cincee

[hippy]

it has aslways seemed to me whenever i used everything in my life would go wrong, when i used  i would get flat tires every week.
when i used i got arrested at least 50 times' for things that i was not even part of doing.
i think they call it murphy's law , well it always had a strangle hold on my life ,whenever i  did drugs.
I somtimes thought it was my father praying for me, so i
would say to him stop praying for me , i crashed my car,
lost my job and broke my ankle  that week.

there is the other side of this story, once i started on the
road of staying clean the oppisite happened, everythin that could go right did, instead of spending my money on drugs,
and buying 5 dollar tires at the junk yard  i, bought sears steel belted raidels and never got a flat agian.
i never got arrested agian, inever lost my job agian,
i got custdy of my kids, ect, ece,
when i got clean and went to meetings it was like i was invisible
to the cops, and invisible to bad things coming my way.

i am writing this because  cincee posted that the only na meeting she could find was i the bad lands,in her town
and she would not go there unarmed, well my experence
has always been ,whenever we make that effort or surrender to
go to meetings , we seem to be invisible to trouble.
i grew up in the bad lands in philly so i understand her concern.
when ever i went back to the badlands to start meetings
or attend them i was a little leary but nothing ever happened.
CINCEE -call the na hotlone and ask , there are a lot of meetings not listed , talk to smeone sbout ,in your area.

[CinCee]

I have small kids coming this week (with their mom, the addict, but that's another story) so I took my Golden to get her nails cut, and she wouldn't let them do it!  They thought she was going to bite, so they muzzled her and things went downhill from there.

Between her and the two cats, some animal always needs are has ruined something around here.  My husband is out of town and his help with the animals is what I miss most;-)  Well, I could use is help dealing with the human family, too.

[Goldenbear]

Pixi, I'm always reading the threads and my thoughts are always with the group. Thanks for the thoughts. Still moving forward 12 days clean. Getting ready to go back to work next Monday after being out on disability for Herniated Discs in my back for 5 months. I've been keeping busy to keep my mind off the Hydro. It has been a little more difficult for the past few days... I'm a little nervous so I kind of think about how mellow and nice it feels on the Lorcets. The mind game is growing... my physical addiction has run its course.
Remember, I'm here for you if you need me.
We are taking care of another Golden this week. That makes 3 Goldens and 1 Bernese Mountain Dog. Almost a kennel here. My son thinks he is a Zoo-keeper.  Have a great day.
Goldenbear AKA David

[athena]

Where are you GB?Did the hurricane sweep you away?Just missing your cheery posts.Hope you are well.Maybe your at baskin robins for bring your pet all you can eat buffet lol

pixi

[puma]

Chezz,

I am sorry to hear you are in such pain, I know what it is like but for different diseases not back disc problems.

I posted earlier way down somewhere, it may have dissappeared by now, but a friend of mine from Florida had the same thing you have. He and his buddies were chasing a hurricane one day years ago, I can't remember it's name, but he had to lay down in the back seat of the car the entire time, similar to you at your computer.

He hated even taking aspirin so he finally broke down and had the back surgery. He said after that, the pain was completly gone. Almost like a miracle and he didn't even have to stay on any meds at all. I hear the surgery for back pain is even more elaborate and safer now so you may consider it. Your doc just might not want you to have it for money reasons if you don't have insurance or if he knows you may become addicted and is afraid of a lawsuit. You may try to find another pain specialist that doesn't know quite so much of your background, but enough to know what you are taking for pain and that it is not working.

I tried prednisone once and could not take that at all, I had a very bad response to it. My body has a bad reaction to most drugs I've tried, all prescription types. I never took the street stuff, was too afraid of what they mix it with.

That is why I am on the Klonopin for seizures and anxiety and Ultram for pain which works excellently for me. I have no side effects from either, but w/d's bigtime from Klonopin in the past. I finally am back to work again cutting grass and plant nursery stuff and my pain is well controlled now without overusage.

I hope you get help soon. I realize being under the knife sucks but I finally took care of my internal problems and have been much better off since. I now wonder why I waited so long in the first place. Fear plays such as mighty role in our lives, we need to trust in God to help us overcome it to solve some of our bigger problems. Good luck!

Chatahan

[Chezz]

BTW - If you go to see a nuerologist and he has time to do injections(schedule them). You might want to think about seeing somebody else. They will usually refer you. Their time is way too valuable. Unless they do it right on the spot. Which I have done as well.
When you find a good one, you will know. He told me my medical history after the exam and before I even gave him my records!
Thats why they get paid the big bucks!!!
Chezz

PS. nothing is absolute and there are always exceptions.

[CinCee]

In case anyone was wondering???

We all worrying night and day about you, in case YOU were wondering.

What "non-narcotic" did they give you?

My latest non-narcotic offer is prednizone, but I'm a little afraid of it.