i want to be healthy again-drug free, how?

[anaisnin33]

I have been wanting this for so long! i have been very depressed for the past 6 yrs, much had to do with my abusive ex, and stress of being single mom to 3 hard to handle children(they have some med cond that take much attention and time), going to school ft(i do have a degree now and working on MA, almst done). I hope to enter the workforce this fall as i will be finished my school. however these past years I turned to drugs n heavy alchol n smoking. My dr put me on antidepressants, many kinds, all most didnt work for me, finally the combo of celexa (40mg), wellbutrin -highest dose possible, doesnt say on the pill though, i just told i cant go any higher, and clonazepam and zopiclone for sleeping is my current combo and has been for a bout 6 yrs - minus the experimenting in the beginning. i was still so misreble, dr added a thyroid drug called cytomel to jumpstart my meds, it seemed to work a bit. however i had also already started on the percocets(not dr prescribed) as they seemed like my miracle antidepressant, i had energy to clean house, do wonderful things with kids, do great school work, it seemed perfect!until i needed more n more, broke, addicted, no good affects anymore, just on them to keep from the worst withdrawals i ever felt. i did try over n over for a year to go cold turkey on the percs, as i did manage to quit the alcohol n other occasional drugs i was taking when i didnt have oxy based drugs, i also turned into a very heavy smoker. so i went to dr and i was put on methadone, it took away all w/d for percs n oxyz, i startd 3 wks ago, at 30 dose, n went up to 50 dose, as i  would wd the next day, but at the 50 dose(1 wk) i have no w/d. so i been clean from booze n other drugs 3 mths, percs oxy 3 wks-but on methadone, cigs 1 and half weeks but on nicorette. I feel better, way better, except i find myself tired, i dont need the zopiclone or clonazepam either since the methadone, except i am maybe too sleepy, i go to bed early bc i am so tired. i have also been having severe constipation probs. i have been hearing all this negative advice on my being on methadone, its like i should have just stayed the way i was. i couldnt stop any other way, i dont intend to be on methadone for long, i have been on 3 wks, i was thinking like 8 wks, i m not going over the 50 mg dose at all, i plan to start tapperring off at week 6, so i could go off gradually. what do you all think of my plan? i also want to stop all the anitdepresseants, they dont help me anyway, i have tried stopping those befroe and they made me feel really crazy, angry-weird feeling,etc. so i know i have to taper off those as well. is methadone that bad?

[anaisnin33]

thanks, i am not sure why, maybe they dont have it here? i have never heard of it, there are only a few drs here that presdcribe methadone. i live in canada.

[jamajessie]

The methadone has got to be better than all the stuff you were taking before so you are probably better off now taking the methadone.  You need to get off the methadone as soon as your able to. If you thought the oxy wd's were bad methadone is 10 times worse and 3 times as long.

I'm wondering why your Dr didn't suggest suboxone? You could have used it short term and had minimal if any wd symptoms.