methadone wds

[ponco]

good morn,740am thurs. im haveing some issues, im not haveing wds at this time. But im craveing for pain meds why? im still on methadone 9mgs that should stop craveings? i didnt have this before. and im going threw alot of crap here staying with my x im a very clean person i clean this house 7 days a week. M x sisterlaw is a slob, she dosent shower, her dogs are stinking the place up, she walks her dogs once a day , they crap in her room and pee, and one of her dogs constantly couhing the other wines 24 7 , im loseing it my x knows her sister is like this but o well. I have know were else to go so im going to have to keep dealing with it, they give me o support, my x tried to take her life 3 times od on zan, norcos, soma because her son died from overdose, i have tried to help her if i wasnt here she would have died her sister could care less, well she told me she hates me for not letting her die. i know she has zanex she dosent know i know next time if no one here cares then i dont john

[YesLife4Me]

I hate filth too.  There is no excuse for it.  To me there is 'lived in' and dirty.  Even if you don't have the best or nicest things, there is no reason to not try to keep them clean.  A little soap and water goes a long way.   Ok..getting off my pedestal now.   Obviously I have an obsessive compulsive side to me as well.   I've been working on my house so I can move back in or sell it.  I find every little thing that needs a touch of paint, a hole patched, a dirty spot on the carpet, etc.  

I have to remind myself to let some things go, that I can't do it all in one day, nor does it have to be done on anyone's timeline but my own.  Do what I can and let the rest go.  That's easier said than done, I know.  But worrying about things we can't change doesn't change it and all it does it get us stressed out creating triggers and cravings.   Take a deep breath and exhale slowly.  

And I agree with Vic, you don't need your big book to go to a meeting.  They have them there for you to use and have extra copies if you want to purchase another.   I really think that will help you alot.   For one it will get you out of the environment that is stressing you and then you will develop some new friendships and support.    You can look up where local meetings are in your are online.  Just type in AA meetings and your town.  

[weaver71]

I had to take my focus off everything and everyone to get clean. When my mind would drift to things that could become excuses or triggers, I would read a book on recovery, go online, or take a walk and work the first 3 steps of my program over and over. Craving is normal, and triggers are bound to come, but first things first. Our minds play tricks on us, to get what it wants. When I was using, a rainy day would make me use, a sunny day would make me use, a bad or good day where all good "reasons" to feel down or need a little extra pep. For every one reason I used, there are 3 reasons not to. I had to keep reminding myself that there is no problem so big that drugs can't make it worse. The old ways of thinking are deeply rooted, and all the old reasons to think that way are still there. As I progress, I am the one who is changing, not my wife, kids, neighbors, or situations. I chose to put the pills in my body, and I choose not to put pills in my body. Time has made all the difference.

[VICourageous]

Hi John..Having the Compulsive Behavior and wanting everything done like Yesterday, is was started my addiction..I got Buzzed up to get every thing done at once..Like Pooh Tiger said all of that is Triggers..I had to do a complete Physic change and it was not easy at the age 56..Stress & Drama is one of the biggest Triggers for us...As far as the meetings go..You do not have to have a Book to carry in..They will give you all the literature and you can buy some books too..That sounds like a excuse there my friend...The Meetings are a Big Life Savior.You would of already learned some of the Tools to deal with what you are going through..Just to be able to go and share your own feelings and to listen to some one elses experiences is just a Blessing.You will always receive Hope, Strength and learn about your own Accountability..There is always a Message for you to hear through someone else experience. NOW.. You stop washing the truck and get in it and hit the next meeting today..AA/NA..I know you will just love it...OK

[ponco]

not yet been to aa for qa long time lost my big book, but i will find another, stress is a trigure , cant win in a situation like this, how can people live in filth, i was brought up different. i clean everything i own you can say im a clean freak, but theres no exuse to live that way i wash my truck every day even in the rain crazy i know, compulsive, thank you it got to get bad before it will get better. john

[YesLife4Me]

Hi John,  sounds to me like the situation you are living in is causing triggers that are giving you the cravings.  Are you going to any NA or AA meetings for support?   Id be going crazy in your situation too.  I know people like that and I don't like going over to there homes because of dogs, dog smell, dirt, etc.  Just remember that the only thing you can change is you and how you react to it.   Like the serenity prayer says...god grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change (them/how they live)  the courage to change the things I can (self) and wisdom to know the differences.