help?!?! cold turkey quesrion

[kgn1212]

I am in soooo much pain right now. Im like 40 hours in and cant take it anymore. Im withdrawaling from oxycodone. What if I got ahold of vics? Would it start me all over? Or if I did just a little oxycodone would it start me over? I have had a half of a tramadol. But itsnt helping and also im a wreck emotionally! !!! Please help. Nothing more I want than to quit but omg idk if I can do this. Not to mention no one knows I have this problem. Im alone in this.

[Merri123]

Your getting there. The RLS is the worst. You hav to get up and do things moving will make the arms and legs feel better. And get your mind off of it all. Clean. Dance. Go go for a walk or run. Then a hot shower.

Did you make it to a meeting?  There is also SMART Recovery on the web. Many like it a lot. Gives you what you need when you can't get out to a meeting.

[Lilly1955]

You are almost through the worst of it. Valium is much harder to stop than opiates. I kicked both. Just hold on . It won't be too much longer. Talk to someone in NA they can help.

[kgn1212]

Thank you I needed that. My arms wont stop crawling. And im just so emotional. I just hate this

[Heather8448]

I dran a few shots while detoxing the important thing dont do it again get through this and the rest will fall into place...You dont let anyone down but yourself, your an addict we expect you to use, every day clean is a miracle! You my friend are a miracle keep trying

[kgn1212]

Hey everyone. I feel so horribly guilty because I caved and did the last little perk I had. I feel so ashamed and so disappointed. I cant believe im ever coming back to this site to tell all of my failure. Im sorry to let everyone down. I cant believe I caved. It is the last of it though and have no access to anymore. I know this will be prolonged but I really hope it doesnt set me back to day 1. I really wish I had a support team at home and could go public with this but I cant. I know I know sohnds silly to say I cant but really I cant. I will not lose my kids when I am a very high functioning addict. I know I will get theough this and I did **** up big time but I have to do this. I truly have no access now and I did tell my brother. He is a huge supporter. He went through this and is 6 months clean. Im soo sorry I let u all down

[Frogger76]

Hi there!! I too had that crazy feeling in my arms and especially my hands, all I remember doing is squeezing my hands as tight as I could, it helped a little, but it was horrible!! I hear a lot of people on here talk about the restless legs, I never experienced it in my legs, only my arms and hands, I also soaked my hands in cool water, it helped but just know it will pass and please, please, please stay strong!! You're doing great, keep it up!!

[kgn1212]

Will it start me over all the way to day 1 if I just did 5mg of perk? Please honest answer.

[kgn1212]

My arms are the worst right now. Idk what to do. Im going crazy. All I want is just a little bit of a perk. When does the crawling tingling feeling stop? Am I almost there?

[kgn1212]

Without my fiance I would have given in. Hes been amazing to me. Im so happy im doing this. I have been thinking about how all my money went to this addiction. I havent been to the movies with my girls or the arcade with my son in ages it feels. Im so ready to get back to this. Their bdays are coming up starting in a couple months and I wanted to be off everything by then. Looks like I will be.

[kgn1212]

And im thinking if I can get a ride I will be going to a meeting tonight. My fiance works tonight and we share a car. My truck broke down

[kgn1212]

I fought through a really tough craving. Especially because it was in my grasps. I still havent taken anything but vitamins since that half a tramadol. Its 1030am here in ohio so once I make it to tonight it will be 3 days since my last opiate use

[Cricketk92]

You are doing great!!!!  Just keep hanging on and the days will go by!!!  Showers really will help to relax you!!!  I too am on a prescribed benzo and it did help me to sleep during my detox!  My plan is to come off them in the near future and see how life goes without them!!  Keep on posting and letting us know how you are doing!!!

[Dozeman]

hang in there you must stay strong I was all over the place to if you read back threw my post I went half crazy a couple of days and then it came to pass and will for you to its alright it is a normal thing and ok I made me feel crazy when I looked back and seen some of my post one minute I would be a little sappy and next I would have a little touch of being an ******* I knew from what I had read there would be mood swings but never thought they would efffect me to the extent they did I would watch movies I seen 100 times and wanna cry what you are going threw is normal

[Junip]

Hang in there!!! It's 7am here on the east coast and I literally did not sleep a wink. My boys will be up within the hour...hopefully a nap will happen sometime today.  Glad you at least got out, keep up the awesome work!!!!

[kgn1212]

I know my posts r everywhere and dont have lots of info but as I get better I will share more. Right now all I need is encouragement to continue this. I cant keep my train of thought going to tell my "story". Thanks to all who have helped so far. Means more than anything.....hot shower time. Check in later

[kgn1212]

Thanks. After dinner I was feeling aweful. Like the worst I have felt. I made myself go to the store to get ice cream to make milkshakes because I havent been able to eat no matter what i try. Anyways I came home took a hot shower and layed right down. Somehow I was able to get quite a bit of sleep with (no sleep aid) especially for day 2. Im now almost 60 hours in and struggling with the horrible feeling in my arms still and the sweating. I just hope im almost there.

[Merri123]

Kgn. You need to stop thinking that a pill is going to be the cure. You are at almost 48 hrs. You are doing this. All a pill will do is prolong it. Yeah it'll make you feel better but then you are back to where you are now when it wears off. One will lead to another snd another.

You want to stop right. Then you have to change your whole mindset. The pills are not the answer. Time is. Vitamins and hot baths with Epson salt. Getting up and moving. Dinner with the family is perfect. It will get your mind off of it. Enjoy yourself!!  Eat light though. Soup or a light pasta dish. Nothing thick saucy and heavy.

Once the kids are its Dad you can just lay down and veg for the next 2 days. Then you will be in your way. No going back. No starting over.

[kgn1212]

Yes I am not a fan of how it affects me but does help me get to sleep. I just wanted to make sure it wont set me back with my detox because obviously I want this over asap

[Junip]

If you take Valium, should be very low dose.  I take 2mg at night.  I have been prescribed it for years and have never abused it...guess it is not my thing ;-).  In all honesty, I have suffered from anxiety and panic disorder (I get panick attacks out of the blue, usually when I am completely relaxed) since my mid 20's, as have my dad and brother. We are all Type A overacheiver professionals that work in financial services.  Ironically, that same brother has battles opiate addiction.  In any case, if you know you can SAFELY take the Valium it could help, especially at night.

[Sonrissa]

Well, a couple of things.  Are you prescribed the Valium?  Have you been taking it regularly?  Valium is addictive, and difficult to withdrawal from.  Personally, I would try some natural remedies first. Something like herbal tea like Sleepy Time. A supplement like Alteril or Melatonin.  I guess the Valium may be Ok for very short term use to help with anxiety and sleep. Be very careful with it.  Lots of people have successfully detoxed without the use of something like Valium. You can do it, I did.  Just some things to think about.

[kgn1212]

Valuim is.ok to take for sleep right?

[Sonrissa]

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[kgn1212]

Wow thank you. I have to pull it together in an hour to go to dinner with my family for my brothers bday. Getting out of the house might just be what I need. I just hope.i dont break down. Im new to this site so im not sure how to message you in private. I really hope that half of a tramadol didnt mess up anything with my detox. I just cant wait til monday because that will be day 5 on monday night. Plus I go back to work tuesday so I need to feel better by then.

[Junip]

Hi, you are doing GREAT, please hang in there!  Taking anything at this point will just set you back and prolong your withdrawals.  I, too, am detoxing now from OxyCotin and Percocet.  I know exactly what you are feeling and it is awful!  I would take pain and anxiety over the skin crawling, burning and cold sweats.  BUT, it will get better VERY soon and will be worth it. Hot baths with Epsom salt really help!  I also picked up a bunch of supplements and vitamins and hope they help. I do not, by nature,  drink a lot during the day but I bought Gatorade and am forcing myself to choke it down.  I work full time as a financial services professional and am mom to 5 year old twin boys, so I know how difficult it is to go through this and take care of everything else. My husband is disabled (hence my ready access to pills) so a lot falls on me. I used for all the same reasons you did. I keep looking at my beautiful boys and that helps motivate me. We do not want our kids to lose a parent to addiction like you did.  Please hang in and feel free to message me. I will gladly give you my cell and we can text.  Something to do during the night :-).  You can do it! We are all here to support you.

JJ