How can I quit one addiction but not the other?

[Ms_Punky_Doodle]

I stopped smoking 1 year ago today with the help of Chantix. I had to always eat before taking because they will cause nausea. I also got a bought with pnemonia  the 2nd week into the process. Despite everything I am so much happier, healthier and fatter. I am a 46 year women and have gained 30 lbs. I am not sure if this could be pre menopause or not smoking. But now I can walk around with out my legs feeling like they are on fire. I can bend over without getting dizzy. I can laugh without coughing. I dont smell like an ash tray. I had smoked since age 13 and usually smoked a pack and half a day more on the weekend. My parents smoked so becoming a smoker was easy. I try to tell people what has changed and they always refuse to believe thier symptoms are caused by smoking. I have dealt with addiction my entire life, at least that how it seems. At this time I am on methadone wanting to become free of that. I have taken it for 7 years. I had been totally clean for 4 years then a doctor cut a nerve in my leg leaving me with a lot a pain from how I walk causing back pain. I understand denial, blame, shame, fear, guilt without saying I have been to many treatment programs. The difference is I am productive have been the 11 years, I am not using to get high but feel guilty for using help with pain. I dont think I could have a bottle of oxycontin (never have taken but sound great) or other opiates to help with the pain. I just hate being dependant on anything, but I am. I wish there was a way to keep from so guilty. I am confused with my choices are there  any ideas???

[luppygirl]

oh and congrats on the smoking that is still one vice i am having trouble with so I commend anybody who can battle that horrible stinky demon

[luppygirl]

Have you ever thought of trying Lyrica.  I heard it does help some people with nerve pain.  My husband uses it due to nerve damage in his leg and it really does cut down on the pain. It isn't anything like oxy or stuff like that.  It might be worth to have a chat with your doctor to see if something like this might work for you.  You then wouldn't have the guilt of the methadone.  I am definitely no dr. i am just speaking from what i have seen and heard.  So if it already hasn't been talked to you about it might be something to look into... just a thought.   take care

[gizzy32]

I am not sure how to answer this one. You have went to treatment programs and taking methadone but you are only using for pain and not getting high. Guilt is a horrible feeling and there has to be a reason for it. Have you tried other alternatives for your pain. Is it possible for you to live without using and deal with the pain.

P.S. Good for you on quitting smoking, i need to quit that disgusting habit, but i am afraid, lol. Maybe i can cover myself with a bunch of nicotine patches, i am going to need help.