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day 4 of oxy withdrawal, miserable
I am 21 years old now and I started snorting oxy 80mgs when I was in high school, probably around age 16 or 17 doing them every now and then with friends on the weekend which started to become a more frequent thing, the addiction crept up slowly, I mean so slowly that it felt like one day I was fine with stopping and the next I couldn't even imagine going to class or work or even a party if my dealer didn't pick up. The last few years of my life are a blur, I couldn't place events on a time line to save my life. For the past 2 years I've luckily been able to get the dosage down to 30-60mg a day, only binging every now and then. But I have decided it is time to stop, I am not in highschool anymore and this is really starting to effect my finances, my family, and my social life. I started taking one aderal every day to help with the lack of energy but I cant get more than 2 hours of sleep to save my life. Cold sweats and extreme sensitivity to temperature is really wearing me down, but luckily I have no cravings for this god forsaken drug. There was a couple times where I found myself starting to txt my dealer...starting to talk myself into getting one...just one...I'd cut it into quarters and just snort a little piece when I felt REALLY sick....but I've managed to talk myself out of it and finally convinced myself to delete all the numbers in my phone that could potential hook it up. I've read a lot of forums and I know many people have taken more than me in a day than I ever have in a week, but it is clear that the prolonged every day use and psychological dependence to the feeling of fading through life has put me in a miserable spot. The aderal does help...somewhat, I still have all the symptoms just enough energy to go about my day without wanting to kill myself at the thought of walking. Man this kind of got away from me, what I wanted to ask is, what did you do to make it through your addiction? Have you been able to stay clean, how? Any feedback would be helpful.
Thanks.
Twist
Thanks.
Twist
Twist,
Everyone is different in how fast/slow their recovery goes..except for this: You take it one day at a time. I know...a cliche, but true. Everyday you will now start to heal mind, body, and soul..remember that. Now, go get some Valerian root extract..it helps with calming. Get some benadryl..helps with calming as well. Make sure you drink lots of gatorade to balance your electrolytes.
Hang in there...this will be the hardest thing you ever do, but it will be the most wonderful thing you ever do for yourself, your family, and friends. You deserve to live your life free from pain and worry that addiction brings. Take care..
challenger10
Everyone is different in how fast/slow their recovery goes..except for this: You take it one day at a time. I know...a cliche, but true. Everyday you will now start to heal mind, body, and soul..remember that. Now, go get some Valerian root extract..it helps with calming. Get some benadryl..helps with calming as well. Make sure you drink lots of gatorade to balance your electrolytes.
Hang in there...this will be the hardest thing you ever do, but it will be the most wonderful thing you ever do for yourself, your family, and friends. You deserve to live your life free from pain and worry that addiction brings. Take care..
challenger10
I involved and informed my family about my addiction problem.... sure they were upset and disapointed at first but now not a day goes by without one of them congratulating me, and always telling me how far i've come.... once they get over the angry part, they will support you and help you through it. If they don't then it might give you the determination you need to prove them wrong! I just think that the more people that know you have a problem doesn't hurt, its just more people to look out for you and support you. Don't be afraid of your mistakes, be proud that you overcame them!
Yes! The hot baths! So true!! I forgot!
Okay. On your way home from work get the other things I told you about.Also, get some Epsom Salts. They have it at Walgreens and it's cheap. Pour a bunch in a hot bath and soak. It's crazy good!
Get these two things: Niacin and mag/potassium tablets. They will really help the chilly feeling and RLS. Do you have a heating pad? Electric blanket? Wrap up in a blanket and relax...if you don't have an electric blanket just throw a blanket in the dryer to heat it up and then wrap up in it!
It IS like the flu and it will pass. Force fluids and be sure to eat (cake and ice cream).
Will you see your Mom tomorrow? I hope so.
Okay. On your way home from work get the other things I told you about.Also, get some Epsom Salts. They have it at Walgreens and it's cheap. Pour a bunch in a hot bath and soak. It's crazy good!
Get these two things: Niacin and mag/potassium tablets. They will really help the chilly feeling and RLS. Do you have a heating pad? Electric blanket? Wrap up in a blanket and relax...if you don't have an electric blanket just throw a blanket in the dryer to heat it up and then wrap up in it!
It IS like the flu and it will pass. Force fluids and be sure to eat (cake and ice cream).
Will you see your Mom tomorrow? I hope so.
I am a recovering opiate addict and been sober for several years now.... believe me when I say that the withdrawls will end and everyday you will feel better. I decided to go the methadone route to get off opiates and believe me, methadone withdrawals are far worse then any opiate, cocaine or alcohol withdrawal.... you will think about grabbing but trust me, that only prolongs the symptoms. Be strong.... and take a bath....its ORGASMIC when withdrawaling....
I actually feel like i have the flu haha, no need to pretend, I feel feverish with a sore throat, chest cough, and a waterfall nose and been stuck at work all day. I live alone, I don't really want to involve my mom in this because other than breaking her heart I wouldn't even know where to begin. It's those breezes I'm telling you, they are going to kill me one of these days, it's like arctic wind, but you are absolutely right it is a good thing and it is something that I've needed to do for way too long now.
Thank you again for all the support!
Thank you again for all the support!
Your mood status says "kill me"? LOL No!
It's rough,I know. You need to call someone. If you can't sleep just go to the store and get some Melatonin or Alteril. You'll sleep;I promise. Also, get ice cream and cake. It works. Oh and a candy bar. MMM...
Drink LOTS of water!
I love what you said about the mailbox and a little breeze! HAHA! I remember when breathing was an effort! But not anymore!! You'll get there. This is hard but you just have to accept it and embrace it. I'm serious. Get your head around it. This is a GOOD thing! Pretend you have the flu and just baby yourself. Is your family nearby? Can you go there for a few days? A change of scenery is always good. What IS your living situation?
It's rough,I know. You need to call someone. If you can't sleep just go to the store and get some Melatonin or Alteril. You'll sleep;I promise. Also, get ice cream and cake. It works. Oh and a candy bar. MMM...
Drink LOTS of water!
I love what you said about the mailbox and a little breeze! HAHA! I remember when breathing was an effort! But not anymore!! You'll get there. This is hard but you just have to accept it and embrace it. I'm serious. Get your head around it. This is a GOOD thing! Pretend you have the flu and just baby yourself. Is your family nearby? Can you go there for a few days? A change of scenery is always good. What IS your living situation?
Thank you! I hope you have a great holiday as well! I hope by next week I feel atleast normal enough where a little breeze or the walk to the mail box isn't physically and psychologically draining. I'll give the melatonin a try, I definitely need sleep, it's terrible waking up after an hour and a half and your body just aching to the point where you don't want to be laying down anymore. And you are definitely right, I've tried quitting before, me and my friend both have, but something about last weekend made us both realize this needs to stop and I am definitely thankful for that!
Twist
Twist
I was just getting ready to log off and saw your post - I'm so glad I saw it.
I just wanted to tell you - actually reassure you - that everyon'e experience during withdrawal is different - and I think given your age, that it's going to be a quicker recovery for you - at least physically speaking. Yes, the emotional/psychological side of recovery can be a bit trickier, and that's why aftercare is so important, but I do think because of your age, your body should heal a little faster than some of us older folks (and that would be me UGH! lol)
And that's terrific that your best friend is doing this with you - I think that will be a great source of comfort and support for you both. Also - not sure if you've tried any of the supplements suggested here - but the melatonin was SO helpful for me for sleep. And I do agree with you that you are eventually going to just drop and you'll get that rest your body so desperately needs. At least that's how it worked for me - after a few days of no sleep I'd finally get that night of a few hours or more and it was a huge relief.
Okay well hope your holiday tomorrow is as good as it can be - and don't forget you and your friend have a LOT to be grateful for this year right? You're finding your way out of this mess and well on your way to a new life. Hang in there :)
I just wanted to tell you - actually reassure you - that everyon'e experience during withdrawal is different - and I think given your age, that it's going to be a quicker recovery for you - at least physically speaking. Yes, the emotional/psychological side of recovery can be a bit trickier, and that's why aftercare is so important, but I do think because of your age, your body should heal a little faster than some of us older folks (and that would be me UGH! lol)
And that's terrific that your best friend is doing this with you - I think that will be a great source of comfort and support for you both. Also - not sure if you've tried any of the supplements suggested here - but the melatonin was SO helpful for me for sleep. And I do agree with you that you are eventually going to just drop and you'll get that rest your body so desperately needs. At least that's how it worked for me - after a few days of no sleep I'd finally get that night of a few hours or more and it was a huge relief.
Okay well hope your holiday tomorrow is as good as it can be - and don't forget you and your friend have a LOT to be grateful for this year right? You're finding your way out of this mess and well on your way to a new life. Hang in there :)
@ImDONENoMore - I am ready to finally kick this nonsense, when I feel low I just keep reminding myself that one of these days I am going to wake up and feel normal, I've read about some people withdrawing for 2-3 months? Is that for real? I hope not :X It's gonna be 5 days at 4:00am! sadly I am sure I will be awake to experience it :(
@Getclean4me - thank u for that, today has been rough but I am trying to make it through, its the no sleep that is killing me, I've slept about 7 hours since sunday night and its taking its toll :/ I hav'nt napped so I'm hoping ill just pass out after work and wake up to day 5 :D (if day 5 isn't amazing I'm holding you personally responsible) lol, but seriously, thank you for the uplifting words, it really helps especially when that craving strikes.
@Vicki595 - Yeah, the addiction to snorting is just as bad as to the drug itself, Its like a cigarette smoker and their oral fixation, except this is to that drip, that awful taste in the back of your throat that one day becomes wonderful and necessary. I didn't snort the aderal, I felt that if I was gonna use another pill to help me start this process I shouldn't be using it in a recreational way. My thoughts go out to your nephew, I know I am not experiencing anywhere near what so many others have experienced but even this is pure hell, I wouldn't wish this on anyone and I hope he can kick this too. My best friend started the process with me so we are feeding off each other for support, as far as cravings and all that go, I'll tell him no when he asks and he tells me when my mind starts wondering.
Thank you guys for the support, It really does make that small difference between relapsing and staying strong
@Getclean4me - thank u for that, today has been rough but I am trying to make it through, its the no sleep that is killing me, I've slept about 7 hours since sunday night and its taking its toll :/ I hav'nt napped so I'm hoping ill just pass out after work and wake up to day 5 :D (if day 5 isn't amazing I'm holding you personally responsible) lol, but seriously, thank you for the uplifting words, it really helps especially when that craving strikes.
@Vicki595 - Yeah, the addiction to snorting is just as bad as to the drug itself, Its like a cigarette smoker and their oral fixation, except this is to that drip, that awful taste in the back of your throat that one day becomes wonderful and necessary. I didn't snort the aderal, I felt that if I was gonna use another pill to help me start this process I shouldn't be using it in a recreational way. My thoughts go out to your nephew, I know I am not experiencing anywhere near what so many others have experienced but even this is pure hell, I wouldn't wish this on anyone and I hope he can kick this too. My best friend started the process with me so we are feeding off each other for support, as far as cravings and all that go, I'll tell him no when he asks and he tells me when my mind starts wondering.
Thank you guys for the support, It really does make that small difference between relapsing and staying strong
Twist-
You sound so much like my nephew; same MO. He hasn't been as lucky as you are now...you're getting out just in time!
Yes...you know it becomes about the whole, sacred process! Snorting is such a huge part of that and it's the worst part. Terrible for you.
Did you snort the adderal as well? OUCH! Don't snort anymore of anything. It will get to the point where you won't want to swallow any pills and you'll be putting antibiotics up your nose! It's a tough habit to break...
I'm sure you're tired. Try some Alteril; it's otc and you can find it anywhere.
As far as staying away and how we do it? With a lot of help and support. Choose a support system of some kind and make a plan. Involve your family if you can. Close friends are a great help. Try AA or a recovery group where you can find a sponsor to help you keep accountable. A sponsor is also great for those times when you're having a strong craving. The forum can function as a back up sponsor,too. We'll kick your butt and cyber bully you until you come to your senses!! LOL
Keep posting and telling us how you feel, okay?
You sound so much like my nephew; same MO. He hasn't been as lucky as you are now...you're getting out just in time!
Yes...you know it becomes about the whole, sacred process! Snorting is such a huge part of that and it's the worst part. Terrible for you.
Did you snort the adderal as well? OUCH! Don't snort anymore of anything. It will get to the point where you won't want to swallow any pills and you'll be putting antibiotics up your nose! It's a tough habit to break...
I'm sure you're tired. Try some Alteril; it's otc and you can find it anywhere.
As far as staying away and how we do it? With a lot of help and support. Choose a support system of some kind and make a plan. Involve your family if you can. Close friends are a great help. Try AA or a recovery group where you can find a sponsor to help you keep accountable. A sponsor is also great for those times when you're having a strong craving. The forum can function as a back up sponsor,too. We'll kick your butt and cyber bully you until you come to your senses!! LOL
Keep posting and telling us how you feel, okay?
fourth day was the worst for me honestly man... im 23 been doing oxys on and off since i was 20....im on day 5 and i feel way better then yesterday.. could feel myself feeling better throughout today....hang in there brother
Yeah that's why recovery isn't only about stopping the actual taking of the drugs. It's creating a new way of life - a new way of thinking about things and an entirely new value system - what we decide will now be important to us and the things we need to focus on moving forward. It will take some time - that kind of change doesn't happen overnight - and that's a good thing. It's the stuff that takes real committment and time that stays with us ya know? I never appreciated anything that was easy or handed to me. And it's the same with recovery. It's a long process but one WELL worth taking I promise you that. So give yourself that time because you deserve it. :)
Totally makes sense, the thought of NEVER doing it is a painful one, but I know i'll never be able to just do it once for fun and then continue on with my week without mentally being like "oxy oxy oxy oxy oxy oxy". And I only had 3 aderals, made em last 4 days, the last thing I want is another addiction x_X. Honestly the mistake was ritualizing the whole process, it was no longer just about having fun or even getting faded, it was a process...almost sacred, and I think that's what my body is having the hardest time letting go of, u know the drip in the back of my throat and the bullet filled with powder in my pocket, ready to face the world. When I have kids I will beat it into their minds, that whole "say no to drugs" **** isn't a joke, this stuff takes your life before you have time to blink.
Thanks for the feedback, gonna mentally prep for the long day ahead!,
Twist
Thanks for the feedback, gonna mentally prep for the long day ahead!,
Twist
Good for you for realizing at such a young age that you've got to stop. Wish I had thought like that at your age!
And I think the only thing that truly worked (and still does) for me is taking each day ONE day at a time. I know, we've heard that a lot - it's kind of a cliche but I think it became that because it's true. If I think too far into the future then I end up feeling overwhelmed and everything seems impossible. Does that make sense?
And I also wanted to say (no judgment) - please be careful with the adderal. I've heard that can be pretty tough to get off of too and I'd hate to see you end up cross-addicted. I believe that's a stimulant right? So it could potentially mess with your central nervous system thereby making this withdrawal a lot worse.
Good luck to you - and welcome! :)
And I think the only thing that truly worked (and still does) for me is taking each day ONE day at a time. I know, we've heard that a lot - it's kind of a cliche but I think it became that because it's true. If I think too far into the future then I end up feeling overwhelmed and everything seems impossible. Does that make sense?
And I also wanted to say (no judgment) - please be careful with the adderal. I've heard that can be pretty tough to get off of too and I'd hate to see you end up cross-addicted. I believe that's a stimulant right? So it could potentially mess with your central nervous system thereby making this withdrawal a lot worse.
Good luck to you - and welcome! :)
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