don't be so hard on yourself that was just a small bump as addicts we are not perfect just think next time and make better choices .. best wishes
I do consider that a relapse. You did it to get high. It happens because our brains just scream sometimes! I don't think you want to do that again, right?
What's different, though, is that gabapentin is not an opiate. That's good. What were you addicted to?
It takes work to prevent a relapse. Are you involved in a group there where you all talk and share feelings and ideas? Do you attend AA?
Keep posting and congrats on your clean time!
Hello & Welcome to our Substance Abuse Community.
We have a lot of ppl in this community and some just started this journey and others have many, many yrs in. Most of the advice we share on here is the same, but we also have our own opinions. This questions is a Yes & No one for me. The thing that makes it a "Yes" is the way you went about it. You said you had Boredom and wanted to get "High"..What if there were other drugs around your house?? Or your drug of choice? Would you have taken some?? The "No" for me is that you made a mistake or had a small moment of triggers, but you did not get high or keep on doing it. And that you did not go around looking for some. SO Yes & No, but I would not go on a quilt trip and think about it. Put those boots on and tie up those laces and go forward. These Boots are made for walking, however we need to walk with others along the way. There are many reasons why ppl will fall down and hurt themselves. One is being Lonely, Bored, Stress, Drama, or Life in it's self. This is "WHY" we need others to Support us. If you would of had a sponsor or a clean friend and called them, then you might of not done this at that moment..This is why we tell ppl to always "Keep there Guard Up at all times". Life will always have some curve balls, that are thrown at us, so we need to be ready with all of the Support we can get.
It is not so much about your Clean Time but more about your Recovery!!!
It is up to you and only you if you feel it was a relapse & many ppl will say yes. I might not say yes or take my time back..but others will not feel the same. It is all up to you and how YOU feel about it..However??? Are you getting any outside Support? Going to any meetings like AA/NA or Celebrate Recovery?? Do you have clean friends or a addiction counselor or even a pastor?? I would think you would if you are living at a Sober Living Housing. YOU are in a Safe place right now. What will happen when YOU are free to move on? Tons of Changes have to happen. Staying away from your old playmates and playground is a important issues here. Setting up Boundaries around our New World is a Must!!! I am not sure if you will get kicked out for sharing this mistake. Maybe they will give you another chance. It all starts in the Mind!!! Addiction is a serious Disease and like all disease we need Help & Support. Learn all you can about Addiction in a more Scientific way. I am going on 4yrs and have used off & on for most of my life, until the later 90s when I got really hooked for many, many yrs. It is a Progressive Disease for sure. I had to start out with the Meetings and Church and I still go). I studied all I could in a more Scientific way and now know what happens to the Brain Chemistry. That had sort of scared me straight too. Giving it to my God has been the Biggest Gift of all, besides my Hub & some Family members I still have left on this earth. SO..Just pick yourself back up and move forward..NO looking back. Make sure YOU set yourself up with Support all around you. Every single day is a New day. Just for Today or this Hour I will NOT use! It takes Work and only You can do the Foot Work.
I wish you the best!!
The thing is I had just gotten through 2 weeks of huge triggers. I got in a relationship with a girl at my rehab and she relapsed. I was so close to using but I didn't and felt so proud. And then she got back into detox Friday night and everything was going fine and I did it out of fkn boredom like an idiot. My sponsor said it was a relapse because regardless of if I got high I wanted to and tried to by taking more than prescribed amount of my pills..... I feel horrible having to restart my clean date. This is my first time in recovery and at 3 months I was sure I was gonna get this the first time. So many people around me were relapsing and I some how was staying clean... I felt so proud and then threw it away for nothing
Hi......well any time your trying to get high and take something to try and get you high is a relapse .....try not to beat yourself up over it it is what it is but you havent lost the war as long as your willing to keep fighting....time to bump up the meetings...N/a has a chapter in it blue text on relapse take the time to read it work on putting together a support system get phone numbers wile you at the meetings and reach out b/4 you screw up.....the only way to do this wrong is to try to do it alone.....recovery is a ''we'' thing not a ''I'' thing so keep posting for support where all here to help