I can relate to so much of what you wrote. When I first started taking the pills, although I was taking them for legit pain, it didn't take me long to start abusing them, I had tons of energy. I took pills to do bills, to do laundry, to make dinner, to watch a ovie, to ride in the car, to do everything. Thenm something happened and I just took pills. Everything became a chore and I put everything on the "to do tomorrow" list, but that list was always pushed back to another tomorrow. Bills, didn't get paid, laundry didn't get done..... nothing was accomplished. I had no more emotions excpet anger when I ran out and then panic.
Now, it's different. I can read a book, watch a movie, write in my journal and for that I'm grateful.
You sond wonderful. Every time those flowers bloom it will remind you that your life is blooming.
I always said that I know I have another relapse in me. That I don't doubt... but I'm not sure if I have another recovery......
God bless!
yup, 11 years sobre i picked up pills for legit pain, now im about 10 days completely clean again after 4 years of pills. i havent slept a wink in 10 days i feel terrible physically but wonderful spiritually because i can see the end of this withdrawl and i want whats at the end.
my life back.