I am now taking 180ml of methadone a day, I was addicted to pain killers my whole life and 2 years ago made this crazy desition to get on Methadone. I thought it would help me live a normal life, while getting high on 5 bucks a day methadone. I am now living ,married to a methadone clinic ,and treated like a frickin drug addict by my doctor. Why did i think this would help? Anyone thinking of getting on Methadone......forget it, u will be sorry. I guess my question is how can i get off this **** (is there something that will help the pain i am thinking of putting myself through), How long will it take>? Am I doomed to a life of depression and pain?? I want to be free, being a drug addict is one thing , having the goverment as ur drug dealer is the worst!