just writing

[micamfa]

hi forum

i'm writing because i am an addict and i'm afraid i may die.  my affliction/addiction is pills, of all sorts.  it started 4 years ago with 6 surgeries for severe endometriosis.  

last year my grad program wrote a letter suggesting immediate medical leave to get a grip on my drug problem.  the school help my position and i went to rehab (first rehab, 3rd detox).  i spent the year in programs, inpatient, partial hospital, then iop and meetings.  i was getting stronger.  

time went by fast however and grad school was calling.  i went back to finish.  i did finish, thank God!  but along the way the problem got worse.  my vicodin, percocet issue turned into a morphine problem.  isn't it the **** that i just happened to meet someone who had a script for it?  ugh.

now, i've graduated and am trying to start a life in preparation for teaching.  the only problem is this drug one and it's big (of course).   i just feel ill all the time now, so i take another pill thinking it's withdrawal....then i feel awful and think it's too many pills.  you see the vicious cycle.  ah, i want to stop this thing.

thanks for reading.
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[mom2rachie]

Hi there.  Read some posts. We all suffered through that cycle.  Some got clean, others are still in it.  
I too suffer from SEVRE endometriosis.  It's agonizing.... My pill habot got up to 20 10mg percs a day and now I'm on day 4 of Subutex.  I suggest looking into it  But I alsop suggest using it to detox and getting ff of it rather quickly because that canbe a whole other headache...
We're hear for you.  Stay........  

[lonote]

Its a tangled web we weave but it can be done. I. myself am taking suboxone.
It gets rid of the wd's and blocks other opiates from getting me high.So they don't work, and I quit chasing after them. There are alot of nice ppl out here,some sturggling, some over that hurdle, any many different ways of kicking the habit. Welcome.                    Cathy