day 2 kicking Norco and vicoprofin

[clone1]

I made it thru last night but it was pure hell, walking the floor all nigh, coughing, sneezing, gaging, the runs, and thinking I would do anything to never go thru this again. I went thru it 2 years ago and it took 30 days until the anxiety went away, I just woke up that morning and it was all gone, like a miracle. How could I ever let myself get hooked again? Well I had an operation on my foot and as time went on I started going doctor shopping and the rest is history. Day two is a little better I got the tyrosine, and sone calcium mag, and some vitamin C, and ate some small meals, hot baths about every 4 hours really takes the pain out of my legs, last night I toss around in the bed they hurt so bad and had to get up and walk. My wife and kids think I have the flu. I'm ashamed to tell them the truth. I have a script for 120 oxys all I have to do is make a call and they awill be filled. I am fighting this urge, praying to god to help, because I know if I don't start now and get straight my family is going to be in the street because I'm not working right now. God help to get thru this and thank you all for writing to me.

[clone1]

yeah I called another doc today to try to get some valium to help WD and he nevr called me back. I was totally honest. WTF is with these doc's?

[clone1]

oh I see now. I never thought to do that, Yeah it IS calling out to me. Each day I fight my mind to not call it in.  I went 7 days before without it and then went and had it filled. I know I will do it again. I'm so deoressed, How do I get in aftercare?

[LeaAnn807]

I do think that honesty with your doctor is best about this though!  Tell them you're addicted (or dependent) and want to stop taking them.

[LeaAnn807]

Call your doctor and ask them to make a note that you won't be taking any more controlled drugs.  Also, give them the name of your drugstore and tell them to cancel the existing script.

If you are concerned with your privacy, just tell the doc that you don't want to stay on it anymore and don't want to be given any more scripts for it in the future!

[foolthrottle]

Call the doctor and tell him to cancel it, if its paper, rip it up. Tell someone there that you have an abuse problem an to cancel it, It will only help you. It sounds like your getting through this, dont have any loose ends brother. God bless.

[clone1]

what do you mean cancel the script. How do I do that???

[LeaAnn807]

If you don't care, I'll give you some priceless advice that I was given a few times.  Tell your wife so she can help you.  Cancel that script.  It'll call out to you at your weakest times!  Don't beat yourself up over doing this again.  Many of us have done the same!  Keeping this a secret from your wife may feel easier right now, but in the long run it will keep you from getting into your recovery the right way.  Take lots and lots of baths.  The vitamins are good.  Definitely take some immodium and drink lots of fluids.  Last but not least....get into some kind of aftercare support system.  That is the only way to get back on your feet and live the life you deserve!

Hugs!!!