dreaded DAY 1

[NASTO]

Hi Guys, I am sick of using percs, oxy's vics, etc. and want off for GOOD!!!! It all started with a dam wisdom tooth!!! Long story short, started using again about the end of april. I had come accross an insane amount of oxycontins and thats where my trouble started. At the beginning of may I was up to around 150-220 mg's of oxy a day, for about 2-3 weeks, then aquired some 10mg percocets to wean off the oxy's. Unfortunatly I enjoyed the high alot more from the percocets then I did from the oxy's. Go figure. The month of June I was taking 10 - 15 per day, and now for the past 2 weeks I have been trying to go longer without them each day. I know this dosent seem like much at all, but im at the point now where I dont start to feel the physical WD's for 15 or so hours, which is alot better than it used to be. I am now taking about 3-4 every day, and still feeling like **** but im sure not as bad as if I didnt take any. Im only 29 years old and IM NOT GOING TO LET THIS **** CONTROL ME ANY LONGER!!!! I was Vice president of Marketing for a start-up corporation and quit my job last month to get off these dam things. There's no way I could work with the WD symptoms. Last night I decided i was going to co CT. Is this a dumb move considering the amounts I have stated above? Is it true that if I go CT the withdrawels will be worse but not last as long as tapering? Please any advice you could give someone like myself who wants to get there life back on track would be greatly appreciated! God Bless and wish me luck!!!!

[NASTO]

I know its only day 2 (about 33 hours clean), but so far just a case of the sweats. As far as aches go, i have been able to keep them under control so far by taking tylenol pm's and motrin. Believe it or not i am feeling so happy for just being able to get to this point. My connect just called and said he came across some 512's. I told him to lose my number. I just hope this motivation im having lasts even though I still have prob 2-3 days of hell ahead of me. Oh and I also forgot to mention in the first post, that not only have I stopped the percs CT, but cigarettes and ambien as well. SO FAR SO GOOD!! thanks guys

[charizzio]

You are beginning your journey, I must say congrats. I remember the worst of what I felt did not compell me to take any pills and now I am feeling a lot better. Still not 100% but very good today (day 7)...Stay focused.

[NASTO]

Thanks for the support guys. I Am going though with the CT and for some reason am very excited now. I can't wait for the day I wake up without those little yellow devils running through my head. AGAIN, THANKS!!!!

[charizzio]

Good luck, just suffer for a few days. Look at the Thomas resipe if you need to. I believe you have to balance how much you taper and how ready you are. Once you get down there and decide to go for it then that is it, ride out the first few days however you can. Then just rebuild your life, in the beginning you will have good or bad periods throughout the day / night...but the worst is over in a few days. The days are long but think of how many blurry days you have missed on these damned drugs once people like us becom addicted. The road to healing is there for you, don't delay....C

[pastAndFuture]

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Is it true that if I go CT the withdrawels will be worse but not last as long as tapering?
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This is usually the case, since it sounds like you have not been hooked for that long, from what you posted, you might not suffer that long. It is certainly worth a try, as you have options if you fail.
    The reason CT fails for people, is that the severity of WD cause people to use again. Sounds simple, I know, but not using is the key to not using. If you get there CT, bravo, you are fortunate. Consider some kind of "aftercare", or "recovery" during and after, it will help you to STAY clean.

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[lonote]

I am so sorry to hear what this damm pill thing caused you at work. Its a b---- and has taken ppl to darker places than that too, but  that really sucks. I lost a job for calling in too much and thinking about it now it would be  when ever there were no pills around,i'd be going thru w/d's. I just wanted to welcome you here. There is alot of support and good people here.                Cathy