hi im rob and im 33 and im an addict

[rob254]

hey guys i am an addict of the life f#*king drug ocycodyne i start with 5ml endone bout 3 yrs ago now i am on 5 and a half 80 ml oxy twice a day am i to far gone i tried to go cold turkey bout the stage of about 5  20s 2 to3 times a day two days i lasted it was utter hell i could not handle the not sleeping part and the leg jerking but know today i did not have a choice i ran out yesterday it has been living hell since i got up at 330 am and i am not looking foward for  tonight any ideas on how can i get to sleep look i first come on here to see if there was any one selling oxy then i realised how much of a looser i am for do so then i seen some people in the same boat as me and said lets join up here i read 1 story that every min feels like 5hrs well it so true

[rob254]

love your ending comment its so true

[rob254]

cheers

[rob254]

cheers mate

[rob254]

cheers

[rob254]

cheers mate

[rob254]

wat cvs? sorry,thanks for ideas

[neveragainplease]

Keep going, Rob! You can do this..in fact you already are. I hope you're taking people's advice on here. More than one of us will tell you to listen to us. Also, keep reading on here, and if you need to, find similar stuff online

[rob254]

cheers

[neveragainplease]

There are some people on here who's partner is a member too, just so they can see what it's like for all of us
It gives a fuller picture. Your wife is welcome to join us and she isn't required to post. Lurking is totally allowed! Not everyone speaks, addict or not. If you feel comfortable, invite her
Best wishes...you'll pull through successfully!

[rob254]

thankyou

[rob254]

my wife has already sad she is scared of losing me i say its ok honey i am tapering down my meds and then it becomes a couple months later and dshe say y hav u not got of it yet.

[rob254]

hey i have not got one wink of sleep it ***** i tried the bath thing 3 times it def help by making me feel better but then did not get to sleep

[neveragainplease]

Rob, you can do this. Either at home or in hospital, you can do this. We're here for you.

[cbrenner]

Listen to what they are telling you. It helped me, really. I wanted it though. Do you? I've got 12 days off Opana and the oxy cut down to 25 mg per 24 hours. Ask these people even the tiniest problem and someone has been there and conquered that! But again, I wanted it more than anything and I am a VERY determined Grandma! You can do this, you can and it will not kill you. Drugs CAN kill you. Your choice. Blessings.

[Back2Me]

You can get through this man it's just a few days. Try this trick. Forget about sleeping. Just don't worry about it. I did not sleep more than 20 minutes total in a six day span cold turkey off of heroin. I finally just accepted it and got sleep when my body would give out not would only be for like 1 to 3 minutes but it was something. Then slowly sleep returns little by little. I am using Tylenol pm and sometimes clonipin. But you can do it man. It's gonna be brutal the first few days but I'm not some superhero and if I can do it anyone can. Post on here if it helps. If you just stick with it and tell yourself you don't have a choice then the choice is easy at least. You know what you have to do. I also have anoher one on the way. I found out the exact day i decided to quit! Just hours after the first 24 hours so maybe it was meant to be. I think so. Sounds like you are in the same boat!

[nbhope]

Hard road but you can do this!! The above ***** is what I did to easy my pain and restless legs... I used sleep aids to help me sleep. I an taking l-tyronsine (sp) it has magnesium in it and it helps so much!! I am using this daily now and it has helped my pain that I had and the reason I got on pills!I think what helped me was mentally preparing myself for what I was going through and each day and hour I got through I knee I was that much closer to being better! This sight was/is a life saver too.. all are in your shoes or been there!! Keep us posted! Here for you :)

[jethro733]

Hey Rob.  

Get off the train for your wife and baby bro.  It will only end in a wreck, and a slow painful one at that with all of you as casualties.  The pills are dirty little liars, don't listen to their whispers.  They tell you things will be great and super-do-duper, but really they won't.

As well as what has been reccomended get some pro-biotics, having an appetite makes things much easier.  Be strong for your loved ones, in a few days you will be able to feel again and you'll know it was worth it.  Look at your eyes in the mirror too, though you feel like crap I'd bet your eyes are clearer.

Keep the faith, life is good.

[clean_in_ks]

Good post....TiredinTempe!!!!

[TiredinTempe]

If your ready and done with the pills read as many posts as you can. This will help the withdraws.
Get some vitamin water zero revive flavor and get some carnation instant breakfast and some bananas. Also pickup some magnesium at any drug store along with melatonin. Also grab a big bag of Epsom salt. Do the drinks thru out the day and a banana everyday..potassium. At bedtime take 1000 mg of magnesium and two melatonin pills. Get some sleepy time tea that is sold at the grocery store and sip on that before bed. Then take a hot bath with the Epsom salt. You will sleep for sure. Also get out twice a day and take a short walk even if just down the street. If you smoke or drink caffeine products don't do any of them six hours before bed. I did this the last time and wd's were very minimal. Good luck..you CAN do this Buddy!

[4181steph]

Hello,
I know what you are going through, been through it numerous times in jail while I was on heroin. I don't know about pain pills, but WD's from heroin are horrific! The good news is you cannot die from opiate WD, although you may feel like you are. Did you say you and your wife are expecting a baby?? CONGRATULATIONS!! Maybe this is God's way of intervention....
Do what OpenMind24Hours said about the Epsom salt hot baths that will help with the restless legs and body aches. PLEASE don't look for any pills, you will just prolong the inevitable, and trust me this will end you cannot continue to live like this.you deserve better!!

Stephanie

[overeasy]

would u consider going to the ER.  they may be able to offer u some detox meds.  please keep an eye on your blood pressure.  that's a very high dose and i worry that your blood pressure may skyrocket.  you're in my thoughts and prayers.  you can do this and we are here when u need us :)

overseas

[OpenMind24hours]

Hi Rob, you can do this. I've seen people in much worse condition do it, so you can too. you wouldn't be on here if you didn't want to get clean, so I see the willingness you have. Nighthawk has a good idea for you with the inpatient detox. As for sleep, not too much can be done right now with the restlessness. That kept me awake even if I was able to sleep otherwise. But get in a tub of water as hot as you can stand, and sit for a while. Also use Epsome Salts for the bath and magnesium pills, avail at CVS. While at CVS (or where ever) pick up Hyland's Restless Legs, Hyland's Calms forte and Alteril sleep medication. If you wait out the restlessness, those items will help you finally get some sleep. I think for now the bath might slow down the RLS and you could get an hour or two of sleep. I would dose off in my chair every now and then during the bad stuff. I sure hope you don't need to go to work during this. Keep up with the willingness to quit and you WILL quit.

[rob254]

it was because the bottom and wife preggers aagain

[Nighthawk61]

Hey Rob, are you making a commitment to quit? What are your reasons? Have you bottomed out? You used after 2 days, if you had of held on for another couple of days you would have made it. It sounds like you could use inpatient detox to get you through the detox stage, and then the work begins. It won't be easy, but it's worth it. I've got 14 years now. Life is great, and free.