hydrocodone/methadone

[mr brightside]

Hello all,

methadone/hydrocodone has almost destroyed me!! Could anyone please reply to my message just to let me know i'm not the only one feeling these....er, feelings.

NO doubt there are people out there who have gone through alot worse than me... but nevertheless, its still hard to endure.

10 days free of it now.... (13/09/07 was the last dose)

Say i took a small 10 dose at 9pm, go to bed for 11pm, by 1am i would be wide awake sweating, dizzy and feel like pukin my guts up... along with a headache above the eyes that can only be described as exruciating!!

IS this just me or does anyone suffer these horrible effects so quickly after a dose??

Its been 10 days and i still feel like ****! Aches and pains, paranoia, dizzy spells, headaches, insomnia, irritabilty, cloudy head, nightmares, depression, sometimes i feel like i'm going crazy and forget who i ******* am!!

Dont know how much more i can take of this ****, how long am i going to have to wake just to feel normal again????

some advice and other peoples storys/syptoms would help

thanx

[justlikeyou]

if you do quit everything, you have the rest of your life to look forward too.

if you dont quit.......

do it.

[mr brightside]

i dunno about anyone else... but i'm fed up of kicking one drug just to go and replace it with another!!
last night i knocked back a couple of valium just to put me out my misery for a few hours, only thing is..... i'm afraid to go to bed without them again tonight! plus they hardly work when w/d is causing your body to unconciuosly squel, losing a pint of fluid every hour!!

But i haven't felt too bad today, just the mind playing tricks on me as usaul, jumpy and disorientated. Then tomorrow i will probably find it hard just to make it to the bathroom in time, but thats just how the withdrawal pattern plays.
Just when you think your getting somewhere, it knocks you back down again. I'm starting to feel like Warren Fellows (he was a heroin trafficer who done 12 years in thailands hardest prisons... the books called Damage Done... well worth a read by the way)  

Anyway, i'm off to bed where i will stare at my bedroom ceiling for a few hours and all i will think about is the regrets i have and the people i've hurt along the way.... ahhh... the joys of cold turkey!!!

thanks for listening to my rambling!!!

[punamermaid]

i took 2mgs suboxone yesterday and it really helped take the edge off (this is day 7 off H for me) this morning i feel tired - not sleeping well despite 100mgs of trazodone i've been taking.  i have tried suboxone before (i bought a bottle off the street) and wasn't that happy with it - i think because i still had methodone/H in my system when i took it - wait until you are in full fledged w/d (like you are) - that's when it works best.  perhaps i won't go to my methodone clinic intake tommorrow.  i do feel better.  mr bright you might need to get something to ake the edge off from a dr.  better than going back.  you cannot go feeling terrible everyday - too tempting to go back to your old stuff to feel better.  hey - if i can do it you can too

[tammyk_40]

I would like to throw my 2 cents in this one. I unfortunately went to jail on 90 mgs liquid methadone a day for a year. After 10 days I could eat. I actually had an appetite, but none before the 10 days. About 30 days in there, I was able to work, I made myself work. I still couldnt sleep at this point like I wanted to. I was in there for 68 days to be exact.  When I got out I went straight to a 6 month live-in rehab. I pretty much felt normal by now. I worked on myself for 2 more months and then was allowed to work. I got a full time job and had the same energy I had when I was on the methadone. All in all, I stayed clean for 15 months. Mainly because I wanted to feel that high again. I just wanted people to know it takes about 2 months to feel better, maybe less for some people if you're taking methadone.

[angel47630]

You have come so far, I would suggest calling several detox centers and see what they suggest and if they can offer in house or at home sub treatment.    In the pamphlets I have they all suggest that sub be used to end the nightmare of methadone.    I know hydro is hell ( that is what I am coming off of................I have tapered down from 20 a day to 2 ).............According to the things I have read in these pamphelts, methadone is a whole other ball game so I don't even pretend to know what you are going through.

Call around and see what kind of help is in your area.     If the sub can help you get off the methadone...............perhaps you can go that route and then ween off the sub under a dr's supervision?

Blessings to you,
Karen

[mr brightside]

Thanks for your comments.... it does help, might have to try suboxone... if i carry on feeling like im gonna completly freak out all the time i dont think i'll have a choice.

[punamermaid]

yes i love and hate them for it at different moments of the day.  i took 2mgs of suboxone about an hour ago, it feel a little bit better.  hmmmm.  that's the first chemical in 6 days.  at least it took the edge off - not feeling so suicidal.

[No name22]

GOOD you're lucky to have them in your life

You should really check into it there is a girl here bettie that went in for pills and liqure and it saved her

[punamermaid]

i don't know.......i have been thinking about inpatient rehab.  seems a bit scary.....i haven't relapsed because my friends/boyfriend have basically kept me sequestered for the past week.  no car keys/cell phone.  i probably would have gone back by now.

[No name22]

Can you go into a inpatient rehab, It kinda sounds like you really need help since it's been so long and you still feel like sh** at least you didn't relaps that says alot! But maybe you can talk to you're physicain and they can help

[punamermaid]

i can only get sub on the street - cause of where i live - i've tried it and i wasn't thrilled - didn't feel right on it.  i really don't want methodone either, but am worried if i don't feel better soon.

[No name22]

Instead of methadone try looking up suboxone.com waay better and you wont be on it for life

[justlikeyou]

im about 150 days clean, i had everything you describe, it gets a little better every day.but it was the hardest thing ive ever done. hot baths help a lot.

i have my life back now, im very glad i stuck with it.

same kinda drugs as you, methadone also.

[punamermaid]

i am on my 6th day of heroin w/d and am experiencing all/everything you mention.  i made an appointment for monday am for methodone cause i don't know if i can deal much longer.