craving para guilt help me plz

[stilltrying1965]

a mcant stand it much longer aaaaaaahhhh hate a hate myself am weak a dont know whats happening am sweating a want smack or am going to die help me  sombodya woke up 5 minutes ago  a dreamed about drugs now feel like am rattling but to scared to lleave the house  kims trying to clam me down a cant understand this av no had feelings like this 4 months a just want a wee bit

[stilltrying1965]

James is still craving but he stayed clean and am proud of him.At times today i thought well the good work the hard work is over.But no my man he said am fighting for you Kim and my kids.A think we will have to look into PAWS that was the bigestfight so far  His sister called him to go crawl back to the hole we came from you junkie scum. Athnk that had a lot to do with it he says it does not bother him .But thats why i think he could not careless if he faile they want James to fail so they can say told you so.And gizzy he gets plenty loving lol but ill give him a bit extra tonight to try and take his mind off te last couple of days. Iv never seen anything like it before today .i think ill look into PAWS a bit more and see what it says as i think he may have that as we had very big habits so its maybe affected him more, But id like to thank you all for helping him throgh this very difficult day hes not slept much either just a few hours this morning thats when the dreams started and when he woke up it was like he was in w/ds again. I have had that myself and its horrendous and wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy. Thanks everyone you all helped in your own way and thank you to sophie for phoning and cheering me up this morning. Love yous all Kim

[gizzy32]

Jamesssssssssssssssss, stay with us here ok, are you alright? I know it's getting late there and i am so sorry these cravings are lasting this long. Some say they only last 15 minutes, but that is ********. They sometimes last much longer. Don't give in, no matter how bad you feel right now, tomorrow is a new day. I said this earlier, but I really think this is part of PAWS for you too. We are here for you!

Kim, can you please give James lots of loving so he will just go to sleep and stop craving? lol. I hope this passes soon, these types of cravings are scary, but remember the reason your fighting for this. LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER CLEAN.

[avisg]

No you dont even want a little bit .Think about it really think about it you want to go back to that life becayse we all know there is no such thing is a weeeee bit.Look how far your life has come this is the qay you want it noy even a wee little but is worth it

[SophieShine]

A wee bit is gonna take you right back down the spiral James and eventually it's gonna kill you. You have to fight this F'ing Beast and you will do it, we are all behind you here. You are so much stronger than the dope, you have to think about the good stuff in life, what you love, think about the joy of being with your kids and Kim, your wonderful wife. Think about your clean time and everything you are able to enjoy again.
With H, you ain't got no life, you barely survive...
James, you know the drill, baby steps by baby steps, You have PAWS, dreams are completely normal. It's part of the war and you, my so dear friend, are the strongest warrior I know, a Scottish Warrior!
I send you tons of hugs over the Channel, with all my love. xoxoxo. sophie.

[corey411]

Don't give in James. One day can make the difference between being clean and being in relapse again. None of us can take just a wee bit of anything. You can fight this. You will be all the stronger from it. Corey

[dominosarah]

James you dig even deeper than you did this morning and you come out fighting like mad.......You are not weak, not even close.  Listen to what we have all told you today especially your wife.  Stand up and take back your thoughts.  Kick that beast to the curb.         sara

[stilltrying1965]

James you need to calm down. you are ok just having a bad 2 days thats all you can fiight it james a know its bad but a cant explain it a love you dont you ever stop fighting this you promised me we would stay clean kim

[kim715]

OMG James I feel you today my friend.I woke up to the mother of all cravings this morning.You're not weak,you didn't cave to the craving.A wee bit is going to lead to a wee bit more and you know that.Then what,then where will you be.This craving isn't going to kill you James but the dope will.It's not going to last.You're going to make it through.Kick,scream,yell,do whatever you have to do to not use.I'm sending tons of strength your way and I'm right here for ya....Hang tough James.