for the love of norco

[MrDee]

I have now weened myself off of a 6 year norco dependent life, for chronic back and now sever foot pain.
I was up to 6 sometimes 7 of the 367 tabs so far 4 days clean now but Ive have to do it I so want to know what  life is with out this usage ..
I must admit it alters my personality to the point that I'm not sure people will recognize me with out the usage.and i do love what it does for my personality but wtf

I'm now off work laid up due to problems with my feet just got one foot out of a cast and am off for another month
sometimes I feel like the walls are closing in and my attention span is about 2 Min's lol

Ive had to take the pm benidril stuff to sleep at night or its a toss and turning up all night deal
I live alone and have always been an outdoors going and doing hunting fishing quad riding kinda guy now I'm feeling like I'm about to become a shut in I know this will pass but its been 6 yrs in this dependent life
I guess I'm just looking for some advise and support while this Jones works its way out of me.
anything greatly appreciated.

[MrDee]

Sunny & Cand
Thank you for your kind words my God have you hit it on the head i want to truly retrieve my old life back as i feel Ive been robbed of it for the last 6 yrs relationships have been lost, who needs a good woman when you've got Rx heroin lmaoo not funny i know but its the truth  i have a garage with $100K of hobbies and interest's i used to enjoy now i look at them and thats all Ive done for the last several yrs just look at the raiments of what used to be.
But it can and will change i was just thinking as i am trying to get the house cleaned i remember when i used to get off on a thing called Will-power seriously I grew up in the 70's suffered through the 80's have to take the 5'th as to my line of work would frown on past regressions
but seriously i have been around and was immersed in all of it and used to get off on my Will-power cause i did like it all.
but when i looked in the mirror after yelling at my 3 yr old daughter when she seen what i was doing i said thats it no more and that was the end.
Ive been gazing in the mirror a lot lately.
Thank you seriously again

[candoit108]

Hello there. I just posted my comment about my awful addiction to roxicodone.
You are right. These types of pain meds will alter your personality, but you know what?
You are great person before you started on these and in time they probably did alter your personality. I know because these roxis did it to me. However, it was only in my head that I thought I was this great personality when in fact, I liked myself much better before this addiction. I was very active. Yoga, running, excercising and all around good healthy life-style habits. And I did like me life then. What the roxi's did to me was to take hold of this happy place,and twist my mind mentally to make me think I was on a better path. I actually for a period of time really believed I was a better person because nothing really bothered me. But along with that attitude came the lack of  motivation to do anything healthy. No more workouts, yoga or running. I became this recluse that would be a slave to these addicting pills. You are active and srong. Believe in yourself.

[Sunnyd210]

Im sorry you are going through this. Trust me there is a light at the end of the tunnel. There is so much mental turmoil though isnt there. For awhile when I stopped I had these uncontrollable rages it was very strange I think it takes a while for our brains to handle stress and emotions after being shut down for so long on the pills. Good luck to you and stay strong. Another thing that really helped me was a repeated 1 pill is too much and 1000 would never be enough, I mustve told myself that 150 times a day in the beginning.

[MrDee]

Lonesome
like i said Ive been on an open Rx for 6 yrs taking everyday maybe been off of them once for about a day or two just to BS myself and say see i can go with out for a dayyyyyyy
the only way for me was to ween myself down or you go crazy and it takes some time i dont think i could do it and work at the same time maybe but it would be tough. I was obsessed with not being able to get through a day at work with out them let me tell you.

the obsessing over them is insane i was having nightmares about them last weekend lots of rawwww emotions i had to go to two tabs a day from 4 for about four days then did 1 tab a day for about 4 days i tried to push it too quick and that dint work then started doing 1/2 a tab twice a day for a few days then just a 1/2 for a few days

you cant get far from a bathroom for a few days for me anyway if you get my drift.

[LONESOME]

congrats on 4 days I want to ask how bad was your habit and how bad was the wds?

[avisg]

Mr dee,
as long as your not on any type of anti depressants there are some supplemts  that help with both mood and energy. I used the 5hpt and l tyrosine and they really helped me so much ..I took vit B 6 ad 12 also magansuim is go for so many diffrent things it helps with sleep and helps  with pain . I recomenned that as well. you will get threw this .you can start a new cycle in you family the getting and staying clean one :)
avis

[MrDee]

not taking any supplements but i will look at that Ive been doing lots of Vitamin B trying to stave of the depression oh did i for get to mention the raw emotions &^%K me crying every day when i listen to music writing in a journal that looks like the memos of a mad man dredging up past repressions romantic obsessions and late night walks down repeated sunsets.
oh yea this **** is funnnnnnnnn
as i sit her palms sweating but lots of wonderful folks on here i found this site about a month ago then couldn't find it again till today
my heart really aches for the folks on here going through stuff i come from a long like of addicts in my family with booz etc but Ive always managed to have a strong willpower did the booz thing for a while stopped that no problem maybe have a drink now and then but nothing i desire i just have to get over this hump and not substitute another destructive behavior for the one I'm trying to shake off my back
problem is too that 2 of my kids have addictive behavior my son at 18 has been in group for it when he got his butt in trouble and my daughter has Lupus and due to the wonderful chemo type drugs they had her on before and through her kidney transplant
her Dr told me that the morphine he had her on would kill 4 people they thought she was just drug seeking behavior. but her resistance in the hospital was through the roof she tried to get up and walk out of intensive care they couldn't knock her out and she may have weighed 100# so yes id love to break this curse and shoot the monkey
its tough when you have legit pain so I'm not sure how this is going to pan out
thanks for reading my rant.

[avisg]

mr,,,
Good for you .. I know right now  its pretty bad but before you know it you will doing all of the things you used to and enjoy it . Do try to get outside and do what you can I know you are limited with your foot but getting out side really does help .Are you taking any supplements.If you go to the "health pages" you will see something called the amnio acid protocol  it has a list of supplements that will help you out. stay strong you can do this.