Day 9 Ugh ....

[takingmylifeback2014]

Well today marks 9 days I feel ok physically .... Slept about 6 hours straight! But still getting waves of anxiety pretty intense at times. Also I am completly exhausted by 3-4pm ready for the couch. It is so cold here today maybe 12 degrees so I guess that can *** to why I do not want to go outside. But I am going to the store on my lunch break. Just need to hear that I WILL NOT feel this way forever!!! I know everyone says give it "time" (hate that word these past 9 days) but I mentally get distracted and start feeling bad about myself. which I think makes me think I feel worse then I really do? IDK right now ... In a fog I need this to lift!  

[takingmylifeback2014]

Thanks Pat hugs xo :)

[Pat1956100]

Awww sweety.  You are doing a wonderful thing for your son.  None of us asked to become addicts so BE PROUD that you recognized it and you are getting clean.
Think of it as the disease that it is and you are recovering from it.
We can put it in remission if we fight hard enough.  I'm not just talking to you.  I'm talking to myself as well.
You are going through the mental part of withdrawal now and so am I.  Our emotions are all over the place.  
Please keep posting for support.  You are as important as anyone else.
Hugs
Pat

[3Xs_U_R_Out]

Here is a link that explains what homeopathic medicine is. It's all natural.
http://nccam.nih.gov/health/homeopathy

There are many products out there that can help ailments without us taking "medicine".
Do some research. You can get ossicillicosinum lots of places, but a health food store is probably your best bet for a wider product selection.
Hyland's is another brand and they make a leg cramp one that's great for RLS and they make a stress anxiety one.
Hope that helps some...

[takingmylifeback2014]

Thanks Pat. I am trying to be proud but that actually gets me a little down because I have been a totally different person to my loved ones, It is like I was on Auto Pilot like the movie "Click" ... I was there but mentally not there with them. Thank god my son is so young and I can now start paying him the attention he deserves.

[takingmylifeback2014]

Thank You!

[takingmylifeback2014]

No I have never heard of that what is it? Is that bad to take? I literally made myself get up and go to the gym and I felt so good that morning. That was yesterday today I am so so ... More in my head I think

[3Xs_U_R_Out]

Have you heard of osicillicosinum?
It's a homeopathic flu med. I've started taking that plus my reg vitamins and an immunity complex and I feel sooo good after those kick in.
You're great for going to the gym too. Although I feel I could probably do that physically, the motivation to put in the effort hasn't quite arrived yet. But I do try to move each day.
You're doing great!

[3Xs_U_R_Out]

You're doing great!
I'm about a day ahead of you and yesterday and today have been the best physically so far.

[mommymarieme]

I know it is hard in the beginning I know my mind went crazy like a million thoughts at a time. When I felt the anxiety coming on I would take some deep breaths, tell myself this is worth it and put my headphones on. Listening to music kept my mind busy and helped me to relax and stay in the moment. You are doing so great! Please be proud of yourself! Working, going to the gym you are doing this!

[Pat1956100]

I think you are doing extremely well and you should be very proud of yourself.
You are working and going to the gym.  So many of us couldn't do that by Day 9.
6 hours of sleep is pretty darn good too.
The anxiety does seem to hang on for awhile.  Keep fighting through it and know that it will pass.   Come on here and scream to us and we will help you through it.

[msdelight]

Yes I would say that overthinking it definitely makes it worse! Stay in the moment. Celebrate the small victories like "I slept, I worked out, and I didn't use today" That is way enough for now. 9 days will turn to 10 and 11 before you know it. Focus on the things that are better TODAY. A breakthrough is right around the corner. Are you using the Thomas Recipe listed below? The vitamins are very helpful. Exercise (even a little), drink tons of water, and DONT THINK TOO MUCH. Bless you in the journey! Keep going!

[takingmylifeback2014]

Thanks ... Do you think I make it worse by thinking too much? I think I got 6 hours of sleep because I was so exhausted from not sleeping, Maybe going to the gym yesterday morning helped. I am wailling to try anything HEALTHY to speed this process up :(

[mommymarieme]

Hey congrats on nine days!! It does get better! You will not feel like this forever and yes you do need to give it time. Lol I hated that word too! That is awesome that you got some pretty good sleep. Keep up the good hard work! You are doing great! :)