50 Days Today

[cork712]

I'm doing the 10 day markers! Maybe once I get to 60 days, I'll go to months...I really don't think about my DOC anymore. Couple of things: it's out of my system, and knowing that I am very lucky nothing happened by my ordering online. Got a strange email Friday from the place I used to order from saying their customer service had closed--this is more than 2 months since any contact! The DEA is definitely closing places. I want nothing to do with any of this-very scary. That email was a good jolt and reminder of how bad the whole thing was! I've had days recently where I've felt down, but did distract myself by keeping busy (really had no choice anyway). But last night and today, I feel really good. It is a flood of emotions coming back after 4 years and it's good to hear that it evens out in time. Thanks to all the good folks here with their stories and encouragement! The days seem to fly by after the first long couple of weeks....Happy Sunday!

[cork712]

You're right - I think there still is some stigma too with drug or alcohol abuse  compared to someone having a different illness like heart problems, etc. But it is much better than it was -- there are several women who seem to be in their 70's in the group and are so happy now to have their family &/or friends back in their lives. I have relatives a bit older than that who would never have admitted their similar problems in a group, to their own loss. It sure would have helped them, even now.  Today I got to help one of my children look for an apt. for next year's college and help my youngest make a box for his Valentine's cards in elementary school. Nice to be present for my life! I'm truckin'!!

[YesLife4Me]

Just goes to show you that addiction has no boundaries as far as race, class, sex, etc.   I remember the first time I went through rehab for the F and was surprised at the many different backgrounds of people that were there with me.   Doctors, Pharmacists, Lawyers, Housewives, Truckers, Fireman, you name it.   My first week there I was talking with a gentleman that had come down from Alaska.   He was telling me about how he came down to Oregon to get sober and didn't want anyone to know.   His wife had told someone and it got out to other people in his hometown.  At first he was really angry, but then as he was talking with me it dawned on him that what he was doing was a GOOD thing for himself and his family.    When he said that, suddenly I didn't feel such shame for being there either.  That profound statement really stuck with me.    We don't get shamed because we have high blood pressure or diabetes?    Everyone has their own demons to battle with their health.    But when it comes to mental health, it has such a stigma still attached to it, but not as bad as it used to.   I say anytime we reach out for help, that is a great thing.    Congrats on your 50 days!!!    :))    Keep on trucking along...  

[Missshawn]

Congrats

[cork712]

Thanks for the support!
Clean: I do like the women's meeting--it's 3 times a week with basically the same people. What a nice group, so good to one another. A few have had years of sobriety, some just coming out of a stay in rehab, but all need and want the support of others. Love the humor mixed with the hard stuff too. It really has opened my eyes--I would never have known that any of them had the same issues as me if I'd passed them in a store or around town. Don't feel so alone anymore. This epidemic of use hits so many. Thank God for all these places that help us!

[clean_in_ks]

in first paragraph of "my book" ha, meant to type
"and you know in meetings we learn"

[clean_in_ks]

YEAH 50 DAYS!!!!  I love those 10 day markers, too!  Additionally, it helps to remember there are those new to our forum that can't wait to hit their first 10 days!!  Your 50 DAYS is MAGNANIMOUS to so many!  The cool thing about recovery is that there is always someone ahead of us....to show us the way.....and always someone right behind us......that WE are showing the way.  I just LOVE that LOL  We learn from each other.....and you know in we learn..."the newcomer is the MOST important person in the room".  So we ALL receive just what we need.  How cool is that?

Was so glad to see you post that you followed thru w/the Women's Mtg!!
Women's meetings are such a comfort to me and one that I hadn't expected.  Because in my using days, I was usually much more comfortable working with, talking with and bonding with "the guys".  Faithful to my hubby......always.....just liked what they talked about more.
But when it came to being raw, vulnerable, scared, emotional.....I NEEDED my recovering women friends.  After repeating several of my favorite women's meetings, I found "favorite" meetings and just "had" to go...haha!  Course, I went to mixed mtgs, too, just needed that safe environment of only women at times....also they could see thru me.....detect things in me.......relate more specifically to me when I needed it most.

Can't wait for your next 10 day marker!!  It's a BIGGIE lol....And like you said above, it IS amazing how days "fly" now........my clock has even started going faster! Haha~

[Clarityrocks]

Congratulations! Every day clean is a miracle, it keeps getting better each day! Great job:)

[dominosarah]

Congrats on your 50 days clean!!  You are doing great so keep it going~