Hello and welcome. Yes each withdrawal and detox will get worse.
I hope and pray this is your last.
Not a good idea to use the ativan and temezepam they aren't working anyway and will only make you feel worse.
Stick with the gabapentin and the natural supplements.
I would add protein drinks and magnesium supplements.
Also Epsom salt baths.
Working out is a great things as you know get back into soon. It will be hard
But it will help you to feel better quicker.
Were you attending any recovery groups to help prevent relapse
You were seeing a therapist? That's good.
Keep the faith. There is always hope. Don't give up.
Keep on keepin on.
Get to a meeting.
Go for a walk.
Take a hot bath with the Epsom salt.
Drink plenty of fluids.
Try to get some nourishment in you.
Move it is better for you then laying around.
That's good you have to work it will help your mind and body.
Each day you aren't t using you are healing.
Congrats on the 14 months you were clean.
You can do it again.
There is never just one pill, a thousand is never enough.
hi HC sounds like you are doing the right things, but i agree with Deb about the -azepams ... they are benzos and, especially if they're not working anyway, will only bring you more anxiety and grief. they have a rebound effect and the anxiety will come back ten fold once you're off them. get plenty of water, fluids, try to walk around the block or even down to the mailbox. Days 3 and 4 are generally the worst. i didn't sleep for a while, watched a lot of tv, movies, and spent time here. good luck. keep posting for support.
Your doing good don't look back now I'm 36 days clean from 200mg more a day from oxy.It was hell I went to a detox center for 7 days I was to scared to due it myself.I was prescribe that amount of oxy due a really bad back but I was addicted who wouldn't be after 4 yrs on that crap I feel pretty damn good today,my back hurts but no more counting pills running out early it's all done.i love love being pill free.keep posting you got this things should start working itself out but stay positive it won't happen over night.
Hey 4 days is awesome! I remember how you feel and I am almost 5 Months back from a bad relapse. Just wanted to offer encouragement and just know you can do this again if I can!
Thanks for the responses. Struggling this evening a lot.
So proud of you. Meetings are good! It takes a lot of courage to even come in here and say I need help! Keep up the good work!