support, your wife support during this hard time. Is really awesome.
And note alot of the drug councilors are recovered drug addicts or recovering drug addicts. With this expeirence you can turn it around for your good, there is alot of other people out there like you and I, with a narco addiction. You may be a God sent to someone else with addiction , who knows. but there is always light at the end of the tunnel, I have to believe this, cause this is wut getting me thru day after day.

Messege me anytime ,I be happy to help and hearing other peoples storys also helps me understand im not the only one in the world like this.

hugs ,

[perco]

thanks for all the support...trust me it is much appreciated...info on myself...I am almost 25 years old...before pills i wass an alcoholic...I drank for 6 years...to ween myslef off of alcohol i took perocets...i have been clean from alcohol 7 weeks...i have been on percocets for almost 3 years...i moved up to 120 mgs a day a couple of months ago...they took away so much stress...i was origially perscribed for a knee surgery and got hooked on how good i felt on them...cold turkey is hard for me, i have a girl and a newborn( one month old). I told my girl and she is very supportive but i have work and all... Im down to 40 mg a day and am ready to cut that in half again...its crazy they let these things be legal...they really pull you in...and jesus it is hard to pull yourself out...the mental is by far the worst part...the feeling of uselessness...and bordem...and my endless thinking...my overthinking everything has always been a problem and makes me so stressful...which why the percs were so good because it took away my thoughts...i should have realized that anything that could make you not think like that would be a terrible thing...i have been threw rehab once...but i strongly feel that quiting is only a option when you actually want to quit...and i want to...trust me...my  son is evrything to me right now...but as i come off the pills reality sets in more and more...like wow i have a son...i have to take care of...and all these crazy thoughts...he is my life as i have had a ****** up childhood...i want to make sure his is perfect...to anyone out there who has not yet started or are just starting with pills...do not i repeat do not fall in this wicked trap...its like being in a prison of your own mind...thanks for the support and congrads to everyone who made it through this...

[BornofOsiris]

you came to the right place to get some help and congratulations on wanting to get clean. What you are experiencing is the mental part of w/s's. Your brain needs time to heal and to get used to life without pills. You will feel anxiety, depression, lost and everything will seem cloudy and making decisions can be very hard. Dont worry your not going insane, and the racing thoughts will calm down. It took you a long time to be an addict now its going to take time to recover so -easy-does-it. Try to keep yourself busy, even though you dont want to get up and exercise just get moving around it will get your natural endorphins going. Take a look at the thomas receipt and the amino acids protocol on the right hand side of the page. Keep posting and let everyone know how you are doing also look into aftercare like NA, counseling, therapy whatever it takes. NA can help the most with the mental part and you meet tons of people who are there to support you and give you a shoulder to cry on. I usually go once everyday. Good luck with your detox and please keep posting. Much love

Dallas

[fogkorn123]

I had an arm operation, the doctor prescribed percecets 5/325, and oxycodone 5 mg. she told me to take 2 oxycodones and one percecet every four hours, which I did for the severe pain after the operation which lasted about 2 weeks, then the pain went away and I stopped the percs. altogether.  I got severely sick, vomiting and the whole ball of wax.  Now I have to take them so I don't stay sick.  My email address is ***@****, please someone tell me what to do to stop feeling sick to my stomach.  I don't want to take these percs and oxycodones for the rest of my life,  I am not and never have been a junkie, but I feel like one now!!!  Besides I will be running out of them real soon then what sould I do not to be sick to my stomach?  Does anyone else have this problem?  PLEASE HELP!!!!!

[googzy]

Yah... I feel the same, everyhing is a drain and just living and breathing is exhausting... I can't stand this sick feeling.

[bmdad]

What you are describing is something that crosses all of our minds while getting off the pills. Just think before you ever took that first pill. Did you ever think you could live a life on pills? I know if anyone would have asked me that I would have laughed them out the door! Sometimes "change" can just be difficult and I think that's mainly because of the unknown. We just get so set in our ways we forget what it was like before. That goes with a lot of things in life, not just pills. When I was in Iraq for a year I was almost scared to come home because I was so use to being over there. I wasn't sure if I could handle civilian life again. But once I got back everything fell in to place. I went back to school, got a degree, started working and continued raising my family. It worked out wonderful even though I was nervous at first. Eventually you will get used to living your new life and you will adapt and overcome. It just takes time to heal and everything will fall in to place as it did for me. The feeling will pass with time.
Just keep pushing forward, take it a day at a time, and each day will get a little easier. Know that there is light at the end of the tunnel!  Best of luck!
Brian

[kmb22]

you will start thinking clearly again.

you will start thinking for yourself and on your own again.

im only 13 days in, this is the first day since i stopped taking roxicodones that i don't feel totally nuts or tired or sick....

it's a very very good feeling.

i think there are just some people more susceptible to addiction.  although with pills, it seems they hook everyone and you start taking them so innocently.

hang in there, you are making the right choice by getting off of them.

[shrimpman]

Hey  Perco!!    You have come to the right place------You are not alone------I just went through ct off 120mg of percs------I was extremely anxious and depressed------thats part of cutting back or going through wds------the pills lie to you----you don't need them-------You don't give much info ------so I don't know how much or how long you have been using----Please keep posting and you will get help-----Hope that helps some----Good luck, Shrimpman

[newstart730]

You are not alone- I felt the same way during the initial part of withdrawals.  Your body AND mind needs to adjust to life without pills.  I am 25 days clean now, and I feel wonderful!  It took some faith to believe that I would one day know what it is like to feel happiness and excitement about life without a substance, but I am so glad I did it.  It will pass, and you just have to know that life will be soooo good when you are free.  I recommend getting some kind of aftercare to help get past the hump (NA, a therapist, family support, etc.).  Trust me, it is a wonderful feeling and soooo worth it.  Keep it up and stay strong :)

[movnon]

I could have written this because I often feel the same way but I am still having wd's too so I don't have the answers but I am sure someone here does. Hang in there!