Keith - I agree with your post. I was prescribed Hydro for legitimate pain ~ 5 years ago. In addition to helping with the pain I found energy. Energy that was very welcomed. Before taking prescribed meds I always research them and I learned that addiction was likely with extended use. A little over a year ago I shared with my doctor that I had lost control. I was immediately cut off. When I asked for another script a few months later I was denied. That I've kept using is solely on me. I've made my choices and blame no one. You mentioned weight, I have a weight problem. I have one because I like to eat, and consume more calories than I burn. That is my fault as well. The good thing is that I've decided that it's time to take back control of my life. It's my responsibility and no ones else's. I've scheduled next M-W off so I have the weekend plus three days to deal with the WD's. I plan to get some moderate exercise in each day no matter how I feel and all contacts have been cut off already. I'm excited for the weekend to come so I can begin. Will it suck? Yes. Will it be difficult? Yes. Is there potential I fail? Yes. Will I give it my best effort? Yes. I own this problem and I'm the only person who can correct.
I agree with you both. I blamed everyone but myself. But, deep down, I knew it was me and only me. Our addict minds will rationalize and make up stuff...it sux!
Good, good luck with your sobriety. Remember, take it slow. The chills got a little better when I would get up and walk in the backyard in the sun. That's all I could do for days. But, being free feels good. Now, I'm working on the tobacco thing. Just stopped today. Anyway, tho is our disease, we own it, and we CAN heal!
Tobacco LOL, that's harder then it was quiting heroin, maybe cause their legal and right down at the corner store. Can you imagine going into a 7/11 and they have shelves full of different kinds of pills,,"I"ll take a pack of hydros and give me a pack of oxys to lol,,actually that would be a nightmare, anyway I own a house, a car and a damn tobacco addiction
Sorry for the confusion Keith, lol, that's my name, but again it's a great post!! ~Sherry
Great post honey. Keep up the good fight...one day at a time.
Great post!! No matter how we got here it's up to us to fix it. Blaming ppl is just the addict way. Can't heal until you quit pointing fingers.
Chronic dipper here. Such a disgusting, unhealthy habit. The stupid things we do...