I loved your post about NA. I have been seeing a shrink once or twice a week since coming clean (over a month ago). You seem so at peace. I must admit that it is great to be able to say 30+ days, but I seem to be having a problem with being pissed off at the world. I am normally a happy person, never had problems with depression, but I am running on a hair trigger these days. Is this common?? I walked around after the w/d's finally stopped with a big stupid grin on my face all the time, then about the fourth week -- BAM. Now If someone pushes my buttons even a little watch out.
I am going to start the NA meetings..found one close to me with an acceptable time...I will see how this goes...
a menu of clonidine, doxepin, bonnatal, flexeril
I don't know about bonnatal, but I know about the other three. Clonidine is for your blood pressure, don't save it up, if you o/d, you'll be in big trouble. Doxepin is an older triclyclic antidepressent - great for sleep and helps with pain. No need to save it up, a little goes a long way. Flexeril, if you don't need it, OK to save it up but be careful. For me this was the best med to overcome the restlees legs and be able to rest.
Both flexeril and doxepin can make you sleepy in the morning.
I really, really want to hear how this goes!!!
Go easy on yourself. You're in mid-detox from some rock'n good drugs, if I say so myself. Hollywood sounds promising ...
It's fine to contemplate while in detox, but I wouldn't jump to conclusions based on how you feel right now. Give yourself a contract extension. And, yeah, Methadone is supposed to be a sex drive killer. Of course, the Dilaudid is, too, but I suspect you had other sourcers of inspiration when you and your girlfriend were together.
Congrats on sticking to the 21 day program. That says something about you.
By "save it up" I mean that I'll simply, if I'm able, not take the pills that are given to me on a daily basis. Each day I'm offered the same packet, whether I use them or not. Thanks so much for the info on each pills' benefits. That is more information that was provided me at the clinic, which I will say was pleasant enough, next to and associate with a university hospital. $200 was the price tag. And there are option therapy meetings after the detox program at $40 per. I do not intend to join the therapy meetings, at least not there; if I can, I may try to shoot for some noon aa meetings in the area if they're around.
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Hang in there! Man, I felt the same way about my husband after the first few weeks of being clean. It was like,"What's up w/ this??Am I REALLY married to you?? Now I can SEE why I did drugs all the time..." But, Thomas is right--we're screwed-up emotionally and I doubt if you will feel this way later on. It's such a challenge, at first, to feel ANYTHING after being in a fog for so long, that all feelings seem to be intensified and just a little out of whack. (How's that for a medical term??) Try not to react to these negative feelings;just go w/ the flow for awhile. I wish you the best..Peaz
P.S. In a post above I referred to you as a "she"---I'm very sorry. One has a 50-50 chance of getting it right.....