methadon i drink,dream,think,my life revole around methadon

[rezajafari]

hi,to beautifulist people,methadon,i have been taking methadon for 9 years,i have done evry thing to stop it but i couldnot ,but last year i have dicided enough is enough and i have started to taper off every 2 weeks 2 mill down,befor that i started going to gym 3 times a weeks and started to take vitamine as well,evry thing was ging ok untill it came to 15 mills,i am on 6 mill now ,but evry day seems like a year,i have depresion, tired,legach,no energy,no sleeping,and other thing,my gp gave me dyapazam which made me more tiered even i canot have energy to go gym,one bad thing i do is that i alway save some methadone and use it weekend,like i am on 6 mill but i use 4 and keep the rest for weeken and use it sat,and sunday,i know it is wrong but i got used to it,any advice and help,belive me i sleep ,drink,dream,etc,about methadon 24,27,hours,and i lost evrything because of it,even after 15 mill i changed my city ,i have to beat it this time that is my last time and last chance,advise and help from people who have been my sution, i love you all you are most nicest people i have met,

[Imdonewithit]

Hi, Congrats on becoming clean. I have been on methadone off and on for 14 years, one time I did the cold turkey thing at 40ml a day, it was hell., and stupid me went back on it. I have now been on it for 12 years and have weaned myself off from 40ml to 2 doses a day, 1 ml in the morning and 1 1/4 ml at night. I plan to do this for the next 2 weeks maybe a week. then go down to 1/2 ml. my question is, do you think i'll still have severe withdrawals since I've been doing a slow taper? I'm really nervous about it, nobody in my fam knows, and I have a great job and just got a promotion, I can't afford to be not showing up for work because i'm so sick. I just want to feel healthy and be free from it. enough is enough.

[Painful93]

I got on methadone, initially in 1967. I have been on it more often than not, for most of my life. I am now 59 years old and if I got on the clinic in '67, well, you do the math. I went into detox 5 weeks ago and went down 5 mgs every day. When I was discharged I was in horrible shape. You  guys know the deal. No sleep, the runs & all that good stuff. I wish you all the strength you need to stay off of the MMTP and I echo the advice to not take extra. It will keep your system bouncing up and down. Keep it at the dose you're given and God Bless you.

[gnarly_1]

hey dude first off congrads on your taper your at the jumping off point now
WHATEVER YOU DO DONT start doing more to feel better....you will screw up you whole taper and all that you worked so hard for....just try to keep a positive attitude
and try some vitamins ...liquid B-complex helps with the energy thing but it is
going to take time b/4 you start to feel better..Ive got 63 days clean today and im just
now starting to feel better ....once you stop your body will go thew withdrawals for a final
time....it will be similar to how you have been feeling for the last 7mg but after about
a week it starts to get a little bit better each day that goes by...just hang tuff you can do this don't let the holidays get to you do your best im shure your family wouldn't want to see you fall back just because they where in town good luck and god bless
Gnarly    

[rezajafari]

hi evrybody,i have started 1mill a day,i started panicing, i am depress and tiered and other bad feeling,cherismas coming and my familly are coming to see me,but i donot feel to talk or do anything with them because i am feeling tired  and canot have  energy to do any thing ,i was thinking to buy some more methadonon for chrismas and use it over chrismas and after that stop it all together,i think i can do it what do you think i should do it,with many thanks

[rezajafari]

hi,thanks for all of you,from today i have started using 2 mill of methadone and next week to go to 1 mill,i am dreading it but i have to do it because that is my last channce and since i lost evrything because of methadone and i am sick of it and you people know how bad it is depending on methadone,belive me i think ,sleep.dream,and my life revolves around methadone ,but i will have to beat it after that i want to help volountery to help people with methadone problems,i think i can do it because i have got enough experence about methadone,but first i should sort out myself then think about helping others,any small advice to me this time help me alot,plz advise me, thanks alot you are fantastic people and i love all of you

[gladtobeoffmethodone]

Well i find that jumping off is the best bet I don't know what coming off 5ml is like but i jumped off at 120ml of Methadone and the first week is rough second week not to bad allot of anxiety so my doc gave me 2 week supply of lorazepam 1mg  and so far its helped  Because it is now day 16 and things are allot better . So my advice is to just take the plunge and jump off . Always remember withdrawals do not last forever  Gladetobeoff

[gnarly_1]

hi and welcome to the forum...well your at the end now and your doing what I did 55 days ago I tapered off a 6 1/2yr habit of 150mg a day to 0mg in 8 1/2 mo the last 5 ml
is the hardest part and if I had to to it over I would jump at 5 rather then being in a constant state of withdrawals for the next 5 weeks your withdrawals should be no worst then your feeling right now if im reading your post correctly and it was exactly how I felt
going thew the last 5 ml ...each time you drop brings withdrawals ...its just not worth it
if I had to do it again I would jump at 5ml and get it over with your final withdrawal
shouldn't be anny worst then tapering in the lower doses....mine wasn't and its always worst in your mind then it actualy will be so just go for it and you will go thew 7 days of feeling like shi# but it will be over with and then it starts to get better
methadone takes a wile to get out of your system ...I still have problems sleeping
and the energy thing is still there but getting better as time passes...keep posting
here there are lots of people here that have kicked methadone and will be helpful
your doing great so far and your at the point where the end is near so keep up the good work hang in there just a little longer and you will be free of the liquid handcuffs.....good luck and god bless...Gnarly    

[dj2584]

I know how it feels to be so dependent on something..to feel like you have no control over your life.  I only recently stopped doing heroin, and had been for about 2 years.  And for years before that, I was doing oxy and whatever other pills-methadone when it was available.  It's a very scary drug.  I'm on Suboxone now, and would recommend it to anyone struggling with kicking an opiate habit.  You'll find mixed reviews of the drug on this site and many others, but my personal opinion, it is an amazing medication and has helped give me my life back.  It can be hard to get on, I don't know where you live but in my state, there are only 7 doctors.  I was SO fortunate to find one.  It's also expensive, and without insurance, the cost can really add up.  I don't know?  Maybe in some places there are suboxone clinics-similar to methadone clinics?  But getting on it would be my best advive to you.  In combination with seeing a counselor of course.  And 12 step meetings.  I know they sound corny but when you're in a bottomless pit and all you wanna do is use, sometimes going to a meeting and listening/talking with a bunch of people who are feeling the exact same thing REALLY HELPS!   Best of luck to you.

Also, you said your gp gave you diazepam(Valium)...I was prescribed Klonopin-another benzodiazepine-for a couple years and let me tell you, benzos are pretty addicting too and the withdrawals are hell.  Try to take the Valium as short term as possible!!

[christos24]

yeah methadone have become my liquid handcuffs, Im actually going through an administrative detox cuz my insurance maxed out so Im forced to be lowered 5mgs every other day, its super rough. I am hoping to completely detox off and not go to subutex/suboxone, I would like to finally be off all the medications once and for all. The detox is insanely hard and I think its way to fast, its inhumane, but I have no way of changing it so I forced into it. Youve been on methadone for some years longer than myself so I know you understand the physical dependency that methadone creates, literally less than 24 hrs. and my body is dry, begging inside for more. If I would have somehow known how truly bad it could get I would have just gotten detox meds and went cold turkey from heroin, cuz at least that will be done in a week 2 max. Whereas methadone last at least month minimum. I always tell anyone on hear that the methadone clinic should be your last option after trying detoxing, treatment programs, even suboxone, then and only then should it be a good idea. I have almost 3 years on methadone and yeah for the most part it help me live a more stable life than when I was full blown using but Im just as addicted and dependent on my daily dose as I was using. Its a tough decision to make. I wish you the best and I really hope you do get off of methadone successfully and can start your new life medication free (as far as opiates go). Best of luck-Christos