You have to do what is best for you. Regaurdless of what that may be. What good is being in pain and not being able to live your very full and happy life? It is quite the catch 22 damned if you do damned if you do not. I am here for you bro with the rest of the "P's"! Pammy
Thanks and I know I couldn't stop you if I wanted to Skip! You have always been set on that. I am a Christian so I agree. Can we say that 'word' here? One never knows! But thanks guys you all seem to know me well. I ain't foolin no one!
It just hurts and I am here to vent my frustrations once again.
If you would like to become informed, read through the below links. You will see what is considered accepted, medical practice these days. There are many more, but I think these will suffice:
http://www.mskcc.org/mskcc/html/425.cfm
http://www.whocancerpain.wisc.edu/eng/11_3/tpda.html
http://www.geisinger.org/services/palliative/pain_mgt.shtml
Notice if you read, this one also is endorsed by the American Society of Addiction Medicine: http://www3.us.elsevierhealth.com/WOW/pu080.html
http://transrecovery.com/oxycontin.htm
This one even addresses the fear doctors have of addiction: http://health.discovery.com/centers/pain/medicine/med_addict.html
http://www.usatoday.com/news/health/2001-08-09-opioids.htm
http://www.eperc.mcw.edu/educate/flash/fastfact/418.htm
You are getting high on your meds 24/7? That would mean you aren't taking them as prescribed. If you are, you would be way used to them by now. Even though my active addiction is at bay for the time being, I am an addict. I always will be. I would have to say you are too, Bill. But, you also need to be medicated for your quality of life.
The Thomas050 on this thread is new to MedHelp. The Thomas you are thinking of, our Thomas of the Thomas Recipe, is the nick Thomas03 in here.
MrMichael still has his same nick with no numbers, so he is easy to know. LOL.
I saw you say you hadn't been in here in awhile, so I see how the nick and number confused you, it did me too when I started reading in here again. Want I should handcuff Thomas03 down and magic maker his nick on his forehead so he won't change it again and confuse us all? (Just email the the $1 charge, heh.)
Read you are detoxing again, know you will be in my prayers.
I don't know all the medical terms you two use about this subject but I have known you two since my beginning here. I have read and listen to you two very closely since I came. I am a chronic pain patient and I am an addict. I have been to addictionoligist and several so called experts in drug dependence. I was just basically kicked out of a 1800 person study here in Alabama because of testing positive for pot. Anyway that doesn't really mean **** here but I have struggled with the addiction/dependence debate for over 10 years now. I am dependent on morphine, without it I am in severe pain. Without it I go thru withdrawals because my body is dependant on it. I am also an addict. I mean I will get high from it or I will find something else or take more to get the 'normal feeling' we all kid ourselves about. So in reading both your opinions and talking to several Doctors about this issue I say if you are a chronic pain patient yes you are dependant on the drug. If you are like the other opinion and are not in pain just a user you are addicted to the drug. I see a huge difference here between it. Some of you don't . It means the same thing to you. To me it is day and night. But none of this really matters anyway. I am still a drug addict. I use it to remain high 24/7. I also have severe pain and without it my quailty of life sux! So I have a dilemma. Which catagory do I fit in Thomas, MrM? In both of your posts you both make great points. But I am asking for both your opinions on me. You both know me equally well and have been with me since I started the Kadian. I am really interested in you guys opinions. If you would rather do this in private:
***@****, thanks guys and it is good to be back!