life after vicodin

[bmwsmommy]

I've been taking vicodin for a long time...at first, I'd take it occasionally, but as it always does, it turned into an evil addiction. I have 3 month old baby boy, and since he was born, it has gotten worse. I've noticed my 1-2 a day has quickly turned into a 7-8 a day.. My Dr. has made it very easy to get them...I know it will only get worse in time, and 7-8 a day could easily become 10-15 a day etc.. I want to live a normal life without drugs, but I just have a negative attitude about it.. The pills give me energy and motivation..Without them, I feel like a blob.. This is day 2 without them...I need some words of wisdom, please...

[cominginoutofthedark]

Its been 1 1/2 months I am off of Hydrocordone..I was on it for almost 2 years and my doctor cut me off ...I had no choice but to stop cold turkey, yes the first two weeks were the hardest..especially at night...isomnia sets in..but then one day you wake up and you feel good, engergized, and smile..it doesnt hurt to smile anymore..you find yourself not climbing into bed at 2 pm..wishing, begging for sleep to happen so u can get to another day away from hydrocordone..you suddenly dont feel like gloom..you  start cleaning your house which has been neglected..and actually smiling and playing with your children again..i started walking after work 2 miles everyday..then one day i get a call from a friend who has a pill bottle of hydrocordone..and i said "NO" i asked her not to call me ever again to see if i wanted them..I never want to go thru that dark bad place again,,it hurts way to much to go back..i finally sleep well at night..dont get me wrong the craving sometimes creeps up..but i push it away by exercising or calling a friend ..its always going to try and creep up..its always gonna be a fight..but i have made it this far and plan to distance myself even farther.God Bless to everyone who is making that first step..there is hope.

[Bkitty]

Ive only been sober 4 days (coming off a massive perc addiction) and maybe not the best canidate for handing out any advice,,,but first congrats for stopping them! secondly,,I know what you mean in the beginning the pills make you feel sooooo good and you have all this energy,,,but they will turn on you and suddenly 10-15 isnt enough. Stop now. I started with vicodin too,,but then was able to get my hands on percs and then suddenly 10 pills were not enough,,they turned on me and I became,,,someone else. Hope you made it thru the weekend! and great job for stopping!

[saddy6]

Congrats on 2 days as you have a start and just need to keep positive and keep going. As I learned, those evil pills do not give you the energy you need to live life at all. You will continue to take more to get that same high and feeling you achieved at the beginning but it's just a downward spiral. It will hurt at first and then the mental game becomes tough as once you start to feel better you figure taking a few won't hurt but it just starts it all over again. Stay strong here and now and get your life back! Do it for your baby, your family and yourself as you are worth it. Life isn't meant to be lived being on pills every day.

[jlannspr]

I'm on day 3. Day 2 was very depressing. Lightly exercise if you can. You will be happy with yourself for getting out now. Today, I feel like I am getting my senses back. Things smell better, taste better, and I genuinely smiled. It felt good to not be hiding behind a pill.

"Decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it."

[StuckANDscared]

Define "a long time".  To some peopole a long time is a few months...to others it's 2 decades of pill addiction.

Believe me with every ounce of your being when I say, "RUN!"  Do NOT keep takin these pills.  I'm tapering down from over 10 years of pain pill abuse/addiction...and I've lost almost everything multiple times because of these pills.  STOP NOW.

You're on day 2 - do you even understand how HUGE of an accomplishment that is?  Most people can't get past day 1 without caving.  There's alot to be said about your inner strength and dedication to stopping.

You're a brand new mother to a 3 month old baby - congratulations!  That is such a blessing.  When you feel weak, when you feel like a  "blob", when you feel like taking another pill...look...REALLY LOOK at your child...and don't take any more pills for him/her.  You brought a child into this world who needs you to survive...be there for him.  

You've barely scraped the top of this evil, horrible addiction.  Get out now while you can.  Do not take my words lightly...do not think you can just take a few for energy and motivation.  You can't.  I can't.  I thought that too...they helped me to get straight A and graduate with my doctorate from college...but look where I am now.  Fighting for my life in a battle with a pill no bigger than the size of a tiny pebble.  This tiny pill has so much strength, so much power...but you know what...YOU HAVE MORE STRENGTH AND POWER THAN THESE PILLS!

Some things that have helped me...said my MedHelp members...people I've never met but I consider have saved my life...

"You have to be okay with not being okay for a while." _Gnarly
"Surrender.  Accept whatever comes with the withdrawals...there's no other way."
"Change or Die...there's no other way out of this addiction."

You can message me anytime.  I hope you make the right choice here.

[Ann2497]

Congrats on day 2 without them.  That is a start.  You are getting energy from them now but that will change.  I used to get energy but it got to the point where I coundn't do anything with them but sit on the couch and watch tv.  All they did was keep me out of WDs.  I felt sick and tired all the time.  You have only been addicted for 3 months?  You are lucky that you are getting out now.  Look up the Thomas Recipe in the bottom right hand corner of this page.  There are some OTC items that will help you with the WD symptoms.  How are you feeling?  There are a lot of people here that can offer you support.