Why do people take the sancrity of detox & f it up?

[dhealer]

a quick review i was on Fentanyl and over using legally for 3 1/2 years dur to bungled med system, due to most docs sick with H1N1 i went a month of detox with no sleep as wll as doing severe damage to my HIV, anyway i was a peice of cake and posterboy for getting off, it was  hell but i had over three years to plan, i am usually shy and i opened up to my mom and dad about personel stuff and how i loved them you know good healing stuff so after 1 month of no med at al for detox ecxept stepdown low dose  my doctor finally got well  and gave me valium you need to realize i had not slept for months and was out of it so after 2 nights i caught up on enough sleep to become normal so i went to flush my valium as you all know a very freeing feeling and he caught me and now is using tjhat responce i had as an major addict they think because i was a little high from the first night of valium but what, it lasts a day? it has been 1 week and he still wil not let me drive also please understand i have no reason to lie online and even understated things he has done this week,i am beggining to deepley resent him as he has forced me to be  a passenger as he drove drunk after hitting me and alway drove drunk with suposodly his most precious cargo many times as a kid i am and extremest anty drunk driver as well, they are also running around telling family members how out of it i was after the valium and how f****** up iam i am very hurt and do not know if i can recover from this alone

[leeisgettingclean]

I am sorry for all you are going through. You are going through many things in life at this moment, and I am not going to judge you and say what i "couldnt understand" about your post, but instead i wanna ask, what is it you are asking for?

[dhealer]

You are a true mother, it is their unability to understand
i was on fentanyl for pain and had to wait 3.5 years for surgury and then went through a month of hell because i had not slept so my doctor back after 3 weeks of me having over 3 weeks of no sleep what would you think a valium would act like in my system????so after leg surgury i have a slight funny gait which she believes is the drug effects so i have refused rti take any meds excep HIV meds but even after a week i still am not allowed to drive?? im am 44!!!  i am one of the lucky ones i have no mental addiction to morphine  but coke can be a difference and have not used in 5 years.

[LateAugust]

Hey dear  I may be way off base,  but it sounds like your dad was really upset about the Valium......and you have a lot of anger issues about his drinking from when you were younger  and current,  especially when he was driving drunk with you in the car.......

You did a lot of hard work to go thru detox and you don't feel like you have your parent's support?  rather you think they are judging you??,  and perhaps they are a bit upset with the drugs they have seen  or know you have taken post detox......   you said  maybe you were a little high from the first night   or only night of using Valium,  yes that would cause a parent to be concerned after their child is out of detox ......    

All I can say to you,  as the mom of an addict,  is you have a long journey ahead of you, that will absolutely require a great deal of commitment and aftercare.  the detox  is just the very beginning.......   and it is very normal to feel angry and anxious during this time.

I may be way off base of what you were trying to say.......   I hope to God you embrace your family's and medical help to get thru this very difficult time.     It is hard  and you will be angry    and you know what........  that's okay      funnel your frustration where you will get the best and most help for your addiction.

[lashamummyof2]

I don't think this makes sense. are you ok, you sound like you may be on something, or you may be half asleep. maybe take a rest and re-write? I cant make sense of it. sorry - we're here to help you.

[avisg]

what are U on now?

[febninthgirl]

How long were on the vals for and at what dose

[dominosarah]

Your doctor drove drunk with you?  I am confused........