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i want to get clean
i have been on a four year run, with these evil pills, and im ready to quit. i cant do this anymore. i have been through so much, ive lost everyting, to these pills, and i have to quit. i have been taking about 100-120mil per day of oxy. please somebody tell me i can do this and go to work. no time off for abot 2 weeks. but i need to be done with this. I have been batteling suicide lately, just feeling like life is not worth living but my kids need me. please somebody tell me i can do this and work.
I haven't been on here, in a while dealing with my issues, with my family my mom is very ill. Well im at this point where im ready to free myself, I have the next 4 days off. I can no longer depend on my mom to help me, she is ill. I have to get clean. Its now or never. Please continue to pray for me this will be hard but Im going to take it one day at a time..
I can only speak from my own experience. The only thing that got me through the first few days was music. I'd listen for an hour and maybe 10 minutes things would seem better. Each day those 10 minutes increased. When I started working out with music on day 10 or so, things started changing for the better, and fast. Everyone is different and I'm most worried about the first few days. Anything you need to know, feel free to ask! You can do this!!!
Hey Got
Im right here with you, sick, yes, but your gonna make this journey, we are all. Im praying for you, and just know your life is worth getting clean. Your gonna feel wonderfully different when this is over. You have wonderful support here. Keep fighting, the good fight.
God bless,
chig
Im right here with you, sick, yes, but your gonna make this journey, we are all. Im praying for you, and just know your life is worth getting clean. Your gonna feel wonderfully different when this is over. You have wonderful support here. Keep fighting, the good fight.
God bless,
chig
You are in the worst of it right now hang tight you will get threw this! I know you feel like you want to die but make sure you drink lots of clear fluids and eat even if its only crackers! Stay on here if you need to that is what I did for the first few days, its h#$% ! you need to stay positive and if you can get fresh air that will help! Here for you!
Today was hard I was sweating yet cold, I feel sick. Im going thru some serious heartbreak right now. No support, just a broken heart. And a little voice in my head telling me to get clean.
Hi....wellI have been where your at several times so I know how you feel and the fear that comes with it....try not to read anything into it it is always worst in our heads then it turns out to be.....this is 1/3 phyical and 2/3 mental be ready to fight it out on both fronts ...the best thing you can bring to the table is a positive attitude that will get you farther then any thing else...time to stock up on a case of gatoraid some simple meals imodium and otc pain meds...camimamle tea when it gets bad try a hot soak in the tub this helps with the mussel aches anxzity and restless legs it is also a great help for relaxing to sleep...sleep is almost impossible wile doing this rent a bunch of movies to keep you bizzy wile you up all night....GET RID OFF ALL PILLS IN THE HOUSE B/4 YOU BEGIN no safty nets beyond that you just got to go threw it will be here for you I have said this a million times ''but you just got to be ok without being ok for a wile'' this should be your mantra for the next few days this to shale pass keep posting for support we all want to see you make it......Gnarly
You will get threw threw this one minute, one hour, one day at a time! Think positive and drink lots of clear fluids! We are routing for you and are here for you so post when you feel weak it will help!
What I decided to do is jump, cold turkey. Im off the weekend. So the worse will be sat and Sunday. I feel so overwhelmed right now. I buy off the street. My life is I. Turmoil right now. Anxiety is at an all time high.hopefully I will get through it.
I'm there with you. Not coming off the oxy but I have had that experience before. I would take about 120 mgs a day. I got on subs but now I'm detoxing from those. Its my second day. I've been through those times where I felt it would be easier if I just wasn't in this world anymore. But just because we have this disease doesn't mean we dont have a hell of a lot to offer the world. Think... When you're clean, what if you can help someone out of the darkest place in their life? Im in the dark place. But these people on here genuinely want to help. Lets do it. We're strong and deserve a beautiful, clean life!
Hey there. We know it can be very overwhelming bringing yourself off substances. But you're doing great so far. As long as there is a will there will always be a way. Tell us how you're doing. Keep us updating. We will walk you through as much as you want or will let us. It's tough, no lie about that. You know it's your life we are talking about. You don't want to wake up one day and look around and wonder where did your life go. So make a fist and tell yourself. I Can Do It! because You Can! ...ike
make sure you get Imodium for the tummy issues you will need it! Also drink a ton of fluids, Gatorade, water etc. Make sure you have some aleve or advil for any pain issues. If you are taking the pills for pain this will diminish the longer you are off the meds. I have found that we create more pain when on pain meds than off. you can do this and we are here for you!
ThankU so much, yes were going to take it one day at a time. I. Not going to lie im scared about tomorrow. But ready to take my life back
Honey:
Do you take the pills for pain? Where do you get them from? You need to cut off all sources if you're buying them from the street or a friend.
100-120 mgs a day of oxy is going to be rough to go thru cold turkey. I would strongly urge you to call your doctor and tell them what is going on. No shame, no judgment; we are talking about your precious LIFE.
The suicidal stuff makes me very nervous, sweetie. You have children...if you end your life, they will NEVER NEVER NEVER be over it. Trust me on this one. It is a legacy of pain you will leave them with for LIFE.
We have all had dependencies to opiates or benzos or whatever on here. You are not alone, you CAN do this, but I would feel better if you talked to your doctor about a tapering schedule.
The list of symptoms you're going to have are not going to be pleasant, but they are not life threatening, IF you are in general good health. I'm not a doctor; I don't know anything about you, so please don't take what I'm saying as expert advice...it isn't. You may have awful diarrhea, and that can be difficult to handle at a job. Read through the stories here...read through mine, so you know what to expect. Again, I strongly recommend you talk to a doctor and tell them what is going on so you can be medically supervised.
You say you cannot take time off of work...do you have NO sick time? Could you take a Friday off and do a 3 day detox?
Hold old are you?
Do you take the pills for pain? Where do you get them from? You need to cut off all sources if you're buying them from the street or a friend.
100-120 mgs a day of oxy is going to be rough to go thru cold turkey. I would strongly urge you to call your doctor and tell them what is going on. No shame, no judgment; we are talking about your precious LIFE.
The suicidal stuff makes me very nervous, sweetie. You have children...if you end your life, they will NEVER NEVER NEVER be over it. Trust me on this one. It is a legacy of pain you will leave them with for LIFE.
We have all had dependencies to opiates or benzos or whatever on here. You are not alone, you CAN do this, but I would feel better if you talked to your doctor about a tapering schedule.
The list of symptoms you're going to have are not going to be pleasant, but they are not life threatening, IF you are in general good health. I'm not a doctor; I don't know anything about you, so please don't take what I'm saying as expert advice...it isn't. You may have awful diarrhea, and that can be difficult to handle at a job. Read through the stories here...read through mine, so you know what to expect. Again, I strongly recommend you talk to a doctor and tell them what is going on so you can be medically supervised.
You say you cannot take time off of work...do you have NO sick time? Could you take a Friday off and do a 3 day detox?
Hold old are you?
ThankU so much, yes were going to take it one day at a time. I. Not going to lie im scared about tomorrow. But ready to take my life back
You can do it....it's tough but let's just overcome these killing money machines, Demon Pills, etc. I mean it is hard I'm not going to lie but it does get better after a week after that it's all in you're head just like anyone else.
I know the pills are what is bringing on the suicidal thoughts.. they have definitely turned on me. I. At work now, just ready to do this, well tomorrow officially stArt my first day. Im scared but ready.
I know the pills are what is bringing on the suicidal thoughts.. they have definitely turned on me. I. At work now, just ready to do this, well tomorrow officially stArt my first day. Im scared but ready.
Here for you to buddy, also I was in the Hospital due to Sucidal thoughts and tried but I know that was just these Pills and WE will overcome it and it's playing with our minds, lifes, money, etc. Let's do this all together!
you can do this! ppl do it every day. life is soooo much better off pills!
Do Not think any thought about Suicide!, I think the thought can get in your head and a person can act upon it at some point, even when they dont think they actually will, you see i just lost my 24 year old son to suicide, he was very drunk, i know he didn't actually mean to go it , but it was the thought in his head he acted out while in a black out.
so if you keep having the thought talk it out with anyone, call the suicide line or go to hospital, suicide is a very selfish act , the ppl who love you are affected greatly!
This dis-ease is a very selfish thing to and it will kill one way or another, first things first, -Detox and w/d, focus on that , not your worries about job etc, i mean what good is the job if you lose it anyway do to the dis-ease, because at some point the job will not be your priority , getting pills to not be sick will, so once your thru acute w/d, the next step but first get the pills out of your system, at any cost, thats the only priority, after that things can and will fall into place, you have to muster some Faith.
while detoxing go thru this site and search what helps for easing w/d, there is alot of info, usually consists of lots of hot baths, attitude , supplements , things to try to eat at first and not to etc, all the info is in this forum, and searching will eat up time and that is what you want because all it takes to get back to feeling good is time, and chances are the suicide thought will go away when the pills are out of system , i know it did for me, you CAN do this!, if you need specific info and want help i am willing just message me... Trev
Do Not think any thought about Suicide!, I think the thought can get in your head and a person can act upon it at some point, even when they dont think they actually will, you see i just lost my 24 year old son to suicide, he was very drunk, i know he didn't actually mean to go it , but it was the thought in his head he acted out while in a black out.
so if you keep having the thought talk it out with anyone, call the suicide line or go to hospital, suicide is a very selfish act , the ppl who love you are affected greatly!
This dis-ease is a very selfish thing to and it will kill one way or another, first things first, -Detox and w/d, focus on that , not your worries about job etc, i mean what good is the job if you lose it anyway do to the dis-ease, because at some point the job will not be your priority , getting pills to not be sick will, so once your thru acute w/d, the next step but first get the pills out of your system, at any cost, thats the only priority, after that things can and will fall into place, you have to muster some Faith.
while detoxing go thru this site and search what helps for easing w/d, there is alot of info, usually consists of lots of hot baths, attitude , supplements , things to try to eat at first and not to etc, all the info is in this forum, and searching will eat up time and that is what you want because all it takes to get back to feeling good is time, and chances are the suicide thought will go away when the pills are out of system , i know it did for me, you CAN do this!, if you need specific info and want help i am willing just message me... Trev
Welcome! You have taken the first step to getting clean!
We have all been in your shoes one way or another!
The first few days will be like having the flu really bad. I will be honest I do not work but have read about people working and doing this at the same time. Look up the Thomas Recipe and get all the over the counter stuff they recommend. I was almost 2 years clean when I had an accident but now I am 6 days CT and feeling better every day.
Stay on this site and you will get a lot of help and vent when you need to someone will be there to help you! I wish you the best and having a positive mind that you can do this helps so much!
We have all been in your shoes one way or another!
The first few days will be like having the flu really bad. I will be honest I do not work but have read about people working and doing this at the same time. Look up the Thomas Recipe and get all the over the counter stuff they recommend. I was almost 2 years clean when I had an accident but now I am 6 days CT and feeling better every day.
Stay on this site and you will get a lot of help and vent when you need to someone will be there to help you! I wish you the best and having a positive mind that you can do this helps so much!
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