day 6 & still no oramorph

[Nez37]

well yes its the 6th day since i decided to bite the bullet and instead of dropping my oramorph by 5ml for 2 of the 4 doses per day and staying at that for a week before i then decreased it by a little bit more, i just decided that i was going to just stop taking it and deal with it. it's been hard but not as hard as i thought it was going to be or as hard as it has been on previous attempts. saying this though, today has been a really hard day. i got up in pain and in a really foul mood with lots of sweats and shivers too. my wife and i decided to take the kids out and treat them but although i was there in body i really wasn't in mind. i am so ratty, quiet moody etc and i feel so guilty for being this way but just can't seem to snap out of it. i just feel that they don't deserve it and that they would be better off if i was to go somewhere else until i was through this. i get agitated by the slightest thing and to be honest i am really struggling to control things. it's getting harder and harder each time and i'm worried that soon i will let rip and if that happens i could ruin everything i have. i just thought that things would get easier not harder as time went on and i still have serious amounts of morphine to come off when i have stopped taking the large amounts of oramorph i was taking. i feel so low today that i have been so quiet. my wife has gone out tonight and i hope she's having a great time, god knows she deserves it for putting up with me. not too sure why i am writing this but i suppose i was just wondering if anyone had any ideas.

[Fayef]

Hi I've been on oromorph for over a year now and to be honest I'm feeling no better from it I'm scared of coming of it because the side affects of going cold turkey scares me more the thing is I've gained 2 stone I've stopped drinking and going out socially I'm becoming rather lazy and really want to be the wild energetic women my husband use to love can anybody recommend anything

[ImDONENoMore]

The sadness you're feeling is really normal.  It's like mourning the loss of your best friend, so it only stands to reason that you'd be feeling like this.  But I can tell you this feeling does go away eventually.  And try not to be so hard on yourself.  What you're doing is really difficult so allow yourself to just feel what you're feeling.  Don't put any unnecessary burdens on yourself or expectations for a while.  The more you resist what you're going through the harder it's going to be.  Believe me, it will be considered a very small part of your entire life when you're past all of this - getting sober is hard yes, but SO worth it.  Give it the time it deserves.  :)  p.s. and hot showers with epsom salts, valerian root, distractions (movies, mindless tv, going for a walk) all of these things can help A LOT with the anxiety and restlessness.  Don't underestimate the power of these simple tactics - they helped me SO much.