karma?

[akitagurl12]

Out of the blue My EX dealer just asked me how I got off the vicodin....  looks like he is struggling now with his own issues.  

[Bearclaw2]

To deepen Karma, offer to sell him the info?

[akitagurl12]

if he didnt play such a huge role in me almost completely destroying myself, i would share what i have learned so far.  But i am nowhere wanting to help him.  And i feel horrible for saying that, but another thought that came to me was what if he was testing me to see if i would ask for some.  I know his bank account took a dive for the worst once i got sober.  

[waterLilly7]

I know how you feel, and belive me, I know anger and I know karma, but...

be the better person sweetie, if he is using himself then his life has alos been in a spiral, and just like people do terrible things for the drug, cheat lie steal, well so did he.

Do God's work and reach out to him, give him advise, embrace him with love, and the anger will subside.

your helping him may even touch other lives in good ways, other lives of people you don't even know, but coul dsure use your good heart.

don't let him suck you in!!!!!!  but do help him, do reach out, it's easy not to, it takes much more strength to do God's work, forgive, and lend a hand to a fellow human who is in as much pain as we are.

hugs,
Lily

[akitagurl12]

thank you, i thought about that too.  I am still not sure why he asked me but maybe I will ask him about it in a few days after I am sure it wasn't because he was trying to get me to buy some.  I still dont trust him or even like him for that matter, but you are right. Maybe I can offer some support or at least some suggestions.  But man, it's gonna require some major forgiveness on my part. lol

[waterLilly7]

LOL, you can do it, but yeah, be super careful that he is not playing you, I think you will be, you sound like a smart cookie.

Blessings and hugs,
Lily

[staticage]

Tell him the truth..You had to dig deep into your soul and go through  a little hell..But you did it...I promise that alone will make him be like DAMN..I wish I could do that..

[Free2agoodhome]

Tell him "hey the price went up I gotta make a profit u know"  ( joke)

Seriously though......just share your experience, strength and hope.... thats it.

And you have just found one of the best ways of staying happily sober.

nice   ;-)



Free~

[wannabedone38]

Your so right!! Maybe just give him this website and send him on his way.

[akitagurl12]

i did consider telling him & someone else about this website, but i dont know.  For starters I would have to change my username because i would be worried they would know it was me because they both know how in love i am with my dog...who happens to be an akita.  And secondly, I have talked so much smack about him on here throughout these last 3-4 months, it would really make going to work uncomfortable if he should ever read it.  Maybe I am being paranoid, but this website has been a life saver & a safe haven for me when the world and my life gets too crazy. I just dont want to start letting them into it.  Now if they stumble upon it on their own, then i think that is different.  Best thing i can do is just let god handle him & the rest of the addicts in my life.  Ooooh, the webs we weave.....lol

[Dane74]

You have come so far, and the most important thing you have to do is look at for yourself, you are the number one priority!!!!  Do not do anything that you think can possibley jeopardize you.  Your sobriety is the most important and if that means to be selfish than heck yeah be selfish!!!!!  Proud of you

[dominosarah]

Take care of you.  Trying to help an ex dealer right now may be disastrous.

[weaver71]

Ha! My dealer came and asked me how I got off the methadone yesterday. He also had a deep income loss when his #1 costumer bailed out. He is in jeopardy. I know this. He is as sick and confused, self-centered and self destructive as me. I shared my experience, strength, and hope. I gave him a doctors name and explained how my life is getting a little better each day. My humility must remind me that I too mad many mistakes I regret.Just like me, he has to want it and search for what he needs to get clean. If he goes to any means, he will end up on this forum or another. Either way, I'm not inviting him to get closer to me or my program. When sober, I believe that addicts are some of the most amazing people on the planet. Smart, capable, caring, and generally tolerant. I hope my dealer finds his own path, because he can't take mine. Just wanted to share.