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arg,someone cut o my legs please

opi
hey man...day six clean...day 1 house arrest...slept a few hours with help of gravol and  eating a small chunk-0-hash....rls out o control..it has takin over my hands also..flexing hands like i'm trying to stick my fingers through the back of my hands,,,,fooked up....couple pins left but trying to milk em...lol..i can't milk jack..that's my problem..lol...eat a weeks supply o dope in a day...yeah yeah that's what i'll do..2 today 2 tomorrow....brains sparks....gobble snort...oops..well there goes that plan..doh!..must get more.....all in all i'm ok... guess i am just having serious anxiety attacks i guess?...feel pretty down(might do lots-0-time) so maybe it is a normal emotion...i'm not sure about emotions anymore...i know love,need,want....the rest i have to re-learn?...i don't know...try to keep busy but not much mojo going on in this bod...i aint guna score though...this i vow...going to seek help on monday...some adiction assesment sizzit...at 40 they say it harder to get of stuff..this true?
i'm a young forty though..lol....so fook satistics....allright i'm good...feels better typin...peace
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Glad you found us,sounds like you will be around the house alot.Read your post yesterday ,thank you for your honesty and telling your story.Stay focused and stay here .and keep posting and reading it does help.Monday is right around the corner ,you have a good plan.Good Luck you will be in my thoughts
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opi
thx ,,,i was here  for the last few months of 07 then went over the deep end....lol....bigtime....i've always been a go big or go home type of doper...never mattered what it was...did the blow monkie thing.pills.booze,,but spun it around for a long time...a woman worthy of being sobber came to me.....she is now my gardian....tough gal...she is trying to adjust to the idea that i did a serious crime but knows me and is now learning of the junkie i became....she wants"me' back...i'm  here just have broken head....i'm guna fix me..
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same age same adiction same lifestyle not going to jail though thank god so far not yet so many more yets could happen to me .you won't i pray i feel locked up though all the time lost mobility from a spinal cord injury from the insane lifestyle I chose. On day 6 COLD TURKEY in the words of John Lennon COLD TURKEY HAS GOT ME ON THE RUN.....
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opi, good to see ya here today bro. i hope the rls and anxiety ease off for ya.you know wutcha doin man, just wanted to let ya know im here to support ya... keep rantin and raving bro, anything that helps...
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