day 7 and feel horrible.....

[oxymom]

well, today is day 7. If you can call it that, i did a 40oc yesterday and an 80 the day before. i just can't deal with the anxiety anymore. I just got back from the dr's and told him about what was going on and what i've been taking. And I talked to a therapist and I am seeing him on Monday. I also, to make things even lovelier, I have bronchitis.....so I'm feeling really good right now. I want an oc so bad! I keep thinking I could just do one because I can start a new road to recovery next week. The minute I had those feelings i took a suboxone because i just didnt know what to do and I am hoing to up my paxil, I'm trying chamomile tea right now but you know that only helps so much......hopefully the baby will sleep for at least another hour till my husband gets home!

[mamabear6]

I'm going though some stuff too.  It's tough to keep things together for kids.  My husband has been as supportive as he knows how to be-actually, I would never have made it this far without him. WE've been struggling with a virus going around the family, too.
DO you have anyone to help with the kids?  I'm on day 20 and still sturggling with the lethargy.  My house is is
kind of faling apart and nutrition has not been so good (Husband makes frozen burritos for kids, etc.)  I'm starting to be able to push myself to do things more, but in the beginning, I felt like being a big baby and not having to take care of anyone else.
I'm kind of old to have kids (age 46, 6 kids ages 5 to 21)so virtually all of my friends work and are pretty busy with older kids, gradkids, etc.  SOmetimes I crave some help.  DO you have a friend or someone that can come take the kids away this weekend so you can nap or shower or cry without worrieng about them.  
My biggest fear in all of this is how it is going to effect my kids!  
I keep telling myself this is just a samll moment in time--it will pass.  But there's no doubt that having some help (like this messageboard) can help it to pass a tiny bit easier!
And heaven knows, with two little guys, you need to to what you can to make this pass easier--so you can come out the other side OK.

[ThursdayNext]

You've got to keep yourself really hydrated.  During wd I drank 6 litres of water a day and almost triple the amount of vitamins I should have been taking.  I spent a lot of time in the shower.  I'm on week two and still a bit cranky.  Before you take a pill you really need to do as gip says lay on the floor palms down and just breath and find out what's causing you to want to disappear.  I took zipfizz I tried the l-lytosine stuff and it hasn't done anything for me.  The valairum is very helpful.  Don't do too much physcially that just wears you down and makes you want to take another pill.  You can do this.  It's really worth it.  If you like I can pull a stone for you.

[oxymom]

I do have lorazepams, small one's, i think they're .5 or something like that. I just want to feel better,   fast! When does it start to get better? No wonder why people go right back to taking pills. Maybe once I'm on anti-biotics for 24hrs, and the bronchitis starts to go away, I'll feel much better. Or is that just wishfull thinking? It will be day 8 but I did mess up teice this week. God I hope it doesnt set me back completely. I took tomorrow off of work but I told my boss starting next week I'd work more hours. I figured it would keep me busy. Not that i need much help in that department because I have a 6 year old and a 16month old boy.
I know this is random, and sorry i keep rambling, But does anyone know anything about how valerian root and a b complex and vit.c pills can help the w/d's? I am also on Paxil, and I take ativan, only if i really need it and suboxone if I'm having bad cravings. I asked my dr but because the suboxone's aren't perscribed to me, he wont say what to do. Also, he kind of rolled his eyes at me when I mentioned using vitamins and herb to help my symptom's......any advice would be great

[gipsee]

If you have Ativan - Lorzapam.. I think... the Valerian is useless... don't even bother.   I got Stress-B Complex... which really I take all the time, and a good multi... at least I was getting Vits in me.. because I had no taste for food anyway...but B-Complex is supposedly good to get the neurotransmitters back to working.  I still have anxiety but frankly I have to admit it's getting manageable.  Given the fact that I used those pills every day for 5 years... one-month to get feeling somewhat OK is not that bad.  Still not completely feeling Normal... but I'm having "normal" feelings that are noticable.

Lemme see... and I'm trying to remember.... I had a really tough 1st week back to work... my mind would not cooperate w/where my body was... 2nd week got better.

This week my 5th week was OK.. had one really bad day.   I am down to 1 mg of Xanax a day   .50 twice a day... so I'm good in that area.

You will notice a remarkable difference after the 2nd week...I really took two weeks off from work..but I # 1 didn't know what to expect... # 2 had a planned vacation week between Xmas and New Year... but in hindsight I think I baaaaaaaabeeeed myself too long.  Staying busy and occuping my thoughts with other things really was the biggest plunge forward.

Honestly... it truly gets better....and hopefully it will continue to get better.

Take care of YOU
Gip

[gipsee]

I wish I could help.   I know the anxiety is the worst for me too...I can truly not deal with that feeling.

Did the Dr. suggest a Valium or Librium, Xanax... to help you.

I know .. I know it's a trade off... but using something for two weeks won't hurt you to stop C/T and may get you through the worst of the W/D.

Also... my Dr. Recommended breathing exercises and I looked at her like she had two-heads... RIGHT!

But ... yanno... it works... only for 5 - 20 mins...but it does help.  Go Figure.

Wishing you the best

Gip