on day 5

[all_alone1]

And althought all those vitamins made me feel awful yesturday(I was so irritated before bed), I actually fell better today. I am scared though to take the vitamins again and ruin my morning, but I know it is good for my body. So I am going to suck it up. Just took the l-tyserol cuz it is recomended on an empty stomach. And will take the rest when I eat.  I feel like I am going to slow and that is depressing. But your words of encouragement are always an instant pick-me- up. That i s what I look forward to. Thanks again you guys, I love you all. Seriously, if it wasn't for you I probably wouldn't have the mindset to quit.

[all_alone1]

Good for you. I know sometines it is hard to make decisions but end the end we all need to do what is best for us.

[gnarly_1]

SO you know the night shift.....owning a bizzness is a lot of work over the years I have had 3 worked 80 hrs a week at them I have spent most my life in sales but cant handle the stress without using it s u c k s 25yr experience now at 49 im trying to reinvent myself I feel like a fish out of water but in clean and thats all that matters without that you got nothing I only need to make a little money im on disability but if I dont work part time we dont make ends meet I tryed going back into sales full time for 90 days and finely my wife steped in and said you need to quite this job is destroying you that and she gathered up a few brothers from my church and we all agreed my sobrity has to come first

[all_alone1]

My husband is owner of a security company so I am dispatch until 12-1 AM

[gnarly_1]

  aaa I see and your on cali time so you still got a wile im still tring to get use to the night shift I find it hard to sleep in the day but im starting to fall into a scheduled just dont like missing ont on 1/2 the day sleeping but jobs are hard to come by out her in phx right now so you take what you can get

[all_alone1]

My day ends at 2am. I can't sleep before that

[gnarly_1]

its late what you doing up so late .....I work for the paper so we start at 2.30

[all_alone1]

Yes I do and I know I will because I have the support from all of you guys in here to help me through this.

[all_alone1]

Yes I do and I know I will because I have the support of all of you in here.

[gnarly_1]

your going to be fine your going to make it I dont knoe if you belive in God our not but I kept telling myself ....'''all things are possible threw Christ Jesus''.....it really helped when it seamed hopeless......Gnarly

[all_alone1]

Thank you gnarly I really need to hear that. I know I must stick to it and is why the journal is so important for my recovery. It reminds me of timeing and intake which seems hard for me but I know is a nessesity if I want off this.

[gnarly_1]

HI as you taper you will become more uncomfortable this is normal the lower the dose the harder it is dont yo/yo your dose up and down because you feel dope sick you just got to stick it out for a taper to work if I can taper off methadone for 8 1/2 mo you can handle a month dropping 3 pills its no fun but it is doable hang in there b/4 you know it you will be free from this .....im pulling for you key here is to stay disciplined good luck and God bless......Gnarly  

[littlebit667]

wonderful!  Keep staying on the track..it should lead you to a good and clean life!!!

[all_alone1]

It is 9:30 and I am still on track:-)

[all_alone1]

Hour three is coming up on me not feeling so good:-(

[ricart70]

no problem

[all_alone1]

Thank you hydroco_done your encouragement means a lot to me

[all_alone1]

Oh sorry for the confusion. I will post it more clearly tomarrow on day 6. Thanks for letting me know because I don't want to mislead anyone with my words. So thank you for letting me know

[Hydroco_Done]

angel_lina, if you consume caffeine every day consume just enough to get buy, b/c if you stop abruptly the headaches are awful.  You are doing good keep it up!!

[ricart70]

Oh ok I thought that since your post said day 5 it meant that you were off for five days.good luck

[all_alone1]

I am keeping a journal to make sure I stay on track. And like today adjust to make sure I stay on my schedule.

[all_alone1]

Yes I have set it to 1/2 a pill less a week. I am at 3and1/2 and in 3 days it will be time to got to 3.

[ricart70]

Tapering.You are still taking the pain pill?

[all_alone1]

Okay thanks I will watch the caffeine. I also had to put myself in check. I am tapering and divided it into 3.5 hours but by 3 I am a wreck so now I have to recalculate to accomidate myself every 3 hours. I get why sad_woman suggested not to set limitations. I see now I may have to constantly re-adjust myself along the way. I feel like such a baby having to watch my every move. Oh well I guess that is part of recovery.

[ricart70]

Again I say you said that the vitamins have caffeine in them?If so that is what was making you feel so weird.I could not drink any caff. in the first 10 days.I drank a coffee on day 8 and pretty much had a panic attack.