really cant take this rollercoaster ride

[neverending1979]

Well I thought I turned a corner 25 days opiate free now and I had 2 good days. I have never made it this far and now I see why I don't. Once again these muscle aches n no energy have me at rock bottom again
I was so excited a few days ago.this is craziness I might be the one that never recovers or maybe medically something's wrong...
Am going crazyyyyyy

[neverending1979]

Yesterday was better today my legs are killing me.

[dominosarah]

Just checking on you today.  Hope today is better than yesteday~

[neverending1979]

Feeling a little better today thanks for asking

[dominosarah]

How are you today?

[Cricketk92]

Congrats on 25 days!!!  That is awesome!!!  You are just where you are supposed to be!  It takes a while for our bodies to get back to "normal"...  I know for me the energy was the last thing to return and I still have times when I dont have any!!!  So keep hanging on!  You are doing great!!!  :)

[neverending1979]

Thank you guys this place keeps me going. I decided too stay at home so my by took our son and my 14 yr old daughter too dinner. I feel bad for not going just so lethargic I just don't think my 14 yr old understands. I hope she does. Thanks for all the support. I gotta stay strong this is the farthest I have made it

[gnarly_1]

Hey congrats on 25 days your off to a good start  as for feeling better it can take a wile you will start to get more good days as time goes by  just remember you dont heal years of abuse overnight it takes time I was on opiets for 15yrs and it took a good 90 days to even see hope  if I healed you will to   just dont loose hope  keep posting for support........Gnarly

[refills]

Hey, 25 days. That's great and a big congratulations to you! Yeah we hear you never. The fact that you're having good days is a great sign that maybe the wd's will begin to lighten up. I know it's tough but you might want to try and take all the positives you can when they present themselves. Oh it's not easy but compared to where your life was headed you're definitely on the right road. The road to recovery. So take solace in the facts that you do have good moments and you have 25 days in already. Keep in mind what you are leaving behind. You're doing great!

I'll also tell you that aftercare is so important. You should look into some/any type that may suit you best. NA/AA, Therapy/Counseling, and any outpatient care you feel comfortable in. Talking through the aches, pains and emotional stuff can be such a help. Try it and you'll see. Take it as it comes as we will be right by your side when you need us. Good Luck to you never and keep posting often. I know you can do this!...ike

[pillguy]

My apologies.  I have another friend in a very similar situation.  He' s hoping he's turned the corner but then the lack of energy kicks him in the butt a bit.  It was he I talked to on the phone.  With that said, my point is that the aftercare seems to b critical.  Both from the input of posters here as well as statistical data.

[pillguy]

I find myself in the position of having to agree with the above poster.  Yep, aftercare seems to be critical.  After a year on subs by myself I had made zero progress.  I enrolled in an out patient program that I worked for a year to get off subs.  Just because I was off subs didn't mean I was done.  I continue to see my one-on-one counselor.  We've worked on topics like mindful meditation, diet & exercise, and relapse prevention strategies.  Even though I could be discharged any time I wanted, I've stayed in the program.  I still participate in random UAs at my own request.  I also consider my interactions here as a form of aftercare.  I really try to be thoughtful in any response I post and if I miss the mark I have all of you to help me potentially see things in a different light.

Besides posting here, I've also spoken with Neverending1979 on the phone.  We've talked at some length about the need for aftercare and some of the options available.

Thanks for the the reminder that no matter how you approach getting clean, aftercare is a critical component for most of us to stay clean. :-))

[neverending1979]

Pull guy I think you have me confused not sure what 4 mg I was on opiates 6to 7 a day. Its ok:) my Dr called in muscle rub,sarcastic, bet that cures it.

[jifmoc]

Hey never, agree w/ the above posters. I remember it going up and down at the beginning a lot. Listen, you MUST do aftercare. THAT is where you will get your mental relief. Your brain is going crazy right now because it does have it's "medicine." We are addicts even though we've removed the drugs.

[pillguy]

My experience was very similar to what you are describing.  Good for some days, then not so good.  I particularly noticed that if I worked myself hard one day, I had less energy reserves for the next day or two.  I think we talked a little about the psycology of this.  We can tell we are getting just a little better each day but most addicts are not known for patience.  You jumped off at a very high level and have faced the WDs headon.  I have huge respect for you!  You jumped at 4mg and you have 25 days clean.  That is just amazing.  It takes real grit to pull that off.  I had 'down day' with 40 to 50 days clean.  I'm at 81 days now and feel pretty much normal and I'm not having cravings.  Your reward is just around the corner.  Hang in there.  Call me if you need to talk.

[dominosarah]

This seems to be pretty normal for alot of people.  It will pass.  If the sun is shining today go outside and sit in the sun for a bit.  That will help.  You are doing great so hang in there.  This part is only temporary.

[neverending1979]

I am taking a multivitamin and iron. It just seems like I feel like I did around day 10 or so.

[dominosarah]

You are recovering and you have 25 days.  That is something to be proud of.  The energy thing is tough but it gets better and so do the aches and pains.  This is no reason to cave.  Are you taking any supplements?