anxiety

[toothfairie]

ok I know anxiety is all part of getting clean....i've heard Valerian root is good for that....any other suggestions??  does V root make you drowsy at all??   i mostly get the anxiety at work.....the past couple of days have been almost unbearable.....so if anyone has any suggestions i would be very grateful.  Had it so bad at one point today, i thought i would have a panic attack.....i'm at 26 days clean today.....thought it would get better but it's gotten worse past few days. Thanks!!

[toothfairie]

thank you stuckonmeds!!  i will have to check it out!  hopefully it gets better soon....thank God the weekend is coming up :)

[toothfairie]

hahaha Teresa...well we shall see what today brings!!  not much sleep last night....uggg  and LeaAnn....i will try to be good today!!  no instruments someone's eye!!  lol

[stuckonmeds]

There is a book called from panic to power by lucinda Bassett it is wonderful. Teaches you how to deal with panic. I had very bad panic attacks for two years before I found out what they was in and out of the hospital bc I thought I was about to die and this book changed my life. I found the book at barns n noble. Right now I am having a panic attack I get them when im very stressed but I know how to deal with them and it makes it so much easier.

[Teresa1717]

Shhhhh LeaAnn!! Stay out of this!! Im the devil on her shoulder....Sweettooth, just do it...just throw them...noone will know its you....you will feel so much better...

hahahahaha God I make myself laugh sometimes!

[LeaAnn807]

Don't encourage her!  She may do it!

[toothfairie]

ohhhh i do imagine for sure....right or wrong i do....lmao  

[Teresa1717]

Thats ok!! Lettttt it all out!! Next time imagine a bullseye dead center! :)

[toothfairie]

oh you will get there!!.....i say that about my friends here that are 60-90 days clean and years clean!  it gives me hope!!  just stick with us....we will get each other to the other side!  i have faith in you!  you can do it....if i can anyone can....and you're not weak....you have the strength to want it...so it will happen....i'm alone in this except for the great people here and my counselor....but i am planning on a meeting soon!!  

[evolv]

thanks teresa, every morning i tell myself i will taper today, that i will do better - it doesn't happen. it *****. i don't know what to do other than CT next week. but i've been through semi-quitting before so i hope i can t least be of help to some of the other people on here, all dealing with the same thing.

[toothfairie]

but i wanted to throw them at SOMEONE'S FACE!!  lmao

[Teresa1717]

Your not weak! This disease is just stronger than you! You will get there, Just have faith that you can conquer this and find your way to the other side! I have faith in you :)

[evolv]

thanks tooth, everyone on here is great - i can't wait for the day. i hate myself for being so weak, but i would give anything to be where you are. call on me anytime.

[Teresa1717]

You should have thrown them!! lol WOuld have let out some of that anxiety! :)

[Teresa1717]

Youre not the boss of me!

[Pat1956100]

Okay quiet now. Survivor is on.

[toothfairie]

lmao me too Teresa!!  i actually had dirty instruments in my hand i wanted to throw....hahahaha....i'm so twisted!!  :P

[toothfairie]

thanks evolv!   I will be here for you when you get to that date!!  all these great people on here have seen me thru some dark days.....wouldn't have made it this far.....(i'm still a newbie).....but i still like to pay it forward when i can...and thanks so much for the info.....i will check out the blogs.....sleep is "OK" right now....but just gotta get past the anxiety thing....and hope i don't crack until that happens....lol  i just keep telling myself that it will pass....and slow down my breathing.....that's what i did today....and will do tmrw if it comes back....praying it doesn't but i will handle it the best way i can...thanks for everything!  

[Teresa1717]

Oh boy!! I have a HUGE list myself!! I often daydream about it :)

[Pat1956100]

I hope you're not waiting 7 years.

[toothfairie]

i've felt like knocking other people out with a frying pan lately.....lmao!!!!

[evolv]

hey tooth, i'm ok, but i'm not sticking to my taper :( thanks for asking. another thing i thought of for anxiety (I have a lot because i used to get panic attacks big time) is some acting exercises i used to do with actors (i used to direct.) you need to be able to lie down in a quiet room, so maybe won't work at work, but they're amazing to do at bedtime - you go through every muscle/area in your body from the top of your head down to your toes, one at a time, and think about relaxing it, all while breathing slowly. Again - it sounds very basic and overly-simple, but when you actually DO it - it works wonders. Let me know if you want me to send you a link, these exercises are all over the web, just need to find it (mine are in books...)

you've made it this far - there's no way you're going back. if you have to watch the same ten episodes of (fill in favorite tv show here) over and over until you fall asleep - then go for it, it will bore you to sleep eventually, ha! also collegehumor.com has a lot of funny stuff. also i like to waste time on www.kickstarter.com - there are a lot of indie artists who are creating amazing stuff, you can browse and watch trailers and you don't have to pay to look... just a thought. also blogs about stuff you're into! (politics, celeb gossip, pottery, ANYTHING, there are 100 blogs for everything you can think of!)

Hang in, you're doing great. And thanks for checking in - Dec 18/19 is my zero hour. just gonna go for it.

[Pat1956100]

Awww that is so precious.  My son sang that song one Christmas when he was little.  He learned it at daycare.  I am sure I have it on video somewhere.  I am going to have to find that.

[toothfairie]

frying pan!!  that was SOFA KING funny!  hahaha  

[toothfairie]

lol i bet it's cute to hear her sing LeaAnn!  and as far as ativan...i had some really really old ones i had....obviously not my DOC cuz they were 7-8 years old......i took them .5 one a day during WDs and 1 at night to help me sleep.....i don't have any left....maybe 1 i think.....but i don't want to get hooked on anything else either.....and i've heard about WDs from them....don't want it!