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[wastedtime]

hey guys got a new problem. first i've been taking 8-10 10/500 a day for many yrs in the last few days i been taking 3 7.5mg today is my last!!! i'm already having wd's symptoms mostly i cant think strait at all!!! in a haze i guess more than physical i dont know what this is, my husband keeps askin whats wrong cant seem complete a thought without forgetting what i was saying is this normal? on top of that ct on sat. and now he wants to go outta town and with my family...he knows what im doing they DONT...and for now id like to keep it that way, planned on using the flu thing...i cant possible do this at a casino to many ppl too much walking & driving...wth can i do now..already just freaking out...sorry to ramble just ANGRY I PUT MYSELF IN THIS SITUATION IN THE FIRST PLACE

[mrsmisfit]

I'm not sure what you were taking them for, but I myself wouldn't want to be around a bunch of people partying. It could be a huge trigger fro you to just want a couple more to make it through the weekend. If your stopping now you are on the right path. This is my 3 time to this site. 1st time I made it 90 days, 2nd I made it 30 days. now I'm on day 5 all over again, because i though I could handle 1 pill and it took me over. The first week is the hardest. even for my third time I felt like I wouldn't make it through it again. It's day 5 and I feel really good and i can actually concentrate, but it took a lot of rest and walking at my own pace. Even if you don't want too force yourself to move around... Anyways I would take of yourself at home and take every step to stay off that poison! Good Luck!

[Jaybay]

Distraction is a great thing, but I personally think a casino would be a huge trigger not only for the drug of choice but for alcohol as a coping mechanism.  BAD IDEA!  Alcohol only makes detox far worse.  My vote is be "selfish" for now and do your detox the way YOU need to do it.

[rligh09]

I know everyone is saying dont go and at first I agreed, but sometimes distractions can help. Will you be staying in a hotel?? Maybe you could walk around a bit then go lay down? Let everyone think you have the flu, but it might make the time pass faster and befor you know it a whole nother day would be gone. But in any case you have to do what you feel is best for you and everyone is right there will be a million more family functions to attend and there is a nasty flu going around evrywhere!!

[dominosarah]

We are all people who have been right where you are at now.  We know the insanity the drugs/ alcohol have caused.  Keep posting as we can decipher anything......

[eyeofhorus2010]

Hey, us cavemen can understand anything. I specialize in deciphering grunts, groans and snorts. Lol.

You said it yourself, might as well go ahead and stick it out now since it's already started. You'll feel pretty crappy for the next 3 to 5 days, mad at the world, mad at yourself, mad at your husband (because he feels okay and you don't) you'll waffle on the idea if quitting is really right for you..etc... It's all part of the process, and while this is really going to try your patience for a while it will make for a nice bookend to compliment the good feelings you're going to soon be having.
Don't give up now. I imagine most of us will be here through out the day and night gaurding our sobriety with our lives on this national go out and get drunk day. So stick around and we'll all ring in the new year together.

[wastedtime]

k im stayin home just told em i cant go gonna try to get a hot shower cant sit down in tub rite now i dont think hope this helps feelin sick now be back soon. this is strange for me but i need u ppl now whoever u are

[LeaAnn807]

Don't go!  Honestly, I don't think you will feel like it!  You should be home and close to the bed and toilet!!! : )  If you don't have immodium, get some before much more time passes!  I'd also get some gatorade and apple juice.  We'll hang out with ya, ok?

[dominosarah]

Yep it made perfect sense......Dont put it off, dive in and get this over with.  We will spend the night here with you okay?

[wastedtime]

so easy a caveman can do it!!!! this does NOT apply!!! u are rite i cant go anywhere i dont want to anyway. im just gonna stay here and be pissed at the world..of course i thought about putting this off a few more days but i aleady feel bad i dont want to start over cant think about it..wow did any of this make sense

[eyeofhorus2010]

Yeah, I wouldn't even try to go to a casino or any other type of New Years Eve get together. Let your husband go if he wants and have him apologize for your absence because you've come down with the flu.  When I felt like do, it was a chore just to get outside for some fresh air. Add the RLS to it and you'll go bonkers sitting in a car for any amount of time. I went CT off Oxy's and the first few days I was a blathering idiot too. My brain was getting pulled in so many different directions that I couldn't pay attention to a tv show for more than a minute let alone maintain a thought long enough to communicate it out loud. I hadn't shaved in several days and everything I said came out as a grunt. I looked and sounded just like a caveman. That passes though.
In a weeks time or so you'll be up and around and thinking more clearly. That's when it starts getting good. You'll start believing that you will actually survive this afterall.

Good luck and don't give up.

[ImDONENoMore]

This is only one family event in a long line of future family events.  Their world is not going to end if you don't go.  You need to focus on yourself now and be selfish now.  Evenutally you are going to be well enough to enjoy those future family functions but now is the time to focus on YOU.  Just my two cents...

[wastedtime]

I know i havent even made it upstairs n two days much less tryin to drive  a couple hours to a place where ppl will be all happy & fun cause rite now im not either plus tom. will be 1st day without any pills..sooo stressin out

[dominosarah]

The "fog" you are feeling is normal.  It does pass.  I'm not so sure i would be going to a casino.  If diarrhea hits you it could get real ugly.  It is good to get up and move around but......