day...again :(

[desperatetostop]

I did it...I lived sober for a few months...was feeling great, no smoking, no pills,...just eating right and excersizing...and then one day, I took a pill....I kept taking them, even when i knew i shouldn't...
I cannot tell my fiance. thats just not doable at this time. I need to get thru this on my own and with the help of those that are willing.

I'm sick today...its actually a little over 24 hours since i last put an oc in my mouth. It started with a vicidin jabout a month, month and a half ago and ended with me popping up to 80mg or more a day!

How did I let this happen again?

[desperatetostop]

thank you

and you're right,...i didn't have any recovery care...

[avisg]

Well my first question is what recovery care were you getting .Most members that relapse have tried to do it all on there own with no recovery care if you are not getting plz do .
You know the drill first week is the worst for physical wd ..hot baths otc pain reliever s,meds for the runs if you get them .You can do it .we will be here for you :)